i havent updated in a while

ive been ashamed

ive been gaining weight and eating like a pig and im so ashamed and sorry

just been under alot of stress i guess

but now im gonna be back on track

and its gonna be alright

i will lose weight.

ssooo today is pretty much a bummer

but....me and my friends (who do not have eds) are currently on a little chalenge.

we're not going to eat anything solid untill spring break, which is in 2 weeks.

starting tomorrow morning.

we have all these meal supplements, and we're gonna do it!
i may acctually succed this time, because i have people i acctually see in my everyday life that are my compition.

like no offense, you girls are great, but i have to prove these 2 wrong, that yes i can go for more than 2 hours. and i will not lose to these 2, cause thier like 90 pounds and compulsive eaters.

Laters.

my new plan:

dont eat anything with a caloric value over my body weight

so anything 120 and below.

check this out:

weirdness

im not that skinny.

breakfast- apple 0 cals

lunch- peanut butter sandwich- 200 cals

mingles snack food- 220

snack- granola bar- 110

excercise- 35 min jog- 354 cals

total: 176 cals

cw. 119 (yesss dropped  a pound)

Breakfast- strawberries 0

lunch- grapes- 0

snack- half a sandwich  65 cals

im not even going to concern myself with my weight right now

im too tired.

edit: diet hot coco 25

cereal 120

total: 210