raewrites__x3's Xanga

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 17:12:34 GMT

hey sweetahs, i'm sorry to say it,

but i'm going to be taking a little break from xanga.

i've been so busy i've hardly had time to update

and there's been alot going on so i've too much on my mind.

i'm really sorry but i need a little break.

comments and subs are always loved

but i absolutely understand if this site loses popularity

since i haven't been too great with it lately.

well, lots of love -- rae

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 17:00:29 GMT

back from nyc ! sorry it took me so long to

get back here but i was realllly busy.

anyways, who has facebook?! add me ! ( :

tell me if you have it and i'll give you my name.

but alright, update time loves ! <3

001.

above all things, i believe in love. love is like oxygen

love is a many splendored thing.

love lifts us up where we belong. all you need is love

002.

don't cry when the sun is gone

or the tears will block your

view of the stars shining

003.

there comes a time when we realize the

farther we run, the greater the fear. once

we can associate it with something familiar,

it's superiority over us shrinks until we

reach this subtle moment that can either

go both ways. we accept this fear and

deal with it, or we let this fear define

us, the choice is ours. others can only

take us so far, never the whole way.

so once we get there, we have to

make it happen on our own

004.

beauty is judged by the size

of your heart

not the size of your jeans

005.

love is giving up everything for someone

who makes you forget what was important in the first place

006.

in the end, only three things last -

faith, hope, and love

007.

darkness cannot drive out darkness,

only light can do that. hate cannot

drive out hate. only love can do that

008.

never underestimate a girl like me. i'm like

no one you've ever met and i'm stronger

than i seem. you can't break me

009.

it's been a long time since i've actually enjoyed the sunset

i like all the colors mixing into each other.

i am getting better, slowly, and things are starting to look up.

sometimes you might even see me cracking a true, honest-to-God smile.

it's rare, but it happens more often now

and even if no one else notices, i do. and that is all that really matters

010.

things you're scared of are usually the most worthwhile

011.

be optimistic, life disapointments would be harder

to take if you didn't know any swear words

^( hahaha )^

012.

sometimes it's better to stumble,

because maybe there's a better way to stand.

maybe we need to cry sometimes

because laughter can't hide the worst.

and maybe that's why we get hurt,

to pass the lesson on and teach someone else

013.

saying sorry isn't what matters,

it's the way you treat them after it

i know this update isn't really good..

but i was in such a hurry!

i made it soo fast hahah.

please comment and sub ?

and i'll get back to comments from the

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 15:34:52 GMT

update update update ( :

well, i'm going to nyc from tuesday to saturday night

and i'll busy all day tomorrow

so here's an update for now untill i get back

please lots of comments and subs ?!

( :

001.

our eyes are placed in front because it is more

important to look ahead than to look back

002.

it's time to be positive now

003.

in a dark world full of hate,

we must find the light of love

004

" cry. sometimes it's good to cry. sometimes

it's only right to sit there and think, and cry.

maybe you did need them, maybe they did need you

bust just couldn't see it right then and there.

they'll come back to you one day for good,

and they'll really mean everything.

if not, there's 6 bilion other people in the world

for you deserve only the best.

i wish i knew how to take my own advice,

but this is for you, this is for every girl with their heart broken.

don't give up, sometimes all you need is one more chance "

-- my friend nicole's "this is for all the girls who got hurt by them boys"

005.

the point of faith is to feel truth,

to remind us why we got here and where we're

going next. and and that there is a reason

to how and why we're there

006.

i don't know where i'm going to end up

but i know that i'm not going to waste my time

figuring that out, or i'll miss where i am now

007.

stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things

bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness

-- to write love on her arms

008.

when i try to be more than me, it never works out.

but when i'm me, it does. so he has made

me realize to always stay true to myself

009.

there is a certain point in life where

you get tired of chasing

everyone and trying to fix everything.

but it's not giving up,

it's realizing you don't need certain people

and the crap they bring to your life

010.

never deny how you feel,

because your heart is what guides you

011.

i know there will be risks but i want to take them with you

012.

before, my fear was being vulnerable.

the ability of another human being

to possibly tear apart your insides

at any moment was enough to keep me running.

