so it's been awhile...  quick update before i fall asleep on the computer - life is great!  why?  b/c God is great!  it's been awesome these past few weeks seeing how God answers prayers - even the littlest, quickest prayers thrown up to him, he answers in his own way, in his own timing.  how awesome is that - this big, huge, powerful God listens to even the smallest things we ask of him.  that just astounds me; God is amazing, seriously.

life is great - i'm very happy and things just keep getting better.  i thank God for the blessings in my life and praise him for everything he does for me and provides for me on a daily basis. 

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

Re-focusing

so i've been re-focusing my life lately, especially these past few days.  there are some personal things that are going on that i'm really struggling w/ and stressed about.  i haven't been sleeping well and i've slowly been losing my appetite (which is almost the part that scares/worries me the most).  there seems to be so much drama going on right now that i'm stuck in the middle of, and i don't know what to do.  it makes it so much harder when this drama involved guys and some of my close friends.  i just don't know what to do - i'm hurting one person while liking another, yet i don't know what that other person thinks.  to add a fun mix to this whole situation, a good friend of mine also likes this other person.  why does this have to turn in to some twisted, messed up, triangle/odd shaped configuration?  i almost laugh at myself for getting this involved in this whole situation - i feel so petty going through this.  am i back in middle school?  no!  i feel like i should be more mature and "adult" about this whole thing.  i feel that i should act like a mature adult would in this type of situation, but then i feel that i can't act that way b/c a mature adult wouldn't be in this situaiton in the first place!  i feel that mature adults don't have little crushes like this and petty arguments that seem rediculous the moment they begin.  yet it seems to be so difficult to get out of this mess.  there are bigger problems in this world - and i'm stressing about who likes who and what not?!  for real!  what has this come to?!?  i need to re-focus my life and thoughts on God and what his will and plan are for my life.  i need him at the center, the first One i run to no matter what.  he needs to be my first and main priority in everything i do.  i've slipped from that yet again, but i'm picking up my cross daily and stating that "yes, i do follow Him and i will do everything in my human power to please him and give him the glory, no matter what the cost".

i am a daughter of the most high King; i am a princess; i am chosen by name; i am a royal priesthood; i am victorious; i am strong; i am a conquerer; i am beloved; i am above and not below; i am the head and not the tail; i am the first and not the last; i am a winner and not a loser; i am beautiful.  Praise God for who i am and for Who's i am.  nothing can be greater than that.  Thank you Lord, for making me me.

"you make everything glorious, and i am your's; what does that make me?"  GLORIOUS AND BEAUTIFUL!

Jai Jeeshu - "victory in Jesus"    (Hindi)

a new year is upon us - i have nothing profound to say!  hahaha

so much has happened in this past year - i've learned and grown so much!  i've been challenged, stretched, burdened, hurt, broken, lifted higher than i've ever been, gifted, blessed, given once in a lifetime opportunities and experiences - praise God for each and every one of them!

so what's to come in the new year?  only God knows.  but i pray it can only get better!

prayers and blessings to all in the New Year; be safe and live up every minute!

and so it comes to this again...  exams are next week, thus ending yet another semester at school!  it's mind-blowing to think how incredibly fast this semester went.  it seems like just last week we were still getting used to which classes when and where, meeting the new freshman, and asking everyone about their summers, while situating everything to their liking in their new "home". 

so much has happened in the past year - i'm amazed at seeing the difference of where i was this time last year and where i'm at now.  God has stretched me and challenged me in so many ways - i've grown so much in myself and in my faith. 

i really don't have anything profound to say... i'm basically just procrastinating from studying and i felt like writing something!  so now... i should get back to what i should be doing.  blessings and shalom to all!

Surrender

Giving You my heart, all that is within, I lay it all down for the sake of You my King.  Giving You my dreams, laying down my rights, I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life.

And I surrender all to You, all to You.  And I surrender all to You, all to You.

Singing You this song, waiting at the cross, all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss.  For the sake of knowing You, for the glory of Your name, to know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain. 

And I surrender all to You, all to You.  And I surrender all to You, all to You.