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| I am BAK...Okay so I am just simply bored enough to come and post. Not because i wanna but because i am dying in this stupid lab class. This random dude is speaking in such a lovely accent (whom is not making much sense for the past 20 mins). Gahh All i want is a simple dinner, finish my assignments and go to bed. Today was suppose to be my easy day not sitting around wondering what this dude is frigging talking about.
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| Summer timeOne might say: "finally an update", yet i believe no one actually read this site except of course me.
Finals are finally done and I am home to HKG for the summer. I wish i can be in two places at the same time and be able to function like a normal person. Yeah it sounds insane but i wanna be in HK and in US at the same time. I miss my dorm room at Dean, and my kind of room in my bro's house and of course i miss the room at my parents' place (even though i dont really miss it right now since i am sitting in there typing this entry). I wanna be with my buddies back in RI, MA, ME. Damn i miss them all. Damn you all people - like Cedric, Crystal, El, Joann, Cassie, Kathleen....... I wish we are all still back at Dean. Well some of you guys graduated anyway so its no point. At least i hope to be back for thanksgiving. But what can you do in that tiny one week!? It will just be stuffing, shuffing and stuffing of food. Of food that i am staying away from on a daily basic - Turkey. Bleh. oh crap now i want good mashed potatoes. Oops I really shouldnt be thinking about food right now since its only 9 in the frigging morning.
I know i am insane when i say I miss Finals Week and the week before finals. Yup crazy huh!? Actually i miss the whole staying up late, finishing up papers and then trying to finish reading the big fat ugly and boring "Cold Mountain" for literature. It was fun staying up late with your friends, all of us trying to do the same thing but at a certain point some of them just simply fall asleep in the middle. Walking around campus at 3 in the morning, getting up at 4:30AM to finish the literature book and finally printing your paper out at 11:25 in the morning with less than 2 minutes to spare to get changed and try not to be late to your final. Nope i was late. In fact the clock on the wall says i was 5 minutes late. Oops! Thank god the Prof hadnt started the exam otherwise i would have been so screwed. 50% of my grade will be totally up in thin air. How about the time when i helped my friend twice so that he could finish his poster and ppt for classes. That was interesting. You still owe me Cedric!!! If only i didnt help you maybe my adol psy paper could been done the night before it was due rather than on the day it was due. Hmmm...
Well no more "Deanie Beanie" for me ever again. Thanks to Dean i will be going to Binghamton next semester. Another move, another big change in my forever changing life and another trying to settle in. Everyone tell me that its going to be great. Well i hope so. I dream it to be a better year / years than i had at Dean College for my Freshmen year. Even though i dream of transfering to my dream school I hope it willl be great without me trying to find things to make it sound good. I really should stop berating myself over not applying to my dream Uni but i didnt believe that i could/can get in like i wasnt up to it. Well after my sophmore year i might be going there. Who knows? Right Cedric and Ben? Gah really who knows. Other than the fact that i hope my friends got into that Uni. It will be hilarious if they did. Not funny that they did but funny that i didnt apply!!!!
Okay time to go. I should probably try to find something more productive to do in this rainy day. I really should have applied for a job rather than trying to achieve a relaxing, nothing to do summer. Ah well. Next Summer it is.
laters all. Well as if anyone actually read this site and comment. You know what, if anyone actually read this, they SHOULD comment. I dont care if its nonsense posted up in my comment section, at least its something right. | | |
| messed up?My life right now seems pretty messed up. My friend OD in alcohol, hospitalized, apparently got alcohol poisoning. The "perfect" thing was that not only i saw her strapped down in that ambulance, but the fact that she tried to fight everyone in her drunken state and screaming random stupid things.
I need sleep real bad. especially since Sunday morning when ^ that happened. Lately, I've been waking up to "her screaming". Gah. Its not like I made her drink or anything. Besides I didn't drink a single drop of anything.
On a side note, is talking to her boyfriend a crime? when i was just wondering about her well being after not seeing each other, let alone talk since Sunday morning. He asked me what happened so of course as any sane person will do, you answer!!! And now i am going to be fought because of that? Because i can speak or what I spoke? You have got to be joking with me. You are the one whose messed up, indirectly leading my life to be messed up. Perfect. BUT Nah uh this cannot happen. This stops right about here, No more, no less.
Its not like I ever (nor did i do so this time) got her into trouble or anything. She got herself into this. And all i did was trying to help. Hoping things will be better. I am not some random people who wishes something bad happens to others. Besides its not like she is the only one where the whole college is asking out of no where "Hey how's she doing" "how are you doing" "I saw that happened, was that true" "Are you doing okay"... Well news flash everyone. NO I AM NOT OKAY!!! I wanna sleep. I wanna be able to do my exams without in some way, some how seeing her drunk and trying to fight with everyone. Nor do i want to see anyone for that matter strapped down in any ambulance.
Okay enough ranting for the time being. I might as well get back to my "dysfunctional family" paper. Laters. That is if anyone actually read this crap i post once in a while.
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| Why?Why is that every time I have to pick between two things I lose everything instead? I am sick of this. What am I suppose to do? Not think about what I want to do, which one is good or bad and all that? Rather I should just go right ahead and do whatever? Well TOO BAD either way I LOSE!!! LOST!!! Whatever.
URGH right now the only thing that describes everything is "say goodbye". | | |
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