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truth & dare



Jerrica, I will plan your emo wedding



I've been living in Denial the whole Year of 2007

Kevin: Hey Im really sorry for teaming up with Alyssa & Grace to play you out like that. I thought it would be fun even though you only showed signs of playing. I was being a extra, getting all that entertainment that i could, thanks for telling whatever and yeah don't worry, i will never let it out.

Kasi & Song: Hey Kasi, sorry for not inviting you to the stuff even as a friend, i was just influenced by the whole Kasi-Is-A-Stalker thing if you haven't realised. I mean yeah i know how it feels and stuff, but we just though you were overboard and we just didn't know what to do. I wouldn't let peer pressure get to me the next year. Song, you wouldn't know but, yeah i don't find your personality or the way you do stuff very appealing and even though you do everything for friends, i just treated you like how i am bothered by your appearance, really, im just affected by peer pressure

Paul: Yes i was told to not let you know about Brandon's Party, Thats because there wasn't enough space. I know you would think that maybe Angie preferred this to that, this to this, and even though some people went even though you were told they were not going, You know that she didn't mean to do it, it was probably a moment of decision, and i know that she loves you as a friend and your company. I still ignored you calls, your smses, lied to you I had a family dinner, and then went for the party. I felt guilty, I admit, i used to feel doing stuff like this was fun and "bitchy", but just to let you know, I really wanted you to be there. I apologise for however you felt, but yeah you've been a great friend.

When you called me to shut up and called me a bitch with that tone, I knew, there was something wrong in how i was living

Its stupid, i hang out with so many different people, i hang out for the sake of hanging out. Im always tense to people and act differently to people of different groups. Theres so many sides. I don't want to act oblivious to what other people are doing at our age. I just think since theres laws for a reason. I would rather do something useful now, and just enter those places without being restricted. I judge people by their schools, by everything actually. Its "natural" but im wrong. When i go out, and stay out at night, i just lie to my parents that im at some sleepover or other excuses. I never ever did this before i got influenced. I don't drink, doesn't mean im not doing any thing wrong, i realised.

I was worried with hanging out with people that was infamous, i just didn't want to get affected. If i could overcome that, why can't You. I don't want to mention names, because im never personal on something so public. Im so shallow, so appearance minded, just to make sure people have a good impression. I wanted to admit every thing that i did, so i can be always be reminded. To everyone that read this, I hope we will always change for the better, even though we know we will always fall again. We give up, cause we fail ourselves. We're brought up like this, just because Everyone is like this, we don't have to be.

Sometimes Lies are told because its better not to feel hurt, but sometimes, you just have to know, its Always wrong to lie. I don't want to breakdown again just to realize again.

I don't know what to do now, I can start by telling what others can do, i guess. Who am i again?