it is amazing to me how awesome god is. everytime u think something is the worst it could possibly be god comes in & does something to make everything incredible... as most of you know steven & i broke up at the beginning of the summer & it was a much needed break up. i forced myself to get on with my life & not to stay stuck in my misery of loosing my very best friend. for 2 whole months we did not speak one word 2 each other. then all of a sudden one day he started calling me again. i didn't want him to call me... i didn't want anything to do with him. he hurt me & im sure i hurt him. i just wanted him to go on with his life. but fortunately for me he did something more than what i did over those 2 months we were apart. he took the time to look back and reflect on a relationship that was in the beginning "perfect" (or very ver good) and turned out just plain rotten. he saw that he had messed up. through a long serious of conversations we have talked & discussed our friendship & come to the conclusion that we are not going to cease our friendship ever. we are going to be best friends no matter what has happened in the past. he asked me for my forgiveness & told me how bothered he was by the fact that he lost his best friend all because of his own stupidity. he took full blame for it all. he still, everytime i talk to him, apologizes for treating me how he did. now granted... he didnt beat me or hit me or nothing like that, but it was the emotional aspect of it all that he mistreated. he realized it & saw his mistake & asked for my forgiveness. i had already forgiven him & gone on about it & i was fully prepared to never be able to speak to him. but when god takes hold of someones life & it is almost like he shoke steven and woke him up so he could realize what exactly he had & now didnt have. it is amazing. god is so wonderful to me. i didnt rush back into anything with steven. in fact i pushed it away for a long time. & steven supported me & understood it all. he tells me all the time all he wants is for me to be happy. steven is my best friend. i know that there are people out there that think i am absolutely ridiculous for thinking he is going to be different and to them i say... until you give him the time to prove that he ISNT going to be different dont say a word please. he has proven over & over again, and continues to prove to me on a daily basis just how different he really is. he is ready to prove to the world that never again will he take advantage of me or take me for granted. he really is my best friend & for that i am thankful to god. god can take a guy that was a good guy but had made some bad choices in a relationship & turn him into an extremely godly man who realizes his weaknesses & will do anything he can to get some help in those areas that he struggles in.over the last 2 months steven has proven to me that god really can change people. some think nothing could change him... but i say... god can do anything... even change the way a person thinks, acts, talks, and walks. god is amazing. he really has worked a miracle in this relationship. friends are something everyone needs. i thank god for my new old friend that finally got his head on straight.

some might think i am crazy, some might think i am stupid, and that i am making a big mistake, but god has his hand on my shoulder guiding my every move. every step i take, i take with him. every decision i make, i make with him. everything is in his hands. he will take care of me. i prayed that if he didnt want me to walk through this door to close it. he didnt close it. i still prayed that he would let me have a peace about it if i was suposed to go into it again. i have never felt the peace of god like i have about this situation. he tore down the old & started with a new foundation & has began rebuilding something that is extremely special in my heart. i ask people who think i am crazy to hold on, trust god & believe with me that god can change a person, please.

alright... well, i just wanted to share with everyone how awesome god is to me. how he works miracles still today. thanks steven for being my best friend. for waiting on me to find out from god if it was alright for me to venture into this once again. thanks for not forcing me into anything. thanks. god has really worked a wonder in your life & i hope i didnt embarass you but i wanted to tell the world of god's wonders.

later guys!! have a blessed day! sarah:):)

Hi everyone! im bored! i have been home by myself all day long. it has been no fun. i slept most of the time. i dont think i ever got out of bed til 2 or 3... something like that... i was bored!!! my shoulder is hurting pretty bad today. i went to the dr yesterday and he said that i was healin up pretty well, but i needed to staret cutting back on the pain pills so im trying to do what i am told but... it is very hard b/c i am hurtingh pretty bad. today i couldnt take one though b/c i cant open a pill bottle. that twisting & pushingmotion is something i dont have yet. i had to wait on hannah to get home from school to open my medicine for me. it was funny, kinda... haha... i am so helpless its really not funny. i am kinda getting tired of not being able to do anything. but oh well! i will be better soon enough! then i will wish i was back in this sling not wanting to do anything! haha... they took my stitches out yesterday & he also told me that i couldnt start back to work til monday... i am ready to get back to work... at least i will have something to do with myself... haha...

alright... just wanted to give you great people an update! i will talk to you all later! have a good day!!! sarah:):)

God has everything in control. he knows exactly what he's doing. he knows when you sit, when you stand, when you lay down, and when you twitch an eye he knows. he knows the number of hairs on your head, the number of freckles on your cheeks, and the number of tears you cried. he knows your deepest darkest secret, and he knows things about you that you dont even know. he knows how, he knows why and he knows when. he knows your height. he knows your weight. he knows your shoe size, shirt size, and pants size. he counts how many times you blink your eyes, wiggle your ears, and scratch your arm. he knows your ups and he knows your downs. he knows how to talk to you when you are sad, glad, mad, scared, or just bla. he knows. he knows your past, he knows your present, and thank god he knows your future. do not worry, do not be afraid. because he knows!

someone needs to know that god knows everything. stop questioning him, stop worrying about tomorrow. live your life for him today and you have nothing to be concerned about. he knows what you are going through. he cares. he really does. just sit back and relax. he is in control. he knows when the perfect moment to give you your answer is. just hold on. your answer coming... not in your time. god has no time. when you say you need an answer today... he doesnt work that way. to him there is only one time &  that is on time. be still & know... he is God & he does know.

be blessed... sarah:):)

HI everyone! thanks 2 all my friends who came 2 see me! it makes time go by. i have been so bored! sittin here at home with my mom & dad gets kinda boring sometimes. dont get me wrong. i love them & i dont know what i would have done had my mom not been home with me this whole time. being limited 2 just one hand is very difficult. but it is just good 2 see some new faces come in & out the houyse!leslie is coming to stay with me this afternoon cuz mopm has 2 go bacj 2 school! reovery isd slow. i got 2 take a shower yesterday! i got 2 take the bandages off... that was really bnad!!! it hurt worse than anything else!!! but i sure do feel a lot cleaner! my arm is pretty gross lookin! its all sticky from the tape from he bandages & the sticky ewont conme poff!

ok... im gooing to go. im on meds & im gettin sick at my sdtomache lookin back & forth from the keyboard 2 the monitor! everyone come see me!!! latergacters! sarah:):)

hi... i had surgery yesterday. it was not fun at all. everything was fine until they went to do the block & they had a lot of trouble getting it started. they did the i.v. and that was fine so they filled me up with some medicine to kinda make me loopy but i was still awake. they made me turn my head 2 the right & then they had 2 stick me with some numbing stuff & then they had 2 stick a needle in between my muscles & hit the nerves. but he couldnt get 2 my nerves. he tried over & over but couldnt do it. i started crying b/c it hurt really bad b/c the numbing stuff wore off so they shot some more numbing stuff into me & then he pulled the needle out and called for another lady. she had 2 try 3 times b4 she got it. from then on i cried. then they took me back & they operated on me. i have a video of the surgery. its what the dr saw when he was using the scope. its really cool!i watched it last night & you can even tell what everything is! there isnt any bloodor nothing so it really isnt gross. everyone should come see me& if u wanna watch it ill be glad 2 show it 2 u or if u dont wanna watch it, u can still come see me! just give o sarah a call. im really bored. i lay in bed all day & night so........ come c me!!

ok... my one hand typing method is really getting old. im reaLLY HURTING SO EVERY ONE SHOULD REALLY SEND UP A LITTLE  prayer for me. (sorry i hit caps lock & didnt realize it... oops!!!) ill talk to you all later!