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| fuck118.9
I don't even want to talk about it. I was honestly surprised how high it is. I expected gain but not so much. I ate like I used to for one day and this happens. It shouldn't be surprising, i'm a fucking pig. This sucks. Ugh this sucks so much I hate myself.
Tomorrow is the second day one.
I'm pissed.
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| day five =))Right now I;m still dizzy from the Jack Daniels last night. haha. I threw a small party, like 15 people, and got drunk. At the end of the night my boyfriend and I got into a fight. I think I need to break up with him but I'm so in love that I just can't. Ugh. But besides that it was super fun, my friend and I snuck into our neighbors pool and went swimming in our underwear and bra. Then we got out and went across the street into a different pool. So I was just walking around my street in a bra and panties. It was late so no one saw hopefully. But I never would have done that if I hadn't lost all this weight this week. It's motivating.
I got on the scale this morning 111.8 amazing, I'm happy. and surprised because I thought that alcohol had a lot of calories and I ate a few bites of a cinnamon roll my mom brought home (then I threw it away, something I never used to do, I feel myself gaining control.) But yeah this is awesome. I know that once I eat my weight will go up by a pound or two. It makes me not want to eat at all, but I really feel like I have to if I want this killer headache to go away, and it's good to eat in the morning to start your metabolism for the day.
uhh ohh my friends awake- will update later
stay strong, girls, we can do this!
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| day 4.5intake so far
b- apple cinnamon oatmeal [128]
l- half Luna bar [90] glass of water
exercise- ran 1/4 of a mile, walked the rest. [I could know the exact amount of calories burned but I'm stupid and turned my treadmill off afterwards. It is usually around 150 I think.]
I skipped school to take my clothes to a resale shop and I never even did it! Shit!
I love this photo!
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| day three =] 
b- 3/4 chewy bar (75)
l- half and orange, Enviga (25)
s- jello, one fun-ion (15)
d- a few bites of some pasta-ish stuff, salad with dressing, turkey slice, and 1/3 a sugar cookie (no idea- 250ish? +)
365. Sounds low, probably more around 400. But very good. I took two hoodia pills today. The directions say three daily but I want them to last. I took one with breakfast and one with jello after school. They worked, I suppose. I didn't even feel like eating at all at lunch or all day. Yay. I weighed myself before I ate, 115.9, but who knows what it is now.
I didn't work out today. I'm so lazy. But I never had alone time all day. I want to work out tomorrow but I am going to my boyfriends. I guess I could leave early. I don't know. I suck. I'll do 100 crunches in my bed before I go to sleep. It's something, I guess.
So I have this male best friend, Davey. And we were talking about a theme for a party I'm having this weekend and he kept suggesting things like pimps and hoes, langerie night, and bikini party. Haha, is if I could go, let alone host, a oarty with those themes. Too fat! Davey always talks about how he loves skinny girls. He thinks Mary Kate is th ehottest girl ever. Today he was saying he needed to meet a new girl and he was like she just has to smoke, be cute, and under 110; or something of that nature. He was in a car of three chubby girls and we discuss 'normal body weight' with him. He thinks 110 is good. I do too. I love hanging out with him, today whe I was eating he was like are you going to do what you did last night? (I told my firends about the mass amounts of food I ate) He is so goood to have around!
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