Currently Playing Die for Government By Anti-Flag see related

today was pretty awesome. we skipped most of school to go to the Performing Arts Center for the parade of nations.... yah it was cool and i sat next to Jessica Martinez. shes really cool. when tink came up to perform she was SOOOO good omgosh. she made me and jessica cry! she looked so cute up there!!! eugene was REALLLY GOOD! he was all saying that he didnt think he could do it! PSSH he was realllly good.  he was like break dancing and he looked REALLY cool. he was like BOOM. heck yes..  the show was really cool. since it has been raining all day we dont have a softball game. so i think im going to the performance tonight for the parade of nations.. yippppyyy.. haha today me and jessica noticed that SOMEONE who may not be named looks a lot like napolion dynamite!! HAHA. bwhaha.  man today was so boring b/c lisa and cynthia wont eat lunch with us anymore and jimmy and ana wernt there and scott had lunch detention and so it was just me vinny and bryan for lunch. BWHAHA. me and vinny are gonna keep note of this day where they all ditched us. yes. well im gonna go. haha. LATER

                               tones.

ONLY 6 MORE DAYS..

GO EUGENE!!!

Currently Playing Holiday [UK CD #2] By Green Day Holiday. see related

10 days...                                                        blah.

                                         cant wait.

eeeeeeeeek.                                                                                  <33

                                            yay!!                                   i love you.

<33

COUSINS- well its only 10 more days. i can't belive its so close omg. were staying an extra day to! YIPPYYY i can't wait im like freaking out. it doesn't seem likes it's this close. weird. DO YOU GUYS REMEMBER WHEN THE GUY WAS STALKING US? weird. eekkk. and he had a knife. i almost tished my pant's. and that one time i yelled at the neighbor people and i called them hadda faces. haha. and the old man that came over and he had pee'd his pant's and he stunk and he wanted to 'chop our wood' i thought he was gonna have a heart attack. he was like. ehhh can i chop you're wood you look like your having trouble ehh. hehehehehe. OMGOSH and that time we ran in from the trailer and there were a bunch of racoon's and sarah jumped from the floor to the top bunk and was like 'EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF!' that was funny. we need to feed racky this year. he died because he choked on the hot dog. and than he gave us bad weather because we didn't feed him. I CANT WAIT YOU GUYS. we so have to do operation B this time.

ERIKA- erika i'm not mad at you. i never was. im sorry if i said that you seemed like you hated me it's just because i was just wondering. i miss you a lot. i haven't spent time with you like without a bunch of people in a long time. i hope i can see you this weekend. we have to go to the movies. it sucked that we didn't get to go today. i know you're going through a really hard time and i really want to be able to have you tell me anything you want. so if we can just put the past behind us and start new. im trying really hard to improve me being a better friend. im sorry. i hope you forgive me. i really didn't mean it to start a fight. but i looooveeee you!

UGG- man. everyone's been getting mad at me latley. i hate it. arggg. i'm not meaning to be a bad friend but somehow it's happening. so if im mad at you or you are mad at me i'm sorry. i don't mean more than half the stuff i say when im mad. it kinda just comes out. and than it turns out to be something really mean. so im sorry if i ever hurt you. and im trying really hard to become a better person in general.

SCHOOL- schools boring. its the same thing over and over again. rawr.  on friday we did these Evergreen sign up things for what classes we want. they want to put me in textbook algebra. thats one of the highest math's for us. ugg. i don't want to. exspically because Ms. Sidel is the teacher. she's a BIOTTCH. and my mom said i'm not allowed to have her. bwhaha. i'm lucky. my brother had her and he said he hated her to. but yah. i'm glad i don't get her. everyone who has her say's shes the worst teacher ever. bwhaha.

