So I was thinking to myself this morning of who and what I really want to be in life. People ask me all the time. My response would usually be marketing, international business, and so on. But I've been thinking about my love for children and my patience. Of course I can be a big bitch, but I know my limits...hahah I guess. Lets just skip this subject.
I wonder when my turn will come.
You can spend your whole life looking for something, something that might be right in front of your eyes, but you'll be looking for something else you'll never find. Love.
I wanted to start this xanga over again, but I can't seem to do it. I turned all my entries in to private becuase I wanted it to become part of my memory, and my memories only. Although some events I would cleary like to delete, I can't seem to do it. I miss him in a way. And I really do. Nate was always there for me. Its pathetic for me to be so cruel, yet it was pathetic for him to keep coming to me. We would never have an ending, and we woudl surely never be able to have a begining. I don't know if its becuase of the bad timing or what. But I sure hope we can rekinddle our relationship again, and become just friends. Same as everyone else. I guess..Or maybe not. This is a fresh start to a fresh ending. Just listen to me on one thing. Everyday you wait isone day you'll never get back. trust me on that.-one tree hill.