he, however, made my insides come alive,

my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent-

he took away my fear and gave me hope.

but more importantly, for the first time in my life,

instead of wanting to run,

he gave me every reason to stay

013.

well i know falling down hurts

but if you never jump

then you'll never know if you can fly

014.

here's to wishing you the bluest sky

and a brighter day tomorrow

015.

so live your dreams and learn to chase them

and when you're close enough to taste them

then you know it's all come alive

016.

so hold fast to all of your hopes

and chase all your dreams with all the things you know.

live each fay like it could be your last because

this world can be a cruel place.

the more you give it, the more it seems you lose faith,

but just hold on tight and everything will be just fine

017.

hope is a feeling just like anything else.

so don't let anyone tell you it's gone,

for if you still feel it, it's still there.

018.

everyone's relying on eachother for happiness,

and it's clear it doesn't truely work that way.

so save yourself the pain, and know the only person

that can make you happy sad good or bad, is you.

019.

keep your head held high, sweetheart.

today might be bad, but there's another day

just around the corner

020.

the apple tree is much like life. the apples

represent the girls. the best ones grow at the top

and the rotten ones grow at the bottom. guys don't want

to take the time to get to the ones on the top,

so they settle for the ones at the bottom

but someday one boy will come with a ladder.

021.

who needs a boyfriend ?

i've got my girlfriends.

022.

if everything happened how and when we wanted it to,

nothing would be worth waiting for

023.

don't be afraid of death,

be afraid of an unlived life.

you don't have to live forever,

you just have to live

024.

there are two great days in a person's life,

the day they are born, and they day they figure out why

025.

she fell, she hurt, she felt, she lived. and for all the tumble of her experiences,

she still had hope. maybe this next time would do the trick. or maybe not.

but unless you stepped into the game, you would never know

026.

" ever since i was little i knew just what i wanted to do in this world,

i wanted to make a difference in it. "

-- matt

027.

if you can dream it,

you can acomplish it

today's question:

if you could tell everyone in the world one thing,

what would you say to them ?

answer: i'd tell them to always have hope, and

never give up, no matter how hopeless it seems.

answer, i'd love to hear from you ( :

Friday, July 04, 2008

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 14:41:24 GMT

happy fourth of july everyone ! ( :

wooh i'm having such a good day today,

this calls for an update !

one bigger then the little one's i've been making heh

001.

the woman came from a man's rib.

not from his feet to be walked on,

not from his head to be superior,

but from the side to be equal,

under the arm to be protected,

and next to the heart to be loved

002.

i think that's what I find most strange about this world,

nobody ever says how they feel.

they hurt, but they don't cry out.

they're happy, but they don't dance or jump around.

and they're angry but they hardly ever scream

because they feel ashamed. nothing's worse than that.

so we all walk around with our heads looking down

and never look up to see how beautiful the sky is

003.

laugh as much as you breathe

004.

a memory is a way of holding onto the things you love,

the things you are, and the things you never want to lose

005.

you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks, even

months analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces

together, justifying what could've, should've, would've

happened. or you can just leave the pieces on the

floor and realize there's a reason they're down there

006.

i'm going to do something this summer.

i'm going to change something. i'm going

to make someone never forget me. i'm

going to make this summer worth my time

007.

when life gives you a hundred reasons to fall down,

show life a thousand reasons to get back up

008.
welcome to wherever you are. this is your

life, you made it this far. welcome, you got

to believe. that right here, right now you're

exactly where you're supposed to be

009.

in life, we do things. some we wish we had never done,

and some we wish we could replay a million times,

but they make us who we are and in the end, they shape and detail us.

if we were to reserve them, we wouldn't be the person we are today

so just live. make mistakes and have wonderful memories

but, never second guess who you are, where you've been

and, most importantly, where you're going

010.

boys will break your heart. friends will betray you.

parents will seem too strict and life will annoy you.

but you should always remember that there's a purpose

for these things to be happening to us.

so keep your head up and your spirits high

because if you don't, life will just pass you by

011.

i've mostly found if you take a break for something

and then come back to it, it always works out.

