Title makes no sense I know. I'm pretty bored here in Elgin and I don't know what all there is to do here. Plus I have no friends here. But I'm here for school and thats my main focus. Except I can't stand not having anything to do on my days off. I usually am so busy and don't have off days. Or "off days" are days when I only work 4-6 hours. But usually those days are filled with cleaning stalls or other things of that sort. I like staying busy. So I'm thinking of volunteering here at the hotel and seeing if I can do like office work or something. I have, though, finally had time to do some reading. Major plus! Also, there are some good tv shows out there. Nothing I plan on watching consistently but still fills some time.

Borrowed this from a friend, I wish I could follow it and hope that soon I can! Inspiration to all.



Here's a *toast* to all those girls who used to be  his number one. The ones
who waited ALL night for him to call, only to  check the caller ID the next
morning and be disappointed. The ones who  made it through that bitter break up,
dried your own tears, and moved on  with your LIFE, only to have him walk
back in it months later like NOTHIN  ever happened. Those of you who cried on the
first day you talked again  because you knew exactly where this phone call
was going. The ones who  listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one
day, and the next,  listened to him say how much he loves and misses you.
Here's to the ones  that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was
different, HOPING  that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends
tell us  that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance.
We  went through the great stage with NO fights all over again. We started  
this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love  with
him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell  us he
loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they  would be
different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we  were dreaming.
This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed everything  he said, sat around
all over again waiting for a phone call that might  come in a few hours, or a
few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried  all over again. We wanted so
desperately to believe that he was really  busy, he couldn't possibly call us
at that moment, or even that he fell  asleep early. We trained ourselves to
believe the lies because we wanted  to believe we had found the one for us. We
learned to SETTLE for someone  who didn't treat us the way we should be
treated. Here's for the ones who  did their hair and make up and put on their
prettiest earrings, only to  hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who
NEVER believed it  when people told us there might be someone else. We just
couldn't believe  that he could do this to us again. This is for those **great
girls**, who  loved him more than words can say, and took him back NO matter
WHAT  happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives
 one day and wonder "what if".? Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to  
their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in  when
things came crumbling to pieces again.The ones that could just TELL  that they
had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, their  beds, and their
dreams again.


Here's for the ones that FINALLY  realized that he does not possibly feel the
same way, because he has not  done for you what you'd do for him. So here's
for **us girls** who FINALLY  realized that we DESERVE beTTer. This is for
those confusing days, when  you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his
voice, or feel his  arms around your waist. Remember the times you cried, and
how long  it
took you to even be able to look at another guy like that and  promise you
will not put yourself through that again. When "your song"  comes on the radio,
turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes  what a mistake he made
and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he  tries coming to your house,
don't answer the door. Think of the broken  promises, and the lies, the
manipulation and the tears, the wasted moments  and staying up all night wondering
where the hell he was. Think of how  your heart used to ^JuMp^ when your phone
would vibrate in the middle of  the night, and how it fell to your stomach when
you saw it wasn't him, and  *realized* that once again, he hadn't called when
he said he was going to.  You may think that you'll NEVER care about someone
like you did that guy  that you always ran back to, but YOU WILL. It's gonna
hurt like hell, and  it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will
 heal.