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Monday, April 30, 2007

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 10:12:20 GMT

It is finals time again. Both a time of dread and relief. Dread for the ordeal; relief that it is almost over.

I cannot wait for this semester to end. I am taking some time off to travel. I have worked incredibly hard this semester and have earned some time to myself.

Thats about it for the moment. I will post later again soon.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 13:36:45 GMT

You know, we just do not realize how good we have it until some tragedy happens like what just took place at Virginia Tech. I just cannot put into words the thoughts and emotions that are swirling around in my mind.

We are all affected in some way or another. At my own college here in Louisiana, the security is tightened. How long will this last? No one knows. All over the country, lives changed.

And they didn't change for the better either.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 09:22:58 GMT

It is Friday morning and I wish it was Friday afternoon.

Wednesday night, a friendly game of "strip poker" with some buddies. It was fun. Soft core though.

Thursday night, a friendly but more competitive game of "strip poker" with those buddies plus one new player. It was a "hard core" night.

Friday morning, I walk into LC Library, having never been home since I left Thursday, in my same clothes, no shower, no shave, pretty rough looking I am sure. You know what I am talking about.....

Some chick who wants to be my fag hag (I refuse to have fag hags, not my style) walks up to me and says I look like shit. I reply "all nighter". She says "bet some boy is sore this morning" and I reply "2" and walk off.

So the rumors will start. Such is the life of a stud....LOL

(Applications accepted online or in person....LOL)

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 13:12:10 GMT

Just got out of Physics test....Grrrrrrrrrr

I am afraid my 4.0 this semester is now officially in jeapardy. I know one B out of 6 classes isn't shameful, but it could affect me getting in Law School. I will just have to wait and be patient and find out how bad I did on this exam. I feel like I didn't do very well. What is disconcerting is that I have studied valiantly and really feel I know this material.

If this were a Friday, I would go drown my sorrows. But it is only the front half of the week so I need to get a grip and focus on my other classes.

When I am in a better mood, I will come back to Xanga and post some of my usual cheery stuff.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 21:31:25 GMT

Sunday night, baby sitting my little brother and sister for Mom. I had never seen this show on NBC called "Deal or No Deal". It is kind of entertaining. From there to Apprentice which I hear is not as good as it once was. WOW, television sure has changed since I once watched it every night. Maybe I am more grown up or something. It is just, as a whole, too slow paced for me. So that is my Sunday night off from studying....babysitting and television. So much for the average family with wife, kids, white picket fence. Give me the gay life anytime. Those straights just don't know what they are missing.

Cya guys.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 09:24:58 GMT

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Woke up this morning to a dreary, raining Louisiana spring day. The only thing good about the weather is that it is perfect bed weather. Especially if there is someone special in there. There is a someone special but he isn't there so I am stuck looking out my bedroom window pondering the ifs and whens of life.

Don't be mistaken, things are going pretty good for me. They just are not quite perfect. But no one ever told me life was perfect so I take the good with the not so good and make the best of it.

I just would like to do something different today. If I get any major brainstorms for a bored gay guy, I will put it in writing on my next posting here on Xanga.

School is going well though. Studying my ass off and it appears to be paying off.

Someone leave me comments !!!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 09:19:56 GMT

Ok, I know, I know. It has been awhile. Too long actually. Unlike many of my friends, I have resisted the urge to do the Myspace thing and the Facebook thing. I have come to believe that all either is good for is to hook up. Further, is a guy is in a relationship and either or both are participants of Myspace or Facebook, their relationship is virtually doomed. I have seen it with several of my friends. For those reasons, I have not been posting on Xanga. But after thinking it over, for a period of time, I have come to realize that Xanga can be different. It is kind of what you want to make out of it I think. You see, I am an openly gay male, that looks and acts straight, but openly gay, and known to be gay. I go to school at a small southern Baptist College even though I am Roman Catholic. So, I dont need Myspace or Facebook to hookup. They come and find me. The gays, the closets and the straights. I am not saying I hookup, but I am saying I have my choice of the entire campus. And I can have it this way with the anonymity realized by not having to put myself out there for the world to see. I can get what I want and no one is the wiser. So, what is the point of all this? The point is to go back to being kids on campus. If it is sex you want, trust me, you will get all of that you need or desire. If it is a relationship you want, you will have a better chance of getting one that is not entangled in online drama. Remember, as gays, we are more drama prone than straights.

