::Hatred towards Love::

Love is a mirage. It's a lie, a fake, a falsehood. It's just a way for us to make believe that life isn't as bad as it really is. Just another way for us to pretend that one day our prince charming is going to sweep us away. It won't happen. Not really.

Love is such a fucking joke. It's all a bunch of bullshit and you know it, I know it, they know it. Everyone knows it.

Those people who think their in love aren't. Love isn't real. There is no Landon and Jamie (A Walk to Remember). No Beauty and Beast. There is no Jasmine and Aladdin. No Cinderella and Prince Charming. Nor is there Kate and Doug (The Cutting Edge). There is no Lloyd and Diane (Say Anything).

Movies make us believe that there might be something for us, but there's not. It's all just another commercial, trying to sell us something we want. And we do want it. Everyone wants it. I want it.

But I'm never going to have it.

Quote of the day (which inspired this rant, alone with other things):

Life isn't a Fairy-Tale
In life, there are no Cinderella romances, No picture perfect ballroom dances,
No Prince Charming to carry me off into the sunset,
No happily ever after & better yet.
I am no Beauty & there isn't a Beast,
No Mrs. Potts or Chip to help prepare a feast.
No hearts of love converted from those of stone,
No promises of never being alone.
There isn't a Snow White or her handsome Prince,
No magical, eye-opening kiss.
No Seven Dwarfs who dwell in the same house,
No determination to give Snow White a spouse.
There is no Little Mermaid of the sea, & no man of the land,
No falling in love while lying on the sand.
No Ariel whose voice won his love,
No merging of the waters below & land above.

Merry Christmas!

::In the States::

Not much to say to that

::Life in General::

Scars. Smiles. Tears. Lies. Laughs. Jokes. Jealousy. Hatred. Love. Emotions. Physical pain. Emotional pain. Past scares. Future hopes. Boys. Friends. Traveling. Moving. Leaving.

Since I was born I've moved five times, soon to become six.

It's been two years since I started noticing the problems with me.

It's been two years and one day since I decided to take of it.

It's been one year, five months, and one day since that dreadful day in Germany.

It's been one year, two months and twenty-six days since I moved to Nepal.

It's been three months and fifteen days since I was last in America.

It's been one week and one day since I was last in class.

It's been one day since Explore Nepal.

Geez, how depressing is that? I can sum up my life time-line in eight sentances. Plus, it's pretty depressing that everything in my life got interesting in the last two years.

Quote of the Day:

You gotta hurt in order
[ to know ]
You gotta fall in order
[ to grow ]
You gotta lose in order
[ to gain ]
because most of life's lessons
are learned
[ in pain ]

::White. Black. Gray::

Do you ever wonder what shade you are in this world? Are you the purest of white? The darkest of black? Or are you stuck wavering inbetween in the area most call gray, not sure whether to go left or right?

Are you so good, that your mind never even strays away from what is right? Do you never wonder what's on the other side of the wall you have built around you? Do you ever dream to do something bad just because you want to?

Or are you so bad, that the idea of being good repulses you? Do you never wonder what sort of congratulations you would get for doing what was right, and not what was easy? Do you ever dream about someone being proud of the good you had done?

Or...are you gray? You stuck inbetween, sometimes proud and sometimes ashamed? Do you cheat on homework, but refuse to cheat on tests? Do you stand strong for your beliefs but refuse to voice them out? Do you help the new kid find their way around school, but not introduce them to anyone new?

No one is completely white, or completely black. Our world is one full of darker and lighter shades of gray and we are just the shadow's, wandering the earth until we can fade away within ourselves.

This is life. This is real.

Quote of the day:

He is the shade of gray in a black and white world.