i totally forgot to tell yall! hehe oops! new xanga! http://www.xanga.com/painful_anticipation
 

sorry!!! love yall! thanks for the comments!  comment on my new one!

<3

yahh, so me saying im going to give up, not going to happen. ive got too much hope that there will be a chance later, i dont want to mess up that tiny chance, even if it doesnt come for a long time, ill still wait, just maybe not the way thats wanted. but im not going to jeapordize the hope ive got.

 
Love You, Still.

.:edit:. I went to church, and its amazing how much it helps you through tough times. "God is satisfied in me, when I am satisfied in Him." it's not a selfish thing. It's a sin to make God a duty. so i know a girl like me doesnt seem like i care much about God, but to be honest, I wish i would have paid more attention. and gone to church earilier when i was invited. but hey! you learn from your mistakes right? and im learning! anyways!
Im going to Little Rock to watch Blake and the boys play baseball in the STATE TOURNEMENT!! woot!woot! man i hope they win! they have been doing really awesome!  
by the way, if your wondering what is going on between me and Blake, im just giving him time. he's asked for it, so im giving it to him, being patient (which by the way, i just found out means "enduring pain." how well does that fit?!?) and understanding, and TRYING to not get mad when he tells me about who he's talking to, whom by the way is a beautiful, sweet girl, and i hope she reads this, becasue he's an awesome guy, so please, just give him a chance. you might be amazed.
but yah, so i know this is a strange request for me, but pray for me, i just need some strength to get thourgh this, i know that this is over a boy, but i guess youd have to have my heart to understand.

I hope everyone had a Wonderful Wendsday, make me feel loved and leave me comments. I'd appreiate it!



-I'd rather be miserable-
-just as long as you're happy-

-Always a Best Friend-
-Who's Always there-
-To talk to, and lean On-

..:Love:..:You:..:Still:..

Ahhh, i hate being used.

and some girls take things too seriously. or think too much *me!* lol
(but im not the only one) we are young, take a CHANCE!!!

woo!wooo! i went shopping!! spent $81 and only got three things! lol oh and some curly fries, pathetic, i know, i need to not spend that much! or well, on soo few things. its just that everything that is super cute, is VERY expensive. its just how it is, what can i say?? anyways, i got three cute things, a half sweater thing from maurices *it's PINK* ($19 somehting) earrings from Dillards *danglely white ones* ($11 something) and a top from Vitoria Seret (ooo lala, corset looking thing, not QUITE appropriate for public, so you probably wont see it. lol you might see it ONE when im feelin daring one day. teehee) *$49 somethin* and then like $1.72 for some curly fries, i had some change. lol but yah, im happy with what i got atleast! even though the most expensive thing probably wont be used very often at all. *im single, no boyfriend to show it to* (sniff.sniff.) anyways!!!!!!!  im going to go, i look/feel cute!. lol for once!!! and i have no where to go , and no one to impress. dang it! *does it not seem like this ALWAYS happens, when you look awesome, theres no one interesting or worth impressing ( like family, no need to impress, they already know how amazing you can be!)* oh well, byebye! i hope your summer is going great!  and that the nights are fun! Loves ya! <3kaite

   

 

 

          

Love you!