Pause for ThoughtI take a deep breath and ignite a cigarette.
Through my air passage, particles of nicotine engage my nervous system, inducing a soothing comtemplation.
Exactly one year has passed by since my last aspirational change.
It is the...
Time for a pause
Time for a thought
Time for an appreciation of gain & loss.
Momentarily, flashbacks hit my head.
from what i wanted, to what i am getting (then i begin to accept the fact that life is not always about getting what you want. It is about survivial when life puts you out of expectation, then you turn the table and take control.)
.......from nothing to something
from something to accompolishment.....
then again i suffered losses, losses that i could have avoided, as if life is trying to teach me what it means to be satisfied.
Constantly I have come across many "what if" scenarios.-- :what if i could have done differently at that specifc point of my life?" --> and i figure the best way to stop myself from regretting is to add a "so what" in the end of that sentence.
Another year of my youth went by so constructively, proactively yet unbearably fast.
Making sure that I am ready for the challenge, I will go to the computer and parepare the add/drop for the new semester.
Confident that my revenue target will be exceeded by a considerable percentage points, I will go to work early and execute my action plan.
Missing my friends whom i have neglected because of work, i will pick up the phone, dial the usual numbers and tell them how much they mean to me.
The cigarette burns out. As my fingers feel the heat, I put it off -- heart feeling a high note of ambition. ^.^ |