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| l0vely lyna: anyways i've moved on from him and then theres kinda a new guy... but don't want to get my hopes up again
twistedglow: good grief, u go thru boys like a roll of toilet paper
yea...maybe i have been a little boy crazy lately...i think i am going to stick with one this time. | | |
| All i've got are a few text-messages, a couple of pictures, and a head full of daydreams..., but some how, i am still completely infactuated with you.
-just a simple 'goodnight' can really make a girl's heart flutter..so thank you. | | |
| lets see...i haven't written in my xanga for awhile, I guess its because i really have nothing to share with the world but i might start trying again..here goes..
While on the phone with my *ahem* 1/2 best bud- trung-a-lung, i've kinda developed a new theory. Its about having bad days. I think the way i figure i have bad days is fairly simple. When i have a really good day, ie., on saturday i had my houston tournament, i was extremely happy. (I think i smiled so much throughout the day that my cheeks ached by the time it was over.) On the following day, which was Sunday, it wasn't so great. I mean don't get me wrong, i still had fun..i just wasn't as happy as the day before. Later on that night, i began to feel sad..not for any specific reason. I think i developed that sadness because i kind of compared it to the day before. When doing that, i saw that one day was like *weee*, the other was more of a ~hmmm~ thus causing me to feel unhappy.. I get my hopes up after the first day and expect the second day to be just as good, when its not, i get my feelings hurt because it didn't meet my expectations...I guess its kind of like.....like when you're infactuated with a particular guy. You meet him, made up your mind thats hes everything you've been looking for and wait around for the longest time, hoping he'd call, when he doesn't,thats when you get that achy heart feeling.... People don't really have BAD days, they just think they do because it wasn't as great as the last one. I think its a chemical trick of the brain. I have realized if i would just stop comparing my days to one another, and take each day as a new day then all will be well. Every day will be a happy day because i wouldn't know what a sad day felt like. Maybe this is my solution to happiness, i think i'll try it out and tell you later how its coming along. Until then... | | |
| Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne
"It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't
Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today..."
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| Lately i haven't been doing too well. Everyday is suppose to get a little bit eaiser on me but it hasn't been going the way i'd hope. I keep finding out little details that i am better off not knowing. I wish this would just go away, i wish i could just disappear. I can't keep doing this to myself, i need to take a hold of my life and let everything else go. I am done, I keep telling myself that, but now its more of- I am done because i am tired. I have to know that we broke up for a reason and things are better this way. I need to completely distance myself from you. I don't want the little time that i talk to you now and then to be the high-light of my day. The tiny hope that i had that we'd get back together someday is now lost, i am not hanging on to it anymore.
Love sometimes is just not enough. | | |
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