rollercoasterfreedom's Xanga

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Thu, 17 May 2007 22:17:58 GMT

im leaving this xanga.

i dunno i just am not much of a xangan.

peace out xanga.

dont find me... i'll find you.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 18:21:47 GMT

There is a double standard going on ,and quite frankly im not enjoying it.You can do what you want ,but I get stuck. Quite honestly, I hate this. I think something has to change. We'll talk.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 23:38:22 GMT

dang orchesis is pretty much over.

no more after school.

no more late nights.

one more perfomance ( mabye two depending on dances)

and thats it.

this kinda gives me an empty feeling.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 16:11:38 GMT

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 22:16:18 GMT

some of my best talks are with those i love the most. they are the superheros that save me from danger and hold my world up when i feel like its caving in. I hate being stressed and this year more then ever does it seem that my life is just whirrling around me feeling like there is nothing that i can do.

i just need that support in my corner. when i loose a battle im the kind of person who needs at least one person in my corner telling me go get em champ, or you'll get em next time.

it seems sometimes that i scare off that one person who wants to be in my corner. and i hate that.

i want spring break. no i take that back, i want summer break. i want no homework, no worries, no cerfew. just me, my friends, the kids, and my happiness. please?

Monday, February 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 19:45:12 GMT

rex grossman.

you get a sad face..

and a WTF

i must say things are better then they were before. i think having a COLD DAY off was quite nice, and much needed, i had no homework to do AND i got a chance to just relaxand watch cartoons with case.

it was nice.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 19:36:32 GMT

i dont need anymore conflicts, i dont need anymore aguments , and i dont want to deal with it

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 13:40:17 GMT

ALEXIS DIXON I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH AND I REALLY AM GLAD TO HEAR THAT YOU ARE DOING SO WELL. I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOUR RADIANT FACE AND STUNNING GLOW BECUASE YOU ARE JUST THE MOST AMAZING GIRL EVER AND I MISS SEEING YOUR FACE EVERYDAY. <3

its break.

im not going to post all week.

i have better things to do.

here are some pictures.

GATSBY PARTY

yeah band concerts

Orchesis Workshop

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 21:26:52 GMT

Its Christmas time. The tree is up. Its all lit up and there are millions of ornaments on it. This was the first year I had someone help me put it up in 5 years. Yeah, thats right unlike most families I put up the tree all by myself because no one has the time to or is too tired. So I brought in reinforcements. The boyfriend with a sprained ankle. Yeah, i'm cruel, I made him walk up and down stairs, but the tree looks amazing, and I have him to thank for it. I love tall people. I love Christmas time. The 25 days of Christmas on ABC family with the clymationish movies about rudolph and such. I love those. Hot chocolate and that jazz. And whats better then having race cars around the bottom of your tree that you can race against someone and glows in the dark. You can't beat that.

Im looking forward to break. Even though for the first half i will be at school, working on Orchesis stuff with Mary Jo, I'm looking forward to being able to relax and just hang out with my friends. Also, Im excited to get away from the drama of Orchesis, and school in general. Honestly im excited also for David to come in. Why am I excited to see my best friends boyfriend come in? Because I want to see her happy, and nothing quite keeps a smile on her face then him. What they have is beautiful, and I'm excited to see her all giggly.

I've realized how hard it is to break and old habit.

I cant believe this year is almost over. It seems like it just started, and now that it's December it's weird to refelct on this past year and see how much I've changed, and how my life has changed. I really want junior year to be over. Im sick of the stress, and I really want to be a senior, and beyond becuase I'm anxious to see where my life will go.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 00:42:13 GMT

so im a stealer. ( sorry sharon)

+ ryan and my dance; im ready for a hard core dance.

- the level of frusteration and respect in orchesis. ugh.

+ spending time with little children

+ working the lights with kim for the holiday extravaganza "FREE GODZILLA!"

- 10 page physics labs

++++++ haveing a meaningful realtionship for the first time mm Case =]

--- things getting worse with people i care about

-- possibly ruining something amazing between 2 great people

---------- stress.stress.stress.stress.

++ birthdays/christmas

- staying up late to finish homework

+ the great gatsby =]

--- pre-calc, thank goodness im almost caught up

- Beloved test =/

--- boo slipping grade

--- boo slipping friendships

--- boo life