Broken Heart

My heart feels broken and empty
You rebuilt it thrice
Only to shatter it everytime
Thanks to you I'm ripped open
And bleeding once again
You said this time it would be forever
You said this time you wouldn't hurt me
"Well..." says the Broken One, with bleeding heart
And tear-stained face
"...you did..."

-- Yeshuah Croghan

...ive never cried so hard in my life...

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I'm taking a hiatus from Xanga... who knows how long I'll be gone... but I am taking a break... if you want to contact me... you know my s/n...

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I choose to be a David...

...break me Lord...

Currently Reading A Tale of three Kings: A Study in Brokenness By Gene Edwards see related

Whelp... Ive got some news here...

For starters God is good even when the circumstances are not... unfortunately my circumstances are not... but God still is good...
I'm not allowed to go over to Danielle's house for a few weeks after today. I dont agree with it but i have to submit to it... It's my parents decision and hopefully itll be over soon...
I know that i have to stand under what I believe... complete black and white honest to God truth... nothing less... If that means i dont always agree with my parents, so be it... (I love you guys... but were not always gonna agree on everything... and this is one of the things that we dont agree on)
Danielle's family has also left the church... :-\ ... i know itll be hard but i do believe that in the end God ordained this to happen for some reason that i dont know about yet... Just like God ordained my family leaving Community Builders... I dont totally understand or agree with either families leaving the respective stuff... but in the end... God is still in control and will work things out for good...
As of right now i am removing myself from the middle of this situation as much as i can... i would appreciate it if, from today forward, i am no longer involved or talked to about this matter that happened this past week... either my family leaving CBI or Danielle's family leaving ROLWC... I'm not trying to act like nothing happened, cause i know better... stuff did happen and each will have its consequences... eventually i would like for both of the families were reconciled... i know that it sounds kind of funny coming from me but if no one else will say it i will... even with these problems and this break in relationships... it doesnt give reason to allow disunity between brothers in Christ... sure we dont always see eye to eye... but that doesnt give us a reason to have discord among our families... I would like to see this eventually all worked out... if no other way than to just put everything behing us and start over with a clean slate... i know its not going to be easy... but thats what id like to see...

Well everyone... I quit my job last night... I guess that is all that I really have to say... so now i get to finish my senior year faster now that i am doing school 5 days a week instead of just 2... yeah... ok... ill probably write more later...