i hate myself more than i ever let on.
i'm burned out at 16
i lived too fast
and i loved too much
and i'll die too young.
but i choose this cup that i drank from. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. Admit it. We flirt with each other. We have so much fun with each other. We laugh with each other and we even try to be with each other. And I believe that we secretly love each other. But how come when I think of you and wonder if you're thinking of me, it feels like you aren't? i act like i dont care - but deep down im lying - cause everytime i see you all over 'her' - im dying keep trying to convince myself that I hate you & that you are the most annoying person on Earth...but there’s this little nagging voice inside my head that keeps saying, "You’re lying" have you ever had someone steal your heart away, You'd give anything to make them feel the same? Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart, But you don't know what to say and you don't know where to start? Have you ever found the one you've dreamed of all of your life, You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes? Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to but only to find that one won't give their heart to you? Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there and all you can do is wait for the day when they will care? I’m sick of wondering where he is… and who he's with but I hate facing the fact that he doesn’t give a shit… but still all the feelings didn’t pass by. I just learned what’s true. Never love someone who don’t love you between holding hands & falling in love, you begin to learn that kisses don’t always mean something. so ive said: ( im sorry, please, baby dont leave). dont yell. dont scream. this is just a bad dream.. its okay and its alright, why dont you come back tonight. we can work this out, i love you without a doubt Because when I talk .. He listens.
he’s my drug and yes, I’m addicted. | 
