| No dummies it was a bracelet!!!! I still have a tan line from it! Hahaha have a good day |
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| I cut a peice of myself off today. Hmm... that sounds kind of gross, don't worry it wasn't a peice of my body, it was a peice of me, of what makes me... me. There is a mark where it used to be. I held on for a long time even once there was no reason to. It was time. I don't know what I'll do now. I need to ry to keep a plant alive for a year. Then maybe I'll try to take care of a pet for a year. Then maybe I'll be ready for some semblence of a relationship with a person. I am so deaply scarred that I don't know how anyone could ever really get in. I don't feal things, unless I force it and then it isn't real anyway. I'm sorry to be so dramatic, but I've just made a worthless trip to the computer lab. And I really did cut something off, see if you can tell what it is! |
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| It's hard to find a house for rent. Especially when your roommate has two dogs. It's ok that she has them, I've met them, I like them. It just makes it harder. Jeeze I had to use the phone a lot today, with nothing to show for it except a house I can't have and an address where I can pick up a list of houses. Man... |
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| I want so much to be loved for who I am. Who I am may not always (or ever for that matter) be pretty or nice or filled with what you might call "wholesomeness". I will always be who I am, take it or leave it. I am strong willed and impulsive and full of faith. Don't worry, it is a faith in God, the same one it has always been, maybe I show my faith and live it differently than you may expect. Get over it. I am unlike my fellow camp staff because I don't like rock climbing, I will never capture the flag, and in-camp is the adventure option I most enjoy leading because I can be creative and not just exerting physical force all day. Besides, if I'm going to make mistakes now's the time to do it. I want so much to find my hero. Someone that I respect and that respects me. I guess I'm just tired. |
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