One of the spiritual highlights for me in the past 6 years has been learning to participate in the whole of Holy Week, and not just Easter Sunday.  I am so grateful to my church community for the opportunities I've had to grow in this.  Rremembering the betrayal of Maundy Thursday, horror of Good Friday, and the utter darkness of Holy Saturday make Easter so much more of a celebration of new life. 

John Irving's character Owen Meany says it this way - "I find that Holy Week is draining; no matter how many times I have lived through his crucifixion, my anxiety about his resurrection is undiminished—I am terrified that, this year, it won't happen; that, that year, it didn't. Anyone can be sentimental about the Nativity; any fool can feel like a Christian at Christmas. But Easter is the main event; if you don't believe in the resurrection, you're not a believer."

Like Owen, I find Holy Week draining - Holy Saturday is so dark because Jesus is dead.   I wonder, will it happen this year?  Reflecting on the crucifixion and burial of Christ makes the resurrection and new life that much more significant and real. 

This year, in addition to services Thurs-Sun, I've been participating in 7am daily prayer with my church.  I made the commitment in response to some things God's been showing me, and also as one more step in participating in Holy Week. We're not having a 'prayer meeting' per se, instead it's liturgical prayer.  So we sit in groups of chairs across from each other, and read antiphonally (one side first, and then the other).  At first, it takes some getting used to - am I reading at the right time, etc.  But there is something very rich about both reading and listening.  As we read back and forth, we are speaking truth to each other, and Scripture sinks in more deeply.  We speak hope to each other.  We have time to pray individual prayers, and the community agrees with each prayer, with a phrase like, "Lord, hear and have mercy."

We also have Stations of the Cross on display, put together by Mosaic artists.  The Stations are a meditative tool for remembering the suffering of Jesus.  So our space has been available for meditation, prayer, and going through the Stations every day.  It is beautiful to have sacred space open during the day.  We have a yoga class that meets each week, too, so on Tuesday, the Stations were closed for an hour while a group of us practiced yoga.  My mat was situated right in front of "Simon of Cyrene carries the cross," which has a large cross, tipped on its side.  The station invites us to stand or kneel by the cross and to 'take up your cross and follow Jesus.'  There was something amazing about sitting in silence there and meditating. 

There's been a ton that's happened in the past few weeks, and I'm grateful for the opportunities to meditate, reflect, and pray in this season.  I'm not exactly 'excited' for our liturgies this weekend (it's draining and sad, remember?) but I am so grateful for these times.  Holy Week has often been significant for us in the 6 year history of our church, and it's great to reflect on how God's grown us as a community since the beginning. 

Almighty God, life and salvation of all who love you,
grant that we who look forward to the celebration of your Son's Paschal Mystery with holy expectation
may come to share in the glory of his resurrection.

Students are coming back in town.  Yesterday I was at the grocery store checkout, and the mom and college-age son in front of me were in the process of buying what would end up being $350 worth of groceries.  Immediately, I had two thoughts -

1.  How can anyone spend $350 at the grocery store?  Is she trying to feed him for the whole year with canned goods?

2.  Why did I choose this line??



:)

After all that talk, I finally did it. Took the plunge. Got clipless pedals and shoes to go with. I got them installed yesterday, and promptly took a nice fall in my backyard. Bummer. But took 'em out for a quick ride today, and had a blast! I can really notice the difference on hills, and it's sorta nice to feel 'one with the bike' - except when you're falling... I think Speedy likes it too (that's my bike's name).

It was a very short ride because I just haven't been feeling well. I've been off and on sick for over a month now (more sick than well), so I took it very easy, but still tired out super-quick. Hopefully I'll feel totally well, soon.

So the last few weeks have been crazy busy, thought I'd pull some pictures that give you an idea...


Here's my awesome small group from Breakthrough's What's Next track...


At the Asian American Staff Conference... Daniel Project crazies. :)  Are they sure they want us to lead?


looking more civilized, for a picture with the mentors and teachers. :)


my friend Morgan and I, high above San Francisco...



Exit Clov at Lovejoy's during SXSW. The picture's super-blurry, and you can't really see Aaron or Brett, but I like how Emily and Susan are right in front of the angels on the backdrop.


Clov at Ruta Maya, this is the only one where you can really see John, the drummer


at the Rio for the official showcase. Awesome, just awesome. (fyi - the Rio used to be the Real World Austin house... confirmed by the crazy loud colors on the walls in the back area)

Unfortunately, my camera isn't that good, and I also don't have any pictures of my friend Ellen (cousin of the twins) who was in town too... but check the website, because they have better pictures there. :) Despite the lack of pictures, I did get to see some other bands - most notably, the Polyphonic Spree. Amazing!

Whew, I'm tired. I'll have to put up post-Spring Break pictures later...