I don't think I've ever been happier that the semester is over. I made some really bad choices with classes (Don't ever take five online classes...You will regret it.) and ended up with one of the worst teachers.

Hope you all have a great Christmas!

Congrats to Amandria and Ansen on their engagement, and Andi and Marty on the birth of their baby girl!

Yesterday...Blake surprised me again by coming all the way up to school to eat lunch with me. Then, I decided I'd much rather spend time with him so I skipped English and went to the park. Much better than talking about the dreaded research paper. Blake is so incredible. I hope all of you find the kind of relationship we have.

Does anybody else think the immigrant stuff is ridiculous? People are arguing for the rights of people who broke the law to get here. There is something way wrong with that. I'm sure I'll post much more about this issue later on. Check this out. (Watch the video) And this.

Currently Reading Battlefield of the Mind: Winning the Battle in Your Mind By Joyce Meyer see related

"The Mind is the Battlefield"

The devil is a liar. Jesus called him...the father of lies and of all that is false (John 8:44). He lies to you and me. He tells us things about ourselves, about other people and about circumstances that are just not true. He does not, however, tell us the entire lie all at one time.

He begins by bombarding our mind with a cleverly devised pattern of little nagging thoughts, suspicions, doubts, fears, wonderings, reasonings and theories. He moves slowly and cautiously (after all, well-laid plans take time). Remember, he has a strategy for his warfare. He has studied us for a long time.

He knows what we like and what we don't like. He knows our insecurities, our weaknesses and our fears. He knows what bothers us most. He is willing to invest any amount of time it takes to defeat us. One of the devil's strong points is patience.

(I copied this in an entry a long time ago...very powerful words. I'm going to actually read the whole book this time.)

Do you ever feel like you're just an obligation? That's how I've been feeling. I'm so glad I have an understanding boyfriend who listens to me complain. :) I wrote this is my journal and it really sums it up.

I feel like I'm just an obligation. I know it's a lie because if it were true Blake wouldn't buy me rollerblades so we can skate together, he wouldn't have bought us a camera or photo album to remember those great times together and he wouldn't have bought us a devotional book so we can grow closer to God and each other. My parents wouldn't have bought a new car so I'd be safe going to school and work. My little brother wouldn't rush into my room to tell me he likes pie (he and his friends have an obsession with saying "I like pie). My friends wouldn't call me to get together or just to talk about what's bothering them. Satan is so stinking evil and full of lies. It's definitely his tactic for keeping me from doing something great for God. He knows my weak points...feeling like I'm in the way or bothering people. Why does he use lies that hurt so much? Ones that are so easy to make up evidence for? (I do that so much...I analyze what people say and it feeds his lies. Ridiculous.)

God is so good. I'm glad he never gives up on me and I'm glad Blake never gets frustrated when I have to call him up late at night to talk. He is so good at continuing to listen. I get annoyed with myself and he never does. I am so thankful for him.

It's definitely way too late to be thinking this deep. I hope everyone has been having a great Spring Break. It snowed here...it's been an odd beginning to Spring. I am so glad it finally rained!