Much has happened in regards to me and Tyler over the last week.
There was everything said, by both of us, from "I love you more than anyone" to "I never want to talk to you again".... and just about everything in between.
We were at the breaking point, and decided to just be friends, when suddenly it occured to me... why was I trying to force our relationship into some cookie cutter vision of what love is supposed to be? The problem was that I wanted all or nothing: either Tyler would be totally committed to me and me only, or I didn't want any part of it. Unfortunately, due to timing and certain past events, Tyler wasn't ready to be that involved in a relationship. So neither of us would back down, and neither of us would let go of what we wanted.
And then somewhere between the open road in Delaware, the warm summer air blowing through the sunroof, and the song "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol, it hit me.
Love is about making sacrifices.
Sure love is about give and take, and compromise as well. Those things are essential for love to survive. However, sometimes, one must sacrifice their desires for the one they love in order to salvage a relationship.
And thats what I decided to do. I told Tyler that I had changed my mind about the friendship thing, and had decided to go about our relationship exactly as he wanted. This meant no labels: we are not together, nor are we single. We are not just friends, but we're also not full out boyfriend & girlfriend. There are no rules for our behavior: when we hang out, we do what feels right in the moment.
At first he was concerned, and said he wanted to make sure that this was really what I wanted to do, because he wants me to be happy too. And I said basically that being with him was what made me happy, and if it took being in an insecure situation, then so be it.
Well, its safe to say that he was ecstatic, and thanking me over and over, and telling me that he couldn't even describe what my decision meant to him. He even said he wished he could be there to hug me and give me "the most passionate kiss of my life". Needless to say, that choked me up.... but like I always say, tears of happiness are ok by me.
Unfortunately, a new situation has arisen that I can't really talk about publicly, however, it concerns his ex girlfriend. I am furious at this girl for obvious reasons, and I truly hope that Tyler makes the right decision regarding his friendship with her.... it really angers me to know that this girl, who Tyler put above every other person in his life for quite some time, could be so unbelievably selfish and uncaring to do the things she did. I really hope this is the end of their friendship, because Tyler is way too good to this girl who doesn't deserve it, not one little bit.
Oh well. All I can do is be happy that things are falling into place with me and Tyler, and hope things work out for the best in the other situation. | 