LIFE- ehh. life's going ehh..ish. i hate it for the most part. yesterday jessie paul and caleb walked over from jessie's. they wern't here that long though. they had to leave. poop. and than my dad wouldn't let me go. it was sad. i wanted to go. ugg. i hate my parent's. my mom's out of town. and my dad doesn't know what the hell he's doing. he come's home from work and he was like THIS HOUSE IS A MESS and i was like YAH WELL I CLEANED IT UP 3 TIMES TALK TO YOUR SON! i did all the dishes and everything. HAHA i just went upstairs and keithley (tims girlfriend) was sitting on his bed and he was sleeping and she drew all over his face. hahaha! and than she asked for lip stick to kiss his face or something and she took a picture and its really funny. and than he woke up  but he doesnt know yet. and i think he fell back asleep! but anyways. my mom was suposto come home today but she called and said she decided to stay another night.  now once again i have to take care of things. i hate this. im the only girl in the house. and i hate it. my dad wants me to cook dinner and do the dishes and the laundry. and he was like well what do you want to make? and i was like uhh nothing! and he was like why dont you make us something thats easy and you just put it in the oven. thats easy. and i was like well than you do it. and he got mad. my dad's mean. i dislike him with a passion. i miss my mommy. i want her to come home. its hard without her.

PLANS-

Monday- Softball Practice

Tuesday- Nothing

Wednesday- Softball Practice

Thursday- Softball Game

Friday- Pitcher and Catcher Practice

Saturday- Lisas

Sunday- Lisas

MAN SATURDAY AND SUNDAY ARE GOING TO BE FUCKING RAD. lisa's parents are out of town and we get to stay at lisa's house with no parents. house to ourselves. yes. awesome. you guys should come. the only opstical is. lisa's brother. bwhaha. we can work around that

                                                 I remember you and me,
                                            When we used to laugh all night 
                                                 Until we fell asleep. Oh.
                                              And I know we're through,
                                             But I've still got thoughts of you 
                                                    Left inside my head.

psstt.. i kinda stole that from nicole..
         just dont tell her!

                                                  <33 tones.

Currently Playing Until the Day That I Die By Story of the Year Until the Day I Die see related

Holy shit i just wrote like 5 paragraphs and it erased..FACKING SHAT. urgh that aggrivatse me. Ok steph. i dont hate you. Never did. Never will. Honestly when you just say stuff like "man erika hates me" or something along those lines it just makes the whole situation worse. Man i know you and lisa get mad when i dont answer my hpone or when i dont call you back r something but i mean im having a realy hard time right now. School, grades, friends, trying to make everyone happy, trying to keep my family calmmmm, trying to keep up with my perfect sister, trying not to always look sad or tired, trying to make the right decisions. i mean i got a lot of shit on my plate right now. It's so hard cuase i have so many decisions to make now. It's hard to analyze a situation and always come out with the best outcome. I sometimes make mistakes; ok ok ok i lied, I always make mistakes. And thats exactly why im not perfect. I can't meet everyones standards and expectations. I mean i tell someone i would do something something else comes along and i don't know what to do. I just get caught up in themoment and i follow my heart and when i do someone is bound to get mad at me. URGH its just so frusterating. I mean its gay because they actually lie and say i stood IN her driveway with my hands on my hips and was like "BRING IT ON CHELSEY"..i mean WHY wouldi do that when all i really want is this whole fucking gay thing is stupid. Literally stupid. It's so immature and stupid. CHELSEY I HOPE YOU READ THIS: you got the wrong impression. we didnt want to jump you. DUR haha...If we WANTED something to happen then it would of happened. We were like 100 yards apart and nothing was said no one was touched and no glares were made. so you go back to your house and tell your parents that we set you up?? WTF thats kinda weird. It's almost like you enjoy fighting with me. I really think you do. And if you so read this respondd and tell me WHY you hate me..I've asked all your friends like Alyssa Chasia and Lindsey andJeremy and NO ONe knows why you hate me so much. Im curious to see what excuse it is this time. And by the way chelsey this whole thing wasnt supposed to be blabbed to the whole school. It wasnt meant for that. Cause you just go around telling a lie.  But whatever do what you want. Later everyone. 

