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| *sigh...
That's right, I'm sighing. I usually don't ever sigh but strange as it sound, Rosemary is feeling sad. I don't know what exactly that I'm sad about but I'm up to the point where my heart feels really heavy. Heart ache? Wow, I've never felt like this before even after graduation. However I do know that I feel sad after coming back from Japan. Do I miss Japan that much? Or maybe I miss the company of having everyone with me all the time. Or is it the fact that I'll never see my host family and my sensei again? Maybe I feel lonely because I have no one to talk to anymore because in Japan, I could just go next door if I wanted to talk. I think I miss it all. Looking back at the pictures of my host family brings me to tears. I miss my host family, my friend's company, the hot weather, being rushed everyday to new places, being able to drink lots and lots without having to use the bathroom very often, being able to eat and eat and still get hungry within a few hours. I miss everyone. They're like family to me now and knowing that we'll never see each other again is sad.
Now that I'm back home, I don't know what to do with myself. Being rushed to new places, no time to waste! GO GO GO! It's not like that anymore. I'm not rushed anywhere, I'm not told to do anything. I'm bored... Sure we can just arrange something to meet each other again. But it's not the same. Everyone has their own schedule to follow, they have jobs and things to do. Won't be the same. In Japan, we did things to kill time. Now, if it's not important they don't want to be involved because they have better things to do. In Japan, together we walk all day with a tight schedule leaving barely enough time to slow down to take pictures. Home is the total opposite. Sit at home all day alone with all the time in the world but with nothing to do. I miss everyone and everything.
My heart aches, it's grasping for air, there fore I sigh.
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| So yeah...yesterday arrived in SF at 10. It was so cold! I wasn't used to it at all. Everything was in English again which made it so easy to understand...I was used to it yet. I also noticed all the people pushing carts on the plane were kind of old... unlike the japanese one. I got home around 11 in the morning unpacked a little bit and e-mail sensei. I got really tired so I figured I'd go take a nap or something and wake up when dad's home. I went to bed around a little before 3. When I woke up it was 8!! I was like WTF! haha dad didn't wake me up. I thought I wouldn't be able to sleep at night but boy was I wrong. We were watching some of the videos I recorded in Japan and around 10 I had a major headache and a little bit of stomache discomfort. Went to bed a little before 11. Today I woke up at 3pm in the after noon... lol... on the trip I only got 6 hours a day for the last two weeks. I guess my body is trying to get those hours back. I feel sleepy again... should i go take a nap?
It's so weird knowing that I have no where to go and nothing to do again... I wish the guys were next door so I can just walk over to talk to them again. I miss that.
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| Dragon Boat RaceYesterday, we had a Dragon Boat race. I've only joined DB for maybe more than 2 months but I'd like to think i did pretty well in the Race. The morning was really freezing cold. Well...actually the whole day was really windy and cold. Of all days, yesterday was the windiest. Even some of the tree branches snapped, one almost hit my mom in the head, she was lucky. On the news there were some big trees that fell down on power lines and stuff. Anyways, i'd say because of the weather, it made the picnic more fun. Rather than sitting around doing nothing like on nice warm days, I was really active, jumping around all the time, or huddling in a group to share a single blanket that India's mom brought trying to stay warm. It was quite fun. There wasn't much pressure, it's more like a 10 hour picnic with your friends with a few races in the middle.
I got to Lake Merced at about 7:16am. REALLY windy. I was sort of shivering so Jasmin and I went for a job around the park. Alice was so cold that tears were coming out of her eyes lol so we ran another lap with her. Shortly after someone brought a football so we played catch with that. Usually when you throw or catch something it doesn't hurt. But because it was so cold that day, just simply throwing the ball made my finger tips sting. We played this for a while until a man with a micro phone came telling Washington kids to meet up at a statue in 2mins for debriefing. Thus the race began 30mins after. I don't quite remember the first race but i think we came in 3rd just enough to make it to the finals. Racing with Mountain View was terrible... I wasn't really up for it while racing with them. Maybe it was because Jenny was yelling at us in the back? or maybe it was just because they weren't part of my school so I didn't really care. Or maybe i thought their exercises were stupid and didn't make sense. Anyways, I did not enjoy paddling with them at all. We came in last on the last. Oh that's right! They were gender races. Man, those gender races sucked! Well anyways A division came in 3rd for the final gender race so congrats to them! C division came in 2nd for the final (i wasn't really paying attention, thought we got 3rd place) woot a silver medal! I also participated in the D division race because they needed more left-y people. I really didn't mind racing back to back because that meant I'd get a higher chance in getting a Medal! (this was my last race). I've never earned a Medal in my entire life so i was really hyped to get one. On the last race, I really didn't care about my pants anymore. All this time i was half concentrating on paddling and half concentrating on keeping my pants dry but on this last one, I stopped caring and paddled vigorously for the finish line. On the last 2 meters I saw that we were sort of tied with the boat next to us, (was it Gal or Lincoln?) and i heard our boat screaming with joy. Yes, we won first place for the D division race! but only by a row! STILL I WAS DAMN HAPPY! GOLD MEDAL!!! I think my nose was running in the middle of the race but i wasn't sure cause my face was numb from the strong wind blowing at our faces, and the water hitting my face made me squint just enough to still see. Mom came to see me on the last race! It was great! She's proud of me. Anyways, we waited about roughly and hour more in the cold before they passed out our medals. I just love being in a big team and just yelling out cheer as loud as we can. It makes me feel powerful and a part of something.
"Who's house?!"
"WASH HOUSE!"
"Who's house?!"
"WASH HOUSE!!"
"Eagles on 3! 1 2 3!"
"EAGLES!!!!"
The thing I like about Dragon Boat is that its a team sport. There is no "I" what so ever because in order to actually get the boat moving fast, EVERYONE in the boat MUST paddle. I'm pretty sure people don't really care how you paddle, just as long as you don't stop, no one will blame you. Unlike soccer or baseball or basketball, there is no MVP only endurance (don't stop paddling). Although I don't like the fact that dirty water is getting in my face (I hate water) and leaving these mysterious red spots on my hands and making my skin rough. I really do enjoy the team work, and being a part of something. This is the first sports team I've joined in my life and I'm starting to like it. Maybe I'll join Dragon Boat in college too, but then again, I think I want to explore other types of sports.
Thank You Dragon Boat, for making me a part of something!
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awesome!
DSAIM
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| Hole in the YardIt's summer time! Time to dig some holes! 
Me and my brother dug this today :P
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