I just can't take things anymore.

What's the count....24 more days left of school (including weekends)!!

My sister and brother fight...all the time. I can't take them arguing. I never realized how much stress it adds.

And yea, many people are soooo tired. So am I but I still tear myself in many different directions. Between school, my 2 jobs, family, Matt, friends....I mean there's so much to do there. I get tired too and emotional when I don't know how to handle things.

Right now I'm waiting for the certain time in my life when I'm supposed to be on a steady track. Hopefully that time comes soon.

ONE QUOTE TO GO BY:

"In the end everything is perfect, if it's not perfect...it's not the end."

I know no one prob. reads this but  I need to vent...and I haven't in awhile.

Parents suck sometimes. Well at least my mom sucks sometimes!!!!

It's so stupid. I graduate it 40 sumthin days and move out shortly after. You would think my mom wouldn't have such a tight leash on me! It's driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!!

For SB I went to Destin with Matt...and then after graduation I got invited to go again with Matt and his parents to Disney World and my mom says, " You already went with them once, so no more." WTF kinda bullshit is that?!!?

I'M 18!!!

Everyone from Dr. Gluck's office celebrated me so nicely. Kim bought me a bluetooth. How I love it and her. And I love what everyone else bought me as well.

I recovered from the flu.

Prom plans are in the making.

Can't wait to graduate. I am finishing the dorm application. (hoping to room with Josie)

Matt and I are going out for 10 months. Still strong.

  ...................Hope everything still goes well......................

I weighed 140 pounds and now I weigh 128.

All I did was ate smaller portions and started working out on a normal basis. It feels so good!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you Matthew.

Matt and I are great now. Whatever was going on between us is def. over!!

Nowwwwwwwwww I have another issue:
          -My Weight

It's like skyrocketed. It sux. I look at girls in school and wish I could have their bodies. Not in a gross way but it's just like they can eat whatever and not gain a pound. It sux to go in a store and hear ADULTS asking for a size smaller than what I wear.

 Her stomach is so good. And it's not too muscular. But that's like so out of reach for me...it seems! Like I have no discipline when it comes to eating. It sux. And even my parents have noticed I've gotten heavier on some parts of my body. I bought a prom dress and when I tried it on...it made me look humongous. I had to return it. Majorly sucked. Idk why I'm sharing this with everyone..but no one really reads it....so I just wanna vent.

I love you Matt.