Currently Listening Deja Vu, Pt. 1 By Beyonc�, Jay-Z see related

Deja Vu

Have you ever felt like your life was just one big cycle of Déjà vu? How many times have we mulled over events in our lives and thought this sounds all too familiar? Whether it’s something you’ve experienced personally or have witnessed through friends, the same types of situations always seem to be on a constant re-run. It’s as if the scriptwriter for life stopped being creative and just started recycling storylines. It’s a strange feeling to be living one of these stories that I seem to have heard about not too long ago, I guess I’ll just be another story myself in someone else’s book soon. They say that everyone is connected by 6 degrees of separation (in the asian community it seems more like 1-3 degrees), I say the tree of love works the same way. Tell someone about your messy love life and their friend’s brother’s cousin probably went through the same thing. It all comes back to the same scenarios, love triangles, lingering feelings, unrequited love, curiosity, the old and familiar vs. the new and exciting, the what if’s? Will I ever find someone better? Should I be content with the comfortable? Should I risk it? Did the chicken come first or the egg? and such endless questions that we will never truly have an answer to. I’ve never been the third person in a relationship nor do I plan to be, or anything close to it. But somehow I just found out, I’ve unwittingly become involved in two separate love triangles within the past week. For once, I wish I wasn’t “the other girl,” or the “new girl” because she never wins, she always has to be the one to let go…because she’s the intruder, the outsider, and everything would be so much easier if she was out of the picture. I know a good friend who knows how I feel…which reminds me of a quote she loves and has been quoted so many times before:

”Meredith Grey: At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

Meredith Grey: Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.”