Okay new site http://www.xanga.com/runway_model107. Simply because on this one I got a new internet and I can't make my password work and blah blah blah so anyway everything will be the same except it will be on that site.

BLAHHHH what is wrong with me?

Ok so not doing so great as far as food and exersize lately. But I really want to start doing better again. I can't even put into words how much I need xanga and you guys it's a strange addiction, but I'm sure some of you guys understand where I'm coming from with this.

So I need to do better. I'm not sure what I want to do as far as a plan. Fasting isn't that good of an idea for me anymore. At least not as often, I guess I'm going to do really small meals or snacks a couple times a day. I don't know if I'm going to necesarily count calories either. But I do need to do something.

I don't know if this happens to anyone else but every week there's a very prominent cycle going on. Toward the middle of the week I get my act together and do well than it comes to the weekend and I mess up big time b/c I'm out with my friends. Monday and sometimes Tuesday I still am in my care free weekend mode and eating whatever, than the middle of the week I do better, than it's back to the bad weekend habits, and on and on. blahhh

I'm going to weigh myself tomorrow morning, I'm quite scared. Because I'll admit it I was a huge fuck up today.