Instructions:

tell a funny story. everyone needs to laugh sometimes...oh, and happy new year.

i really am an emotional basketcase.

So right now...I apparently cannot stop crying...no worries, nothing extreme happened. I'm ok. But I'm just at that point I was when I was 9 years old and watched Homeward Bound and couldn't help but cry uncontrollably. Cori and Andy and Jenn watched "The Story of Us" tonight. I walked in on them, so I watched it too...now, guys, you don't understand how much this movie gets to me. I love it...it's kinda extreme at times, but seriously? It shows every single up and down of marriage and how a couple who's at the very last strand of hope carries on...and right now, I just am kinda sad at marriages in general. I've never felt this way before...I got really spoiled as a kid cause I saw my own parents...who had the most amazing marriage I've ever seen (and still do). But lately, marriages just fall apart. One after another. And I never thought it would hurt me cause, ya know, I'm not married. But it really really does. It makes me so sad when I see a coule, who I love so much, just fall apart. I don't understand it cause they are truly better together...they're good for each other and now that they're apart, they just lose it. It makes me so sad to see people get such a messed up view of what marriage and love really are. When are people gonna realize how this works? I guess they won't...which is why I would just assume have nothing to do with it at all...that is until I watch "The Story of Us"...it's not some dumb wishy washy movie about living happily ever after. It's about reality. And right now...I guess I just wish that this particular fictional movie was my reality...or at least someone's.

Communication:

"Any act by which one person gives to or receives from another person information about that person's needs, desires, perceptions, knowledge, or affective states. Communication may be intentional or unintentional, may involve conventional or unconventional signals, may take linguistic or nonlinguistic forms, and may occur through spoken or other modes."

One of my co-workers asked me the other day if I ever thought about becoming a nun...I said no. Then we talked about how nice it would be because you wouldn't really have to worry as much about the world...this kept my thoughts going...would I really just stop worrying if I didn't see or talk to anyone anymore? Probably not...I'd probably wonder how everyone was doing all the time...heh. Ya know what? I already get like that...when people go through rough times and just clam up and we have no communication...but I can't say much since I tend to do the same sometimes.

Guys, just know that I think about y'all and really do want life to go amazingly wonderful for ya...if you do ever need anything or finally wanna do something about it, communication's a great way to start off...

...just don't expect anything to ever change or get better if you don't plan on doing anything about it.