                                                     |.::*::.|SICK|OF|SHIT|.::*::.|

So go on And I will refrain And I'll keep on running this neverending race maybe next time will be the right time and maybe next time will be your time So save your scissors For someone else's skin My surface is so tough I don't think the blade will dig in Save your strength Save your wasted time There's no way that I want you to be left behind Go on save your scissors Save your scissors So why does it always seem That every time I turn around Sombody falls in love with me This has never been my sole intention And I have never claimed to have patents on such inventions Just save your scissors For someone else's skin My surface is so tough I don't think the blade will dig in Save your strength Save your wasted time There's no way that I want you to be left behind Go on save your scissors Save your scissors There is something that I must confess to you tonight To you tonight And that is I expect nothing less from you tonight From you tonight Go on save your scissors Save your scissors Save your scissors.     SERIOUSLY..FUCK IT. Say whatever you want. You're scissors are a piece of shit . They're dull. If you want your stupid lies and deceits to effect me i suggest getting your "scissors" sharpened.

Currently Playing Until the Day That I Die By Story of the Year Until the Day I Die see related

Holy shit i just wrote like 5 paragraphs and it erased..FACKING SHAT. urgh that aggrivatse me. Ok steph. i dont hate you. Never did. Never will. Honestly when you just say stuff like "man erika hates me" or something along those lines it just makes the whole situation worse. Man i know you and lisa get mad when i dont answer my hpone or when i dont call you back r something but i mean im having a realy hard time right now. School, grades, friends, trying to make everyone happy, trying to keep my family calmmmm, trying to keep up with my perfect sister, trying not to always look sad or tired, trying to make the right decisions. i mean i got a lot of shit on my plate right now. It's so hard cuase i have so many decisions to make now. It's hard to analyze a situation and always come out with the best outcome. I sometimes make mistakes; ok ok ok i lied, I always make mistakes. And thats exactly why im not perfect. I can't meet everyones standards and expectations. I mean i tell someone i would do something something else comes along and i don't know what to do. I just get caught up in themoment and i follow my heart and when i do someone is bound to get mad at me. URGH its just so frusterating. I mean its gay because they actually lie and say i stood IN her driveway with my hands on my hips and was like "BRING IT ON CHELSEY"..i mean WHY wouldi do that when all i really want is this whole fucking gay thing is stupid. Literally stupid. It's so immature and stupid. CHELSEY I HOPE YOU READ THIS: you got the wrong impression. we didnt want to jump you. DUR haha...If we WANTED something to happen then it would of happened. We were like 100 yards apart and nothing was said no one was touched and no glares were made. so you go back to your house and tell your parents that we set you up?? WTF thats kinda weird. It's almost like you enjoy fighting with me. I really think you do. And if you so read this respondd and tell me WHY you hate me..I've asked all your friends like Alyssa Chasia and Lindsey andJeremy and NO ONe knows why you hate me so much. Im curious to see what excuse it is this time. And by the way chelsey this whole thing wasnt supposed to be blabbed to the whole school. It wasnt meant for that. Cause you just go around telling a lie.  But whatever do what you want. Later everyone. 

                                                     |.::*::.|SICK|OF|SHIT|.::*::.|

So go on And I will refrain And I'll keep on running this neverending race maybe next time will be the right time and maybe next time will be your time So save your scissors For someone else's skin My surface is so tough I don't think the blade will dig in Save your strength Save your wasted time There's no way that I want you to be left behind Go on save your scissors Save your scissors So why does it always seem That every time I turn around Sombody falls in love with me This has never been my sole intention And I have never claimed to have patents on such inventions Just save your scissors For someone else's skin My surface is so tough I don't think the blade will dig in Save your strength Save your wasted time There's no way that I want you to be left behind Go on save your scissors Save your scissors There is something that I must confess to you tonight To you tonight And that is I expect nothing less from you tonight From you tonight Go on save your scissors Save your scissors Save your scissors.     SERIOUSLY..FUCK IT. Say whatever you want. You're scissors are a piece of shit . They're dull. If you want your stupid lies and deceits to effect me i suggest getting your "scissors" sharpened.