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Wed, 04 Jun 2008 12:15:45 GMT

viscera begets vulnerability,
emotions rage,
hearts flare,
breathe.

genesis

Sun, 01 Jun 2008 11:50:20 GMT

well.what can i say.i am back from God knows where i have been.is that a good thing?haha beats me.life has been eventful.i am in love with the present,a little of my past, but the future,let's just say,the near future seems daunting.really daunting.it's my final year in college and i've got a mere 5 months before a pretty large proportion of my career, and life so to speak, will be decided by my A Levels.knowing i can actually achieve much more than some people ever will in life,its no surprising why i am really starting to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders.sorry if i sound overly obnoxious but that's just me.maybe i am just a tat too deluded.whatever the case may be,knowing what i have to offer myself and the closest ppl around me's one thing,actually fulfilling what i know's another issue altogether.and that's where it gets tricky.

in a flash, the As will be over and there i will be serving my nation and trying to climb up the perennially prevalent ladder of ego-feeding and socially-desirable life achievements.the subsequent years of my life are definitely gonna be simultaneously challenging and enlightening.whatever happens, i am just hoping i do well this year and life would then unfold itself, like it always does, but with less creases, if i do well that is.

i shall stop right here cause the thinking and succeeding task of stringing my thoughts into words proves too much for me to comprehend tonight.goodnight world.love you cheeseby.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 09:46:32 GMT

i guess i was never made for any of this.i have no idea what to do anymore.time and time again i try to give my best,and yet, i end up a whole lot less.i am sorry i ain't what you made me up to be.i'll try harder.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 11:12:18 GMT

sometimes, when you try you best,
you end up being a little less.

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 12:12:47 GMT

hello world.i haven't been here in a pretty long while so yup, here i am once again.i realize that i am only once in a while, after i have been occupying myself with something or like going through a phase in life that keeps me momentarily away from my cognitive self.and it is only after i finally come to terms with this fragment of my life do i find myself here letting loose.

today's epiphany:
forgive me if some of you peeps out there have like gained insights to this before i did but yeah.i just realized, despite the many differences we may have with regards to our innate personalities, the things that makes us truly human are the things that not only capable of bringing us together as individuals, but also the direct opposite.

the same desire and the same fervid inclination that we have for something, someone, will and eventually bring us together, as different entities of life (be it human or not), to a common frequency we are all able to relate to temporarily. however, therein lies a very fundamental problem.if there is homology in how we feel and react to various issues, there is bound to be the prevalence of an inherent divide that sets us apart on a more superficial extent.

objectively speaking, it is the same human traits that we share that not only brings us together, but also apart, when the issue at hand isn't all that accommodating.when interests clash alongside unwilling and uncompromising and sometimes irrational individuals, all that makes us a civilized and sophisticated breed of mammals will seem to take a backseat.

on a more neutral and somewhat, comforting note, there isn't always a target where we can all point our fingers at when it comes to issues involving human emotions.like the saying goes, visceral as we are truly are, inept we will always remain.things happen as a result of decisions made by people and decisions made are a result of how things have happened. truth is, we are all related to one another in this warped metaphysical state of being alongside our constant struggles with existentialism-related propositions.

for those who choose to opt for an overly-spontaneous optimistic view at life, i do not wish to dismiss your prerogative.its just that, sometimes,life isn't that all smooth sailing and based on personal experiences, it isn't hard for me to that conclude that sometimes, if not, most of the time, simplicity simply begets complexity.

to end off, i would like to quote my good friend Eka, who has aptly summed up the aforementioned last night when i was out with him: "I just realized how fucked up this world is." kudos to you Eka(:

take care homies.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 09:58:14 GMT

nostalgia at its best,
saccharine smiles of yesteryears.
amidst the constant quibbles,
therein lies a deeper truth,
one of adolescent innocence.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 10:25:27 GMT

the pride of it all,
feels so right,
yet it be forbidden.

i stuck my foot in,
only to find a different pair of shoes.
when, now or not.
if not, then why.

food for tods

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 13:20:51 GMT

all's too much to comprehend,
the constant perpetuated struggle,
stifles the innate purpose,
lest there be a reason.

the cyclic ramblings of yester years,
timeless yet temporal.
visceral as we are,
deeply inept we remain.

interactions all too feeble,
fulfilling only the extreme superficials.
that which is sought after,
will only come before.

Monday, October 01, 2007

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 13:17:52 GMT

hello world.what can i say,i am a free man.not so exactly if you consider this in context to the larger picture we all squeal about every other second.today marks the end of the vastly overrated promotional exams.let's just say God decided to save my sorry ass and made the papers, well relatively manageable.all i hope for now would be me getting delectable grades and that i can actually enjoy my holidays to the fullest extent.God bless all my friends whom are still caught in the shackles of the bleeding education system.trainings are around the corner and i am feeling more freaked out than i can actually be freaky.turns out my carefree lifestyle the past few months isn't exactly heath rendering hahaha.opps.what's new anyway.oh well, that's all for now.all those of you out there who's reading this are either my good friends or very bored people.if you fulfill either the former or latter descriptions, please drop me a text asap and go out with me cause i am rotting away with nothing to do at all): banzai.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 18:05:21 GMT

a very good morning to all of you out there.well,this would probably be the first time i am ever gonna write at 6am in the morning.and yes,you'd have guess it.i've got to get to school myself and it isnt that lovely having to wake up 45 minutes earlier roar.albeit all, therein lies something magical about the morning air.something i can't quite comprehend.it's soulful on a whole new level but apprehending on another.guess its just the many uncertainties that lay ahead as my day egdes to an end before i even know it.and yes,today's maiden day for my promos,let's pray very hard i can get my sorry ass up to next year.nuff said lest i miss my bleeding bus.good luck to all of you out there.good luck to me.God bless.