sometimes fixing things when they're wrong is like throwing

wood in a fire, it only feeds the flame. when you walk

away from something and then come back with arms wide open,

it's almost certain they will run back into them

012.

everyone has a reason for waking up in the morning,

and my reason is you

013.

faith is the first step,

even if you don't see the whole staircase

014.

life isn't about holding the good cards,

it's about playing the ones you have well

015.

i hope that you're learning to listen,

and i hope that you learn to stay.

i hope you find what you're missing

and grow a little stronger each day

016.

where i've been to where i am is worth it

017.

there are two dates on your tombstone

but the most important part is the little - between them

018.

may your joys be added,

your sorrows subtracted,

your friends multiplied,

and your enimies divided

020.

if you spend all your time telling yourself you're not good enough,

you'll miss out on the person that knows you are

021.

this is real, this is me

and this is exactly where

i'm supose to be

022.

" so my cousin is pregnant and she was just telling us how

she broke the news to her husband that the baby was going to be a girl

and the first thing he says is,

'aww. boys are going to break her heart.' "

023.

any life, no matter how long a complex it may be,

is made up of a single moment, the moment in which

a person finds out once and for all who they are

today's question:

what's one thing you're proud of yourself for?

answer: well, the thing i am probably most proud of myself for is giving up cutting. i think it's been a pretty big acomplishment ( :

answer, i'd love to hear from you ( :

Tuesday, July 01, 2008

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 14:53:11 GMT

so yesterday morning someone who was like a brother to me

left for basic training. he's going to be a marine.

i've never been more proud of, or scared for, anyone in my life.

and he is my true hero, for so many reasons.

( matt, we miss and love you so very much )

001.

hey unfaithful, i will teach you to be stronger.

hey ungraceful, i will teach you to forgive one another.

hey unloving, i will love you

002.

i’m just living my life and being the best version

of a woman i can be. i’m not always going to please

everyone. st the end of the day, the only person i

should be answering to is myself. you have to speak

your mind. don’t let anyone talk you out of being you

003.

i know a lot of people know who he is, but i also know there

are not that many who got to see the guy that i did

and that guy, well, i’ll never forget him, never.

i've learned so much about life and emotion from knowing him

and i wouldn't change a thing about it.

your heart needs to go through some bumps like these

in order to make it through.

besides, no matter what he's done or not done,

he had the biggest impact on me these past years.

and i know no matter how many years go by,

my stomach will always do a little flip when i see that face

004.

pretty means that a girl has timeless beauty.

she’s beautiful now, and she will be beautiful

when she's 80. cute is for the girls with great

personalities. girls who are hot don’t look good

if they go to class in baggy sweats, a bed head,

and without makeup. they're only attractive

when they're fully dressed up. girls who were

considered as hot in high school are the same

girls who are no longer attractive at 30

005.

when you get something good, enjoy it.

don't go along looking for something better

006.

dreams are one of the most common ways

your heart tries to tell you what it wants

or what you've been missing all along

007.

strength doesn’t come from winning.

your struggles develop your strength.

when you go through hardship and

decide not to surrender, that’s strength

008.

i am who i am today

because of the choices

i made yesterday

009.

smile, though your heart is aching.

smile, even though it's breaking.

when there are clouds in the sky,

you'll get by. if you smile through

your fear and sorrow, smile

and maybe tomorrow, you'llsee the sun

come shining through for you

010.

breaking down can be a good thing sometimes.

you let out all of your sadness and angers go away.

once that is all gone, all you have left inside you are

the good memories. you're the only person through

that can bring back the bad again but you are also

the only person to bring in happiness.

so, what will you choose to do?

011.

it seems like the whole world is out to keep us apart.

once we have one obsticle, life decides to throw us

another one; like it's trying to test our love or something.

but what's interesting about it all is that i've never been

motivated to do anything in my entire life until now. i'm

motivated to make this work, and you know why?

cause i love you, and love makes us do some crazy things

012.

