Faith has so much to do with the decisions and paths that we take in life. Also with that being said, we have free will to choose the paths that we take and the decisions that we also inevitably will make. Along side faith it creates conflict within ourselves. I am not talking about the decision to kill someone, I am talking about the conflict that really ripes us away from religion and the faith that we need so much. I was standing around at work yesterday, and I was talking about religion to someone. The conversation circled around how people try to force religion on other people when they do not want to be told what to do, which I understand completely where they are coming from. I am not as strong as a Christian as I was about 2 years ago, but don't get me wrong I have not lost my faith. I still trust and rely on Gods help in my life.


About 2 years ago I "came out" of the "closet" you can say. I never thought that I would end up in Florida or anything like this would have happened in my life. I never thought I of all people would make it out of Ohio. I realized that I was gay when I was about 13 years old. Everyone knew that I was gay, but I think that the only reason that I didn't come out in High School was because of my father and also the people in my school. I wish that I would have had the balls to come out when I was still in high school because I am not a totally different person than  I was. In high school, if you were to have seen me, you would have seen a scared and timid boy walking down the halls of a small town high school. Now if you were to see me walking down the street or even in the halls of that same small high school, you would see a different person. A person who is not afraid to be himself and express himself in a way that he would never have if he were in high school now. I wish I could rewind time and redo everything. Although I must say, I have had a pretty good run so far.

When I made the decision to move to Florida, I thought to myself. Why not what else do I have to loose. Nothing at all. i am going to finish this later.