It's only morning and I'm already miserable. I can see today isn't going to be one of my better days. I'm in a whole hell of a lot of pain. Lately my meds don't seem to be working as well as they should. My liver feels as though someone keeps stabbing it with a knife and twisting it. I take time released morpine pills twice dailly, but my morning dose isn't started working yet and its already mormy. *SIGHS* Anyways I guess I'll stop my whinning.....

I can't believe how long since I've been able to leave any messages. I became extremely sick about 2 almost 3 years ago. Thats why I haven't been to any of the online sites I had setup. Health wise I still continue to be very sick. 24/7 I'm on oxengy. I also had to go through 9 months of a chemo type meds for my liver. Unfortunitily the doc said it looks like I met still have to go through a liver transplant in the not so distant future. At this point my liver is somewhat enlarged as well as my heart and moderate swelling through out my spleen. The most recent problem noted by the docs is the tumor that was seen inside of the femur bone, closer to the knee end the the hip end. Thats all I feel I can write for now. I'll have to finish catching-up whats been happen between now and then, later.

I feel so fucking depressed. I hate life sometimes (always).