" it hurts to fall down, yeah, but when you get back up

you find the people that are not only

the ones that gave you wings,

but the ones that gave you the courage to fly "

-- matt

013.

what we see mainly depends

on what we look for

today's question:

how easily do you get jealous?

answer: well, i try not to get jealous much at all. the only thing i ever really get jealous about is like relationship wise, and i try not to let that get to me either. so i guess i don't really get easily jealous.

answer, i'd love to hear from you

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 14:08:41 GMT

so here's emilie and me acting like losers hahaha

i'm the one with the stripped shirt and grey hoodie ( right )

and she's the one in the vs pink shirt ( left )

well, you should really check out her site sometime ( :

just click on the picture and it'll take you there

001.

things don't go wrong and break your heart

so you can become bitter and give up

they happen to break you down

and build you up so you can

be all that you were intended to be

002.

don't rely on others to fix your mistakes

because in the end, you're all you've got.

jealousy can't get you anywhere except nowhere

confidence is the key to life

without confidence, there is no beauty.

and without beauty, there is no happiness

003.

" i want to believe that you can do this,

because i want to believe in you.

i don't know that you will,

or know that it will last

but i know that i want to believe

that you can and it will "

-- the boyyy ( :

004.

live your life with arms wide open

005.

sometimes no matter how much you want to fix it,

you can't. sometimes no matter how

much you want to put it back together, you have to leave it alone.

sometimes you have to just accept

that no matter how hard you try, you'll never change your fate

006.

what is cute? cute is young and inexperienced. cute

is holding hands in the car, and kissing at the red

lights. what is sexy? sexy is standing in the rain

as you push me against the hood of your car,

tearing my shirt, as you kiss me with the intent

to never stop. what is passion? passion is

knowing what you want and stopping at

nothing until you get it. what is beautiful?

beautiful is all about the inside of a person.

beauty can only be found in the heart. what

is love? love is the amazing balance of all

these things. in your mind, heart, body, and soul

007.

always believe in yourself,

it's the only way to make it through

008.

don't be bitter over life's disappointments,

learn to let go of the past, to recognize

that every day won’t be sunny, and whenever

you find yourself lost in the darkness of

despair, remember, its only in the black of

the night that you see the stars, and those

stars lead you back home

009.

once you figure out who you are and

what you love about yourself, i think

everything else just falls into place

010.

boys like to take things apart to see what makes them run.

and when it comes to kissing, well, they do it just for fun.

they never give their heart's away, they keep them locked up tight.

they're the source of too many of those sleepless nights.

boys are very silly, they play us girls for fools.

and while they may think we're stupid, but we know they're the tools

011.

maybe sometimes you have to stop waiting

for someone to come along and fix what's wrong

maybe you have to stop feeling sorry for yourself

and realize that no one else has the answer.

sometimes you have to be your own hero

no question today sweetahs.

please comment and sub ( :

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 13:30:26 GMT

i don't know about you all,

but it always seems like as soon as things

finally get to a point you can accept,

something happens to shake them up again.

don't you just hate that ?

anyways, i'll update for you lovies

before i go out ( :

001.

the past is only the future with the lights on

002.

maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out

where you're going and just enjoy where you're at

003.

keep your head up, doll

it may be stormy now

but it can't rain forever

004.

laugh when you can. apologize when you should.

let go of what you can't change.

kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly.

take chances, give everything, and have no regrets.

life is too short to be anything but happy

005.

don't ruin today worrying about what will happen tomorrow

006.

i finally learned what life's about.

hanging on when your heart's had enough

and giving more when you want to give up

007.

if there is no struggle, there is no progress

008.

when you're a beautiful person on the inside,

there is nothing in the world that can change that.

jealousy is the result of one's lack of self-confidence,

self-worth, and self-acceptance.

so if you can't accept yourself, then certainly no one else will

009.

obstacles are put in the way

to see if what you want

is really worth fighting for

010.

the people that are crazy enough

to think they can change the world

are the ones that do

(infamousxxquotes)

011.

don't wonder why people go crazy.

wonder why they don't.

all we can lose in a day, in an instant.

wonder what it is left that holds them together

today's question:

do you think you'll married in the next 10 years? if so, do you have any guess as to who?

