wow

alright SOMEONE commented that i never post under here, so im posting. btw you can find regular postings on myspace under saberomega.

let me just say that i am, right now, the happiest ive been in maybe 4 years. honestly. im happy with who i am (which has always been an issue; for those of you who know me, you know this). ive been seeing a girl who i truly connect with and finally its nice to know that someone likes me like that back...no more self destructive relationships for me. im finally getting a promotion at work...not the big one i hoped for but its a step up and a step closer to that one...plus the extra $ isnt that bad too. i am going to the zoo for the first time in years this weekend, too. yay

its been too long since i was happy...truly happy. ive been happy for others (wink wink dave and ali) or happy in situations (wink wink chicago new years trip) but its just been a long time since i can feel at peace with who and where i am. insert whatever religious thing you milliganites want to here. im smiling for no reason all the time.

i finally broke the whole story of why im in PA to tosha last night too...and it didnt scare her away...very good sign. lol ive had to increase my cell phone plan to be able to keep up with the new call volume.

thats it. ive updated. milliganite, come to PA! come visit me! i believe its your turn anyway. lol john..........out!

girls

i do not understand the female gender. all men dont. and if you think you do, you are an idiot and they have you right where they want you.

women are like land mines...you cant always see them, but you can see the men who theyve ruined, and you sure as hell never see the one with your name on it.

and im not just talking about date-able girls here. i dont understand friends and family either! i dont know what you want from me when you ask me what im thinking, or the correct answer do "does this make me look fat" or "do you think shes pretty". stop asking our opinion, because yes shes pretty, but were with you and yes it makes you look fat but we're still with you. if you think those jeans make your ass look big why did you buy them? god

also date-able girls, you know how you look when youre dancing at the club, in fact you take hours to look trashy and then get offended when some slimeball hits on you. oh and with the flirting? if you are not interested in a guy do NOT flirt with him, even if you think youre doing him a favor, or boosting his confidence. if you want to date a guy, flirt away, but if not, stop it. let him move on.

girls who are friends: that guy you think is only your friend either sometime thinks or thought he had a chance with you or thinks youre his connection to someone else. this doesnt mean you cant have a genuine friendship with him, just know that sometime he may think "what does she look like naked?" we are very base animals

also, girls, we are not girls. let that sink in. when we dont call, its not cause we hate you. sometimes, we forget or whatever. if im watching the game and you gave me your number last night, i may not call you till i see that number again. relax, it doesnt mean i dont like you.

and as an aside. if you tell me you want to kiss me, i will take it as meaning you want to kiss me. lets get that straight. oh and sometimes we want to take the first step and ask you out and sometimes we want to know we wont get shot down so if you like us, ask us out. we arent nearly as flippin complicted as you are. whatever you think is going on under the intial layer of man, youre wrong. whats on the surface is it.

and just cause you dont look like jessica alba or a stick with boobs doesnt mean no one will date you. america wouldnt be as fat as it is if fat people didnt hook up too. look at the jerry springer show. however, no one wants to date someone feeling sorry for themselves.

one last thing. if you are about 3 weeks out of your wedding date, DO NOT FALL BACK IN LOVE WITH A CONVICT AND TATOO HIS NAME ON YOUR NECK AND CUT YOUR FIANCES ARM WITH VARIOUS SHARP THINGS, PSYCHO. oh and please replace anything you burnt.

happy one year anniversary kristin tate.

maybe theres something still there....

after it all...this still gets me

Sonicflood - Before the Throne of God Above

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong, a perfect plea
A great High Priest whose name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me 
My name is graven on His hands
My name is written on His heart
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart
No tongue can bid me thence depart(X's2)

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free
For God the Just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me
To look on Him and pardon me 
(Yes Lord, Thank You Lord)

Behold Him there! The risen Lamb
My perfect, spotless righteousness
The great unchangeable I AM
The King of glory and of grace
One with Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased with His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God
With Christ my Savior and my God

One with Himself I cannot die
My soul is purchased with His blood
My life is hid with Christ on high
With Christ my Savior and my God
With Christ my Savior and my God
With Christ my Savior and my God

weird week

weird week thus far:

-talked to hot mg chick, shes single again

-made steps to deepen a friendship i had let stay 2d

-supposively have a date (kinda) tomorrow with a hot red head named emily

-helping tina at slippery rock thursday

-got a completely random care package from the best married friends ever

-re-discovered mst3k

-theology is a hot topic this week so strike while the irons hot if you wanna (milliganites unite!)