| i'll be gone for a whilei have a pressure sore on the bottom of my leg i will be gone for a while i wont be able to get online for very long i will miss you all i will be back when i can get online for longer periods of time i love you all see you soon. |
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| i got your back
as many people know from meeting me on the various blog sites i am on and becoming friends with me through msn myspace im and aim they know i am a very altruistic person i am always very happy and very eager to be able to talk to any of them but as i have exhibited before i am also very passionate in the words that i use even with couples that i meet (mostly the female counter parts). see when i make a friend i get to know them and we always have a good time and we always end up talking and laughing and having fun together. i always end up "falling’ for my friends in a purely plutonic way i somewhat develope feelings for them which for some people can come off as too strong and they think i am being too flirtatious or strong and that usually gets me banned from there lives and i never hear from them again. i am not really "apologizing" for being so "loving" or "amorous" i will never apologize for being me i just want everyone to know that if i ever do sound to passionate or "amorous" or loving it is just me being me and i do "love" you but i also respect your relationship and i will never betray that love you have for each other i just want to be friends that is all. i hope you all understand what i just rambled :) comments welcome and appreciated. |
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| for malisha and keith for malisha and keith
this past week really has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. i have lost two of my best friends that i cared for alot malisha hodges and anthony keith blai. Malisha was a very beautiful slender blonde girl i went too school with all through my academic career practically through kindergarten and even in high school. all throughout high school she was a very warm, loving, caring and compassionate person always doing for others before doing for herself i must admit i had a bit of a crush on her in high school and frankly i wish i had taken that up any person was priveleged to have that woman in their lives for any reaosn what so ever she had two beautiful kids and has left behind a husband whom i am sure all will miss her it is a very sad day in this world when god has picked another flower for his garden he really picked a beautiful one in malisha. and last night also i learned i lost another friend Anthony keith blair. he worked with my father for the epa division of water and conservation. He too was a very altruistic and caring and loving person he has two kids as well both of which are grown up and in high school i believe they lost their father way too soon in my opinion he was still very young and he left his family way too soon god has once again picked another bigger flower for his garden gods garden is getting alot of flowers from my life why does it always have to be ME that loses the people i love. i apologize to any one whom i have been cross with (or not obeyed) it wasnt intentional i have just been an internal wreck i will do better to be a better friend and anything else you all need me to be. thank you for listening i hope everyone is ok this evening. i want everyone to know that you should never take life for granted and always do things that you enjoy doing dont let anyone or anything hold you down and always take chances where chances are warranted and never let life get you down no matter what happens. |
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| gone I am going to be my computer has died in my room I just wanted to quickly tell you all I may not be online for a long while I will miss you all leave me lots of love for when I return I hope it not too far off thank you all for being my friends. |
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| where i've been I have been in the hospital for the last two days with a second degree burn on my leg and a decrepid toe and when I got home my computer in my room has died so I wont be on here much :). I love you all leave me lots of comments I know you all love me well at least some of you do. see you as soon as possible. |
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