So guys, either keep your dick in your pants or at least let it hang out in private. Trust me in this, is so much more fun to walk through campus and see everybody, knowing something about a straight boy that others don't know. Or knowing something a closet does that others don't know. Or being aware of just who the players on campus really are. Now that is power. And it didn't come from the internet. It comes from working your surroundings, keeping your mouth shut (talking I mean....LOL) and being known as the stud that doesn't tell.

Good luck to all my queer buds. This was major lesson number one. If you need anymore brotherly queer advise, drop me a line.

Love always,

Dust

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 13:15:44 GMT

Ok, so it has been way to long since I have made an entry. But I kind of wanted to not do the internet thing because I keep running into guys I really like and like too much. I dont want to go through the LDR (Long Distance Relationship) thing my best friend has gone through. It must be tough being seperated by great distances and want to be together so badly. That and I am still having trouble post surgery of my jaw, mouth and facial bones from the accident. I have recovered nicely and have no disfigurement but am really having some speech problems and that has caused me to be withdrawn. I am taking a summer class. It is good to be out of bed and out of the house but it is not easy not being able to communicate easily. I have also started practise again on the uneven bars but must admit I am now tentative in my procedures and that is not good when it comes to competition. After two major injuries, I guess that is to be expected. I promise you all this, I will start posting more often. Maybe the antidepressants are working!! Later guys.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Tue, 30 May 2006 17:31:22 GMT

Xanga is depressing......Today was the first real day since Finals that I did not have to do physical or speech therapy, study or something like that. So I decided to surf through the Xanga's. You know, not looking for a hookup or anything, just wanting to see new people, read interesting and funny narratives. But not today. The first several were rants against life and kind of got me down. It is ironic isn't it that me who has had 3 jaw surgeries and spent most of the semester with my mouth actually wired shut, eating through a tube and yet I was happy just to wake up each morning. Then I see others who have not endured the pain and suffering I have gone through, just exhibit this sadness about life not going their way. I am not immune to that I must admit, but I did control it I think. In large part because of my overly supportive mom, my ex BF now turned best friend, 2 close friends here in town (one gay, one straight) and my ex BF's new BF was a pleasure and one I very much looked forward to chatting with online. I am unwired now but I am having to take speech therapy because of the damage done in the accident. But I will be one hundred percent shortly and can really live again. But if truth be known, I have enjoyed living every day I went through the miscerable pain. I knew it had an end and so kept myself up. I am nearly there and thank all those that were supportive.

Monday, May 08, 2006

Mon, 08 May 2006 21:16:46 GMT

"Building Blocks for the Family"................

Today, I was listening to the radio, or rather surfing through channels and I came upon a Christian channel and for some reason, didn't click it off. Instead, I began to listen. Maybe I knew there was about to be some diatribe of shit from this religious fucker. I don't know. But, that is exactly what came to pass. His lecture went like this: "What is wrong with society is the marital union is not strong. Example, when you have a 'hostile passive absentee father" and a 'domineering, aggressive mother, you have a lethal combination. And this lethal combination will result in a 'homosexual child' which of course is a perversion in the eyes of God" Well, I nearly ran off the fuckin road. This is the kind of shit the Republicans and Mr. Bush and his right wing Whitehouse would have all the ignorant masses believe. How sad I thought. How totally pathetic. The author of this pile of shit was a Rev. Howard Hendrix. So, that is my rant against the right wing today. What are your thoughts guys??????