answer: hm.. yes, i hope i'm married by the time i'm 26 hahh. and ya i think i have a pretty good guess to who it will be, well.. who it shouldddd be anyway ( :

answer, i'd love to hear from you

Monday, June 23, 2008

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 16:02:30 GMT

update update update ( :

i'm so glad everyone liked the

last post so much !

that one meant a lot to me

but oka here's another update for you loves

please comment and subscribe

001.

happiness lies for those who cry,

those who hurt, those who have searched,

and those who have tried.

for only they can appreciate the importance

of people who have touched their lives

002.

things don't go wrong and break your heart

so you can become bitter and give up.

they happen to break you down and build you up

so you can be all that you were intended to be

( that's me ! ^^ hahah, credit if you use ( : )

003.

if you don't like something about your life,

don't complain about it, change it.

everything is up to you, and nobody else

004.

you just have to be happy. if you are,

everything else will fall into place

005.

know that you will at one point or another find yourself lost and alone

but sometimes those are the best times.

if you use it as a chance to find another way.. another perspective,

a chance to drown out the surroundings around you

and simply hear yourself, redirect yourself on another path.

and who knows, you may find yourself at a different destination

that still has you content even though you weren't expecting it

006.

honestly, if you aren't willing to sound stupid,

then you don't deserve to fall in love

007.

a best friend is someone who loves you

when you forget to love yourself

008.

don't judge someone for their wrongs,

you don't know what they're going through

or what you would have done

if you were in their position

009.

you want to know what living life to the fullest actually is?

it's waking up on monday morning with no complaints.

it's knowing you always deserve to laugh.

it's doing what feels right no matter what.

it's doing what you want to, no matter how stupid you look.

it's about being yourself,

because no one can tell you you're doing it wrong

010.

when things go wrong,

don't let it last

just tell yourself

your future will be

better then your past

011.

no matter how bad you want something to happen,

you always have to let it happen how it's meant to,

it always ends up better that way

012.

whatever you go through, it all makes you stronger.

no matter how many tears, or how many screams or whines.

even when you think your postive its all making you weaker.

and tearing you down from the inside out.

but it never does, it only prepares you for the future

i'm in a hurry and tried to finish

this fast, so sorry if it's not amazingg,

and no time for a question,

sorryy. please comment and sub ? ( :

Friday, June 20, 2008

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 23:14:35 GMT

this update is going to be dedicated

to stopping any sort of self mutilation

and from "to write love on her arms"

please comment and sub

to let me know what you think !

and btw, do you loves like the new

layout i made for the site ?

and how about the new playlist ? ( :

001

the stars are always there but we miss them

in the dirt and clouds.

we miss them in the storms.

tell them to remember hope. we have hope.

-- to write love on her arms

002.

stop the bleeding,

rescue is possible,

love is the movement.

003.

love is the simple answer to so many of our hardest questions

-- to write love on her arms

004.

she opened her eyes

and found relief through his life

and put down her knives.

then she opened her life

and found relief through his eyes

and she put down her life

005.

we're called to hold our hands against the wounds

of a broken world, to stop the bleeding

-- Don Miller

006.

tell her something true when all she's known are lies.

tell her God loves her. tell her about forgiveness,

the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made

to dance in white dresses. all these things are true

-- to write love on her arms

007.

we are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless.

we don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers.

we won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break

in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way.

we were made to be lovers bold in broken places,

pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home

-- to write love on her arms

008.

i wear my scars proudly,

they represent the battles through

which I have gone,

and I am proud because

those battles i have won

when i let go of hurting myself

and held on to hope

009.

Christ knows when we surrender our

broken hearts, when we trade death for life.

-- to write love on her arms

010.

i admit that i've searched for answers in all the wrong places,

and have searched through my heart for fimiliar faces

when everything's changingand spinning so fast

it seems like the scars are the only things that last

but now i've let go of who i use to be

and finally found that she isn't me

i've finally let go of how i got by

and finally learned, it's my time to fly

011.

each day is different, a new battle begun,

but Christ payed the death so you already won.

so before it's too late, write love on her arms.

need help ? get help.

don't wait another day,

visit to write love on her arms today

spread the love

stop the bleeding