I try to remind myself that everything happens for a reason, but i don't understand why someone would be taken so soon. Especially someone that touched soo many lives and was loved by so many. I have trouble sleeping because whenever I close my eyes I see his smiling face with those big blue eyes. Sometimes I feel his presence, but other times I feel he is okay, and is resting from this unstable world. There is so much that I wish I could have said and so much that I wish I could have done. The only thing I want is to just hold him one last time and tell him how much he meant to me. He touched my life and picked me up when i was down, but when he needed someone to help him I wasn't there. Everyday is like a struggle to get over the pain, and an absolute battle to  fight the urge to cry. But i held his hand and told him i loved him, and i have told him so many times that I will see him on the next ride. So, here's to you Jimmy. May you keep on shinin in the sky and look down upon us with that warm face. You have reached the ultimate high, where there is no pain and no struggle. To the times we laughed and the times we cried, here's a puff of smoke and a drink of beer to the one that brought a crowd to laughter and tears at the same time. If there was anything I could have done to stop you from getting in that car, I would turn back time to have you here. James Lee you are missed and you are loved and when we meet again I will find some way to repay you for the love you had given me. For all those people he had touched... keep him in your thoughts and when the next party roles around, know that he is there.

                                            Sincerely, Lacy (Queso as he called me)

Spanky, keep in touch. i hope everything goes okay with you little girl.

This nigga don't play!!!!!!!!!

hey poopie pants..

I have to admit that I find myslef stuck between a rock and a hard place. It seems like everything I have ever thought about relationships moving to fast has completely been re-evaluated. For once I feel certain about something, but unsure where it should go next. Peanut is me, but only male. I have to admit that the "L" word was shock, but it didn't bother much as much as it should. He hasn't said it since, but I get anxious when I think of him saying it again. However, I have to bite my lip when we share our moments to keep from blurting it out. ( The moments he ruins by saying one of his stupid comments). I'm beginning to think there is something wrong with me. I shouldn't feel this way this soon and have no worries about it. He made me cry Friday, but I don't think he realizes how much his words impacted me. He made a comment about the other guys that I've "encountered" in the past, and it just got to me. I didn't cry like a baby, but I did tear up. I don't know where we will be in the next few months, but IF this is the last guy I will encounter I would be perfectly happy.

But thats enough of my babbling for now..I love you guys.. Peace