ok...quote time...

and somehow i know that if life was like those bottles where you twist off the cap and look under it to see what it says, mine would read "sorry, try again"

and i hate how everytime i see you i so desperatly wanna just walk up and scream the words "I Love You" and yet the tiny voice inside my head tellin me it'll just be another mistake seems louder than any other voice in that hallway

she's finally followin her dreams, close enough to touch the stars but still too far to be one

so there's this guy, and he's kinda...well...amazing...like...sitting outside on a perfect day soakin up the sunshine then watching the rain roll in and fall down soaking you...only...better

i can remember when you were my world, you were everything to me and somewhere inbetween then, and now things changed...the irony of it all...now i know i'm yours and baby, i couldn't care less

when i was five, mommy used to give me all those pearls and high heels to play dress up in and i remember it being the time of my life, and now, when i'm supposed to be having the time of my life, i'm playing dress up again, only this time, it's long sleeves and jeans in the middle of the summer heat

her eyes are as gentle as bricks, she's as serious as a panic attack

boy don't you worry, i'll just rip out every page in my notebook that's got my name and yours scratched together on it, i'll be fine, it's only teenage love...it's not real anywayz

so why should i be surprised that some dumb 17 year old boy used this girl....and why should i be surprised that this girl was so love struck that she didn't see it coming?

it's so hard trying to decide if i love you more than i hate you, or hate myself for loving you more than i could ever possibly hate you

i don't want the boy who calls me gorgeous when i'm in that evening dress...i want the boy who'll drop his jaw, pull me close and whisper in my ear "you've alwayz looked best in sweats"

it's kinda funny how everytime i look back i see your gorgeous smile and sparkling eyes and remember the biggest mistake of my life

trust me, you could never break me no matter how hard you tried...too many already beat you to it...i was never fully healed to begin with

everytime you look at me with those eyes screaming out "i hate you" i wonder if that's really to me or just a reminder to yourself for letting go the world

so i kno when i'm standin at the alter, sayin my vows, promising him my whole heart i'll be lying becuz no matter where i go or how far apart we are you'll alwayz have that piece

love whispers, but true love, true love doesn't say a thing cuz if you can't hear it in a crowded room, there's no way you can hear how it screams in the silence

and so i find myself checking my buddylist constantly, just seeing if you've signed online, getting disappointed everytime...so i put up my away telling the world i'm not there only to come back to you telling me "hey! i wanted to talk to you tonite" and getting that ridiculous oversized smile on my face

when  i've got eyeliner smeared underneath my eyes and tears streamin down my face those girls aren't the ones sayin "it's ok"...oh no...they're the ones lookin at me with the most sympathetic eyes and sayin "we've GOT to get you to a mirror"

when i'm alone at nite sometimes you come to mind...your eyes, your smile, those stupid 4 hour fone conversations we had, everytime you made me cry or laugh and only at that moment can i say "damn, i loved that boy"

becuz, i miss you, i don't just miss you, i miss you so much i can hardly breathe

well that's all for now guys...much love and happy turkey day...also please check out the post underneath this one cuz that woman meant a lot to me..

-someone

ok, in a writing mood and i haven't updated for a while, though i owed you guys that...so...here we go...also...possibility of a new addition to posts....icons?   yes or no..lemme know guys....i'ma add em this time just to see

sometimes i swear i've got a sign on my back screams "kick me while i'm down" and sticker across my heart that says "fragile, but don't worry about it, she's got the glue"

there seems to be more than one reason for a mirror, some people use it to put on their make up, fix their hair, see if their clothes look good, call themselves gorgeous...me...i look in the mirror and see nothing but a mess

so boy, don't you worry, i'ma be just fine today...it's not as if you'd care if it was any other way

it's not you who's dragging me out of bed in the morning, pushing me to the door, walking me to every class and giving me the hope of seeing that gorgeous smile that pathetically makes my day...i swear it's not you

i'll hit the books when the only thing running through my mind is you, desperatley trying to make the memories just disappear

desperate to feel your lips against mine..just a single fatal kiss

please don't be believe me and i a swear i'll be fine, i promise it's not you who's keeping me alive again tonite

this broken heart's so sick of bein torn...it's finally made up it's mind not to let you rip it apart..not now...not ever

just lemme make up my mind and everything will be alright...i'm breaking down and it's only midnite

*ok...this is something i wrote about me...but...i figured maybe it'd be fun to share it with y'all if you care AT ALL*
i'm scary when i'm mad. i've got a southern accent. i like this boy. i'm not a morning person. i love my family more than anything. my best friend is part of my family. i'm sensitive. i'm sarcastic. i can actually sing and don't care what you think about it. i'm a writer. i love hugs. i like it when he shows up at my door. kissing is fun. i'm bi. i give a shit about the world. if someone hurts my family..their ass is mine. i'm random. i love music. i still sleep with a teddy bear. i would die without my cell fone. i wanna be called mom more than anything else in the world. my nickname is sis and people take advantage of it. i'd wish for a better friend but i already have the best one out there. my necklace is more than just fashionable. i'm clumsy. i say stupid things. i've got slight ocd. i love my middle name. i hate my legal name. i hate liars more. i'm the most protected girl in kansas. i'm a daddys girl. i love to drive. you still know nothing about me.

i hate how everytime somethin good comes along it's just a tiny bit out of reach, how when the bad kicks you it kicks your ass hard, how when you finally say "fuck it" and decide you're not gonna take the shit anymore you're most vulnerable, how when your heart is whispering while your mind is screaming you can alwayz hear that whisper better, i hate how nothing seems fair but how everything you've ever gone through seems totally worth it in the end...

i must be the cutest single girl to walk this planet cuz guys have no problem saying it, but they never seem to want it

ok...those suck..i know..sorry guys...guess my minds on overload still....but...comment anywayz..please?