wooohoo i made it thru half the week holllaaaa!...tomorrows thursday && im looking forward to the weekend even thou im grounded =[ sad sad..im also the genius that got an early interim for math...hahaha oh boy the mom wasnt too happy..but i was already grounded so its kay shes just more had @ me joyy :\ ...other than school shit lifes pretty sweet, xmas is gettin close owow ;]..monday didnt do much..but i was in a random good mood? i liked it..&& tuesday i went over jackies after school to make up a dance to show the dance club officers tomorrow yayayay<3<3 its so hot omg im in loveee!! everyone come to dance club tomorrow && watch us practice for our performance! =]..okk but for now its homework + sleeping..sounds like a good plan, peaCe!!!!!!!!

x3 ifeverywordisaidcouldmakeyoulaughidtalkforever..

editttttt////;; [[ thursday, 12/9 10:45 PM ]]

so i did some more thinking && i decided to tell you all so bear with me..i was talking to my mom && like its weird but some things just started to click..we werent fighting, we were laughing, && there were no worries about tomorrow or the weekend or my failing math grade or boys or catty bitches.  i dont know what im going thru, && i kinda like it like that..i mean sure its always nicer to know what the hell is going on, but sometimes its cool to let life flow b/c were only here for such a short time && its not worth it to worry so much...&& as i sit here listening to ''only one'' && im thinking about john [[ because it was our song ]] , && loving him wasnt a mistake b/c if it was i wouldnt be crying listening to this right now, && this all fits..it all makes sense, our relationship was amazing && nothing or no one will have with me what he did, && that to me is fulfillment, so im already almost satisfied. however, siting alone made me think about my xmas list...so heres mine::
dear santaaa, i dont want a lot. my moms trust is a good start. you could throw in happiness too. a digital camera is fun, && jewlery makes me feel pretty. && that boy, yeah you know the one im talking about, i really want him over anything else *no bitches, its not john*...<3michelle
i wonder if my list will be granted, well just hafta wait && see......if nothing else, the boy please? i really like him a lot && i dont care what anyone thinks..ok im done..peace, love, && merry thoughts

p.s. ---sherrill is my favorite hannukah present ever =]

well its december, holy bajesus!...but idk maybe its the season really changing, maybe its the sound of the rain, or maybe its the year almost coming to an end, but ive just been so bubblingly happy today & i havnt felt so good in a while, & i missed this feeling..& idk what exactly brought this on, but ive been sitting here & ive been thinking about all my friends & how much theyre there for me always & i really dont know what id be without them..like, i just have so much respect for them for putting up with me..& for keeping all my secrets even if i might not've kept theirs..& the people ive met & became close with just this year & already theyre a friend to me like weve known each other our whole lives & god idk what this is but its a-m-a-z-i-n-g & i dont want this feeling to ever go away..to courtney, crystal, meg, jen, ADGEEEEE!!!and simi...weve just gotten close this year & i can tell you anything & ull always listen & i love you all for it, thank you so much..to jacqueline nicole keiffer, my bestest friend, who knows all my secrets & all my quirks & all those silly little things that i only do around you..i love you with all of my heart & theres nothing more i could ask for from you...youve given me everything & the time weve gotten to spend together over the years has been incredible..i love you..to sher, chele, kim, meli, liz, katie, cheryl, julie, josie, sammi, rachel, colleen, & erin...you all have been amazing to me & i honestly dont know what couldve happened if i hadnt met any of you & i love you allll soooooo fucking much..

im sorry if your not on here..i still love you but these people put up with my shit more lol....well i feel like im doing that thanksgiving thanks a little late hahaha but its not its because i love you all & it sometimes seems like i dont & i want you all to know how much i do..because i do from the bottom of my heart...<3

I LOVE YOU ADGE..DONT EVER THINK DIFFERENTTTTTT!!!