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Name: Jameson
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Birthday: 5/14/1988
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Thursday, December 23, 2004

Currently Playing
Collision Course (W/Dvd) (Dig)
By Jay-Z, Linkin Park
see related
- What a great idea.

ACCORDING TO NEW INFORMATION, JESUS FREAKS SUCK

Rising numbers of devout Christians pisses off the minority opinion.

Columbia, MD - According to new information released by the, well, me, Jesus freaks in and out of high school disgust me. I don't care who you are. If you could only know how much you all disgust me... wait, that's right, I'm telling you now. Oh, don't worry, I don't care if you are offended by this, because I'm just as offended by your Jesus worship. I mean, I don't really care if you believe in this entity you call "God". I don't believe in him. I guess that makes me agnostic... Nah, I just straight up don't believe in him. You can if you want to, but I just don't.

     Now, some people may find this shocking. However, the news just doesn't seem to care. Turn to God if you're offended, I'll take charge of my life by myself, thanks. If God exists, I don't think he's ever done anything for me. I don't believe in God, I believe in fate and equality, but no God. Everything I've done, every turn around I've accomplished, every triumph in the face of failure, has been me. Who else? I never felt a divine intervention. Why don't I believe in God? I opened my eyes. I realized that, just like a bad court case, everything the churches presented as proof of God was circumstantial. There was no solid proof. That and the ease of conversion between religions. Not to mention the great variety of religions. How can this be possible under the same ideal? It can't be.

     What are our reasons for religion? Religion originated in the earliest days of man to explain the inexplicable. To give a reason for the unreasonable. To stabilze our lives. Eventually, we came to depend on our various deities for emotional support. And at that point, we gave all credit to those deities. So no matter what we accomplished, it was help from God. So, essentially, we robbed ourselves of credit because of our Almighty Shrink. Now if that sounds sacrilegious, that just means you don't have an open mind. Have fun feeling unempowered and groveling at the feet of... nothing.

     And what really pisses me off is that 2004 was almost the Year of God, according to Best Year Ever on VH1. I never noticed, but now I'm pissed. Why is the world going to... "heaven"? Because reality is going to "hell". So while you sit at home content and happy, I deal with the facts and worry about how I'm gonna run my life. I have a great tagline, now.

 

I'm gonna steal The Passion of the Christ, just to, y'know, contradict the whole "Commandments" idea. Then I think I'll burn it.


Sunday, December 19, 2004

I made an image for the hell of it last night. If you want to use it as a buddy icon, be my guest. I have a good feeling no one will, though.

Go crazy. ARRARRARRARRARR. Oh baby. ARRARR- Oh baby- baby.


Friday, December 17, 2004

New BGM.

 

Because, as we all know, this is my December.

 

And I love Lizzy Conley so much it's now eternalized on the internet! So ha. XP


Monday, December 13, 2004

Currently Playing
Once
By Nightwish
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- Polish metal. Now that's cool.

Y'know, the world gets easier and simpler when you find what you're looking for. Anyone ever done that? Find something you've been looking for? I did.

 

I found my soulmate.

 

I mean, I know people say that all the time. Mostly, it's just to be romantic. Of course, it always is, but it's not always true. This time, I really mean it. I'm not just trying to be romantic. How do I know? It's like they always say, "You'll know." You will. Something happens. You can't force it. You have to wait for the One. I can't explain it. No one ever will. Forget your trying to explain love and how it feels. You can't.

 

Everyone: wait. It'll come.

 

That's all you need to know.


Saturday, October 09, 2004

Currently Playing
Lines in My Face
By Chronic Future
see related
- Neu Musik ist P!MP. (cultural references are bilingual)

As I hope you can tell, I put new music on here. Chronic Future is the shit, anyone who says otherwise hasn't heard them or is a smacktard, choose one. Oh, choices, choices. Choices are funny.

On the internet, it's like this with people you meet... attractive, single, mentally stable: choose two.

I could make an obscure Star Wars novel reference but I'll spare you.

It's sad, really. I've written a running total of 10.5 pages just debating possibilities for my Magic deck for the State Championships coming up soon. Pathetic, isn't it? But don't feel sorry for me. Pity is for l4m3rZ. I'm so into Magic because it's easier to be good at and have fun with than the weird social structure in our culture. I can be good at it, go play at the comics store for hours on Saturday, play in tournaments, and all of this in an environment that's light-hearted and enjoyable. On the other hand, if I were a "normal" teenager, I would go to the mall, hang out, run into people I know, and hang out with them. The entire time, though, I'd be seeking to impress them and trying to improve my social status. In the Magic community, everyone's equal, like how society is supposed to be. It's easy to have fun, and be careless, and actually enjoy yourself, without fear of any rejection or anything like that. I mean, if you get your kicks out of acting like something you aren't just so people like you better, go ahead and have fun. Not me, though. I like to be myself, thanks. So let's go have fun and make a life out of it.

 

Live by the sword, die by the sword.



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