I get motivated to update my page when I read someone else's page.

And also because I've been so frustrated about my project partners. After whining about not having any work to do throughout the whole semester, finally I have work from every class due in the same week. In addition to that, my advisor wants me to start on 2 projects at the same time. Why do they all happen at the same time....

No matter how many classes u've taken, there's always a group project in the end. And for some reason it just happened that I always have to do at least half of the work although there are 3 or more people in the group. That was not the problem because I'm workaholic But for some reason these people always want to meet and do work together, which is never productive, and always end up wasting 4 times as much time. Besides, they want to meet not because they want to discuss about anything, they just want to sit there together so they can watch 1 of them do work... duh?!

Anyway, I think the main reason why I'm so pissed is just because I didn't get as much sleep as I wanted to.

I wish ex-bf and ex-gf don't exist too...

But I've been going crazy because of other crap.... These crap aren't really related to me, and I don't get it why they bother me so much. I feel like I really want to drop out of this program immediately. But after complaining to so many people, I would consider staying to get my master degree and then leave.

I never expected myself to like BME so much. I can't believe that I'm getting pissed because people here are not appreciating the field. They come to BME grad school expecting not to learn anything about biology/physiology/modeling, I wonder what's in their minds.... Not that they knew anything from undergrad but programming with a bunch of numbers, colons and commas. First of all I don't understand why they come back to school if they don't want to learn anything new, just get out of here and get a damn job in computer science.

Sigh... i learned so much about myself lately, when I'm trying really hard to waste my time. (YES, i still have waaaay too much time to waste with my daily 10-12 hrs of sleep) And I realized how good duke was, how much i like that place, how much i enjoyed what i was doing, and how much i actually like engineering and bme... i'm surprised... 

So I talked to so many people about how shitty this place is. I don't think I can stay here for the next 5 years if I don't do something about it, because the program is just a piece of crap. A class designed for seniors (also required for grad students) is teaching what I learned in an intro class of my freshman year. So that basically means these undergrad didn't learn anything in their first 2 years, and they are still not learning that much in their last 2 years, and graduating knowing pretty much nothing. In addition to incompetent professors, under-qualified grad students (meaning TAs at the same time), there is nothing to learn... trust me, this school really sucks!!

Last week seminar contributed a lot to my anger too! They held this info session for job search or whatever, had 3 speakers came in to tell us pretty much nothing. First 2 people from career center came in and told us they have counsellors and jobtrak available for us. Well... not like i'm visiting from high school... i guess i can tell that u have counsellors sitting in there and i can do job search on the web, why should I sit there for an hour listening to u telling me to look on the website, which probably isn't that informative anyway. Then the 3rd speaker was an undergrad and a master student graduated 1 year ago. Basically he told us that he got his job with pure luck, and he doesn't know much about the industry because he's only been in it for 1 year... duh...! Then we asked the professor how we can find a balance between being stuck in lab as grad students and be aware of job opportunities out there since the program doesn't allow us to do an internship. His answer!!! really pissed me off!!! He told us to go to the company and talk to them on the weekend, and ask them to give us a tour. And since we still have couple years before we graduate, he suggested us to start visiting companies on weekends now. WTF!?!?! Not only he wasted my 1.5 hrs (although i had more than enough time to waste, not necessarily i had to waste it on those dumbasses!), he made the biggest fool out of himself, and he insulted me for listening to his talk!

I think I should just email this entry to them and tell them why the program is not going anywhere!

Since Kay is updating almost everyday, I decided I should update mine as well.

I went out Thu night, some guy that I don't even know was holding a party at a club, and my friend brought me there. It was pretty much a Jewish people gathering. It was actually quite fun, but I'm so sick of meeting all these Jewish people, almost overwhelmed by the religion. I had to leave early because I was falling asleep after 1 drink... yeah... getting soooo ole! Another thing that really bugs me about Jews is that they all party on thursday nights, 'cos friday/saturday is sabbath...

Friday, following my usual schedule of getting up at noon, and going to work at 2:30... Then I decided to stay home and waste time for the rest of the night(instead of doing work...) It feels really good just bum around and not do anything.

I've been so bored lately... The snow from Monday almost buried the whole city, everything was closed,  that made me even lazier and slept till 2 Classes seem really boring this semester too, I only remember myself doing work for 3 or 4 days since school started in Jan (yeah... only 3 or 4 days work for the past month... the rest of the time i was bumming around mostly )

Something exciting thou, I finally found a studio and moved out of the dirty disgusting apt that I was living in. Although the rent is so much more expensive, but now i have my own bathroom and kitchen. I didn't have a desk until yesterday, which was delivered without noticing me. Now everything is setup, and I'm running out of space for my random things because this place is sooooo tiny!

Almost 2 months of no updates...

Life wasn't that exciting after all... being slaved away in the lab and spending the rest of my time in the student lounge studying for finals. I came home for christmas break, and I did nothing but eating, sleeping, and watching movies. My aunt has been yelling at me for living a life of a pig!! Although life is quite relaxing here, but I'm almost bored out of my mind now. Wish I can go back to ny earlier...