ya so I was told today that my wisdom teeth decided to come in late. The top left one has decided to grow the root into the joint between my jaw and cause some major damage. let me tell you, if you have never had a truck drive and hit your jaw and nothing else you would never understand the pain im in. Because im in the military and every one is off except for duty sec. I have to wait till tues. And because the military is on budget cuts I will have to make due with the least amount of pain meds and numb stuff. oh boy. I am going to be one happy camper. any who I will let yall know things as they come up... I hope I have time to go back home for Christmas come hell or high water I will try to be there. looking at the way my Divo is im not going to be able to make any more visits before I go to Japan and I wanted to see that girl one last time. Oh well. Its better that she not know that I like her. It would only cause problems. I would rather leave the country without any problems. Peace. Im going to try to make a My space account all my friends keep telling me to so that they can keep in touch. they dont have a xanga account and my space has just about everyone any way. got to go... duty calls

So I have not been home in well over a year, come to find out my parents moved from sun shine state Florida to a place in the middle of nowhere called Liberty, Ky. Now when I first got there I thought to my self wow this is going to be one L O N G weekend. There was nothing there from the drive through town... (by the way is only a 5 min drive, 12 if you hit all of 4 stop lights...) there was nothing. No Sonic, no dance clubs, no bars, nothing. But I did see a warning sign for horse and buggies on the one lane road on the way in... by the way that is a major highway around there. But after I got to meet the people of that small town something clicked and I saw what my parents had seen in this small out of the way town... values... somthing you never see in the world today any more. People dont just stop by your place and ask if everything is alright and leve 2 bags full of fresh peaches and a fresh thing of blueberrys bigger then a small watermellon on your doorstep now do they? After going in my mothers fridge I found out that it is an every day thing there... people were so nice, and so willing to open there doors to me I found it hard to leave. One person had realy cought my eye, but we are worlds apart and im soon to be even more so... hope to make the trip one more time before I leave this country for good... I hope to finish my Navy Job when I am still in Japan and have a house there. Any who here is a pic from the trip.

One of the many things I have come to learn with being in the Navy is that you never stay in one place for too long... in the past 4 years I have been in the following places:

SanD, CA

Victoria, Canada

Pearl Harbor, Hawaii

Sasibo, Japan

Golden Triangle, Malaysia

Perth, Australia

Sydney, Australia

Norfolk, VA

Port Everglades, Fl

Palma, Spain

Naples, Italy

Jebel Ali

Corfu, Greece

Marmaris, Turkey

to most people this would be too much to handle... but the Navy doesnt ask what you think they say for you to go and you go. Images, People, Places, Good times, Bad, Friends, Lovers, and many more things just fly by and if your not good at remembering faces and names... soon you no longer remember who was important to you. Things that you hold near and dear become just a faded memory... Its sad, because I have had so many friends and Loved ones that I have left behind... I would like it all to slow down, just regain my footing, remember the past. Some times, if your in the Navy or just going down your own road in life, I think that we all have to look back and see the memorys that are drifting away. I know that I would never have come to be on the ship im on now with out the help of my friend Jeanie... Or become an IT with out Smith one of the deck seamen I worked with on my last ship... Its sad too... because yet again im getting ready to leave this command and head accross seas to White Beach, Japan. Life is too short, Memorys Fade, the people in it just a stone in the pond, but every one that you have met every one of them have touched you in some way... they have helped bring you to where you are today. Just remember that even if you have had a bad childhood like me, or had to skip yours all togeather. You are where you are because of those life experiances and that every happy moment no matter how breif would never be if not for those people and the hardships you have gone through. Be happy for the here and now because it is gone soon, and every thing you love will soon become a faded memory. Love life and every one in it... never think that this will last forever.

Too all my friends Past and Present, I love you all very much. Thank you for being there for me...

Ok, hmmmm...

     Today has proven to be a hard one... Personal (the place on the ship where all our reccords are kept and updated by PS's{personal men}) called down with the report that NSIPS was down on several computers. I went down to take a look and found that I could not fix this problem to save my life. I reloaded the whole program, tried a number of different trouble shooting tasks, all to no effect. Its not the fact that the program is still down that bothers me... NSIPS is tempermental at best, its the fact that I pride myself at being the very best at what I do and I couldn't fix something that someone from day shift will prob. fix and not have any idea what they did.

     I talked a little bit with one of my friends today... she has been through a lot with me... helped me through some tough times as well. But for someone like me, im an ass at times and do anything to make others laugh even at the cost of ones feelings, it is hard to find true friends. Im getting off the point... I was emailing her and well this is what was said:

Thank you… for being there for me… for being my friend… for everything… I don’t tell the people I care about thank you as much as I should. But I know that I would prob. Not make it too far in this life without the support of my friends. You are all a blessing and I don’t ever want you to think that I take you for granted.

I know. But don’t think it is a one way street buddy! You do the same thing! Believe it or not- you’re an awesome friend, and an awesome person.

Maybe this is not a big deal to most. Maybe for some this is something that is said every day. But to me... this brought a tear to my eye. I have been through a lot in my life... I have been called a mistake, a POS, something that didnt need to live... and a lot of other things. This is the first time EVER that any one and I do mean anyone, has called me an awesome friend, and a awesome person. The most Ive gotten was from family telling me that I make them proud. So this is one day that I will not soon forget.

     As this day comes to a close I leave you with one of my Fav. Sayings:

"Beginning is easy; continuing, hard."

One of my many Rants

Never been too good at these things and im not much into letting others know whats on my mind. But I will try and just jot things down from the day. This will be my end of the day type log... for all my rants, raves, thoughts and ideas. Think of it as a peek into my boring life in the Navy... For the people that see this site and are thinking about joining the Navy, you wont find any candy coat BS on my site I will tell it like it is... and if you have any questions I will be more then happy to help despell some of the myths that most Recruiters will feed you to make you join. In other words Im going to piss off a lot of Recruiters...