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| This isnt the first time this has happened to me (as shown in my last entry) so my only thoughts are that it's not going to be the last. I hope we can all find someone some day that we can finally completely trust. and until that time comes, -trust no one. | | |
| So maybe its time for me to come back. lately ive been keeping a lot in and im not gonna go and bring up the past bc whats done is done. So let me just start by saying today something very wrong was done to me by someone i would have never in my wildest dreams thought could have done that. And it hurt so bad not knowing what was wrong. why do so many people know my business before i do? and then i have to wait forever to hear what is really going on and not from the people who should be telling me but from the one person who is looking out for me and sees my pain. When you walked away from me the way you did it made me want to cry so much because i had no idea what was going on? Do you have any idea what thoughts went through my head as you got up and just left me? No explanation, no care, just left. and then to find out what was really wrong and how far from the truth it was hurt even worse. Why would you choose to believe something that is so negative and not even think to ask me, your girlfriend, if it was true? What else hurts is that when i try to clear things up it seemed like you didnt believe me anyways. Why do i have to work for a trust that i did nothing to lose in the first place? I just feel betrayed. My heart is so heavy right now and full of so many emotions that i feel one wrong move could just stop it from beating... | | |
| THIS THING IS RUINING MY LIFE!!! why do i even bother? | | |
| hey everyone-
well, yesterday nothing really exciting happened. So nothing to report about that except for last period in pre-calc we were takin a quiz and i fell asleep during it......so.......i found that kind of funny, bad on my part because i failed it but ya gotta laugh! Yesterday was PAY DAY!!! thats hott. i got a pretty sweet check so i deposited it and cashed my last paycheck and then i went to Beauty and the Beach to check out their prices. ill probably go back tonite to buy some minutes bc there sale ends today. i need a tan so so bad. anywho i wanted to go for a run last nite but that didnt happen. So hopefully im not too lazy tonite to go for one. Oh, today in bio we started the fly lab. it was kind of fun bc we got to put them to sleep and determine the gender. lol i guess its not really that fun when you think about it but jeff, my lab partner, and i make it fun! lol We goof off a lot while doing labs and the teacher probably thinks we're insane and dont get anything done. But lately jeff has been just comin over after school on lab days and we use my sister's old bio notebook to get the answers for the lab. lol its great! Well, i guess thats all for now. Suey- how about that date hunny? dont you love me anymore? Mindy- love ya babe! peace out! | | |
| Wow, let me just say i had the most awesomest weekend ever!!! Friday nite i worked til close and then suey and shane spent the nite. We ate pizza, well suey and i ate pizza voluntarily but had to make shane eat because he's anorexic!!! anywho then suey slept in my bed ( hope you were comfy) and shane and i stayed up and watched movies and fought and he claims he won but i think we all know that i can kick some major ass! Saturday i worked 11-3 and then i went grocery shoppin and then went home and took a shower and got ready for johnny's party. Then i had to get ready again for johnny's party (lol shane  ). anywho- went to the party. It was so much funn! Lots happened. Enough that i wont mention. But it was all in good fun i guess. Sunday i missed 10:30 mass and i felt really bad so i tried to make noon mass and just go into work an hour late. Well, maybe i should have just stayed home entirely that day because what happend was frightening and also embarassing. During the service i got really nausous and i thought i had to throw up so i ran to the back area of the church to the bathrooms and well to make a long story short- i passed out and when i began to "come back" there were all these people around me tryin to help. They were so nice and got me some water and food and nursed me back to health. So, God Bless them. Then when i felt that i was ok to drive i went to work ( but this girl followed me just to make sure i got there ok) i was still a little shaken but over all i was feelin much better. Matt came in to see me so that was nice. We're both doing just fine. After work i made a fabulous Easter dinner for shane and i. Garlic Chicken stir-fry. mmmm............ it was delicious! Then watched "You've Got Mail" and cuddled on the sofa. SO SWEET! Around 8:15 suey came and picked him up and then i was alone. Well, not for long. I cleaned up a bit, got online and before i knew it, shane says "ill be there in 20 min." Lol he is so crazy and yet so sweet. When he got here we made a cake for my dad and then (did something else) and then he layed with me in bed until i fell asleep. It felt so nice and comfy being held while i slowly fell asleep. Thank you shane. So that brings me to monday, i woke up at 11:45 and waited for my family to come home. They came home around 4:30ish and then at 7 we took meg back to LVC. So i guess that concludes my awesomest weekend. To all of you who were a part of it- Thank you! Love Ya! Leave some Lovin! -erin | | |
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