Currently Listening All These Things That I've Done By The Killers see related

- Smile Like You Mean It

for it is all you need

Edit; I'm going to Vegas, baby. I leave tomorrow at 5 pm. If any of you assholes [more like not than so] want to come visit me, then hell drop by. I still live at the same damn house and I probably will until the damn day I die [aka college]. It sucks that all of the oldheads are leaving, but whatever happens, happens, and I'm sick of everybody lying to me but there's nothing I can do. Last night was fun, until everybody got stoned, but hey what did I expect. I'm going to be gone for two weeks probably, so I'll be getting back two days before school starts. If anyone wants my schedule I might post it later, all I can say is this year is going to fucking rock. I got photography, two dimensional design and exploring graphic arts, study halls and math in the first part of my day with 2nd lunch, so the first part of my day is awesome and then my last three classes are english III op II, applied chem, and us history. what fun. But I'm not going to screw up this time.. I'm going to try and not get more than two F's on my report card this year.. I don't want to mess up like I did before. If anyone else can do it, hell I can do it too. And I'm not even going to think about dropping out of high school that's out of the question. Although by Christmas my mom is talking about moving us to the pike.. in other words I would be going to CV and if that happens I will rightfully kill myself

Here's a fun and interactive update from the audio injected soul, yours truly.
The song of the day is: Still Loving You by the Scorpions. PLAY {You won't regret it}.

(( I am advertising. If you don't live in Carlisle, you don't have to come dumbshit, but please vote for me. ))
Anyway, so in about two weeks, on the thirteenth to be exact, there is what we call Springfest here at CHS. I would really, really appreciate it if you did one of two things, or even both if you're feeling generous: 1] Show up, surprise me, and support me because I'm gonna need it. I'm singing one of three songs, which leads me into my next favor I ask of you. If you can't make it, at least 2] vote on which song I should perform. Here's how: I'm going to inbed a link to a poll at the end of this post, along with three links at the end of this post, one to each song if you've never heard them before [and if I can find them]. And I need YOU to pick which one you like best. the one that gets the most votes will probably be performed by me at Springfest at CHS's Idol. Deal? Like I said, please try and make it, if you live here in C-love, and if you can't, at least pick which one I should do. It'll be right after school on that Wednesday next to the McGowan parking lot. I have to audition VERY soon, and I need to know which song I should do, because I don't know what type of music the crowd would like. So if you're going, let me know, and let me know which song or any comments you may have on it. Thank you.

The songs:
1. Vermilion, Pt. 2 \\ by Slipknot. PLAY
2. Roads \\ by Blindside. PLAY
3. Excess Baggage \\ by Staind. PLAY [I am having terrible trouble finding this song, for it's a rare song anyhow, but if you know me then this is that depressing song, the only one I know how to sing and play at the same time for. If need be, contact me and I will set up a session and perform a sloppy version of it for you guys. It's really no problem, just gimme a guitar and I'm there <3]

If you haven't figured it out yet, I've moved.

http://www.xanga.com/release__me

Yeah that's about all I have to say now.

Currently Playing Morning View By Incubus see related

- Just A Phase - -

Life is full of atrocities, disappointments, and false identities.
I've never been more sure that things will work out, when I'm so uncertain feeling inside. You can't possibly explain it, for words are meaningless, you have to feel it for yourself before you can understand. It's selfish to hope for the best and greatest of everything possible. I'll just hope I stay alive, go where I want to go, and continue to think with my eyes, hear with my mind, and speak with my heart. Everything must come to an end, so I'll take what I've got and run with it. I will each day occupy myself so as not to let the problems cascade onto me and develop underneath my skin.
This will not be a vacation, nor will it be a job. It will be simply life and its in-between notions. I may not come back in November. I may not come back at all until next Summer. But that doesn't mean I'm not still here.
Just because I am out of arm's reach does not mean that I do not exist. It's hard to swallow the illing drug of reality. It's hard to deal with everyone pissing you off and blowing you off and drilling away at you that you're no good and never will be. But damn, if there were no hardships, if there were no consequences, and very little pleasantries, then it wouldn't mean so much when you finally make it out on your own. Right now, this is a joyride. Just a peek inside of what's to come. Some may see it as the worst time in your life, being held back from who you are, being restrained at expressing yourself, and going where you want to go, and doing what you want to do. But it will be worse out in the real world. Right now it's a small price to pay for the temporary abandonment of your recluse, of your responsibilities. Those are lain for later on. It's only three years. Only three. And when out in the real world, out there on your own, with no protection whatsoever, yeah, it will be harder. Some get by. Others aren't so lucky, and abandon all hope whatsoever straight away. I have the drive. The same determination Keith has. I always have, and that's gotten me where I am now; Nowhere, yet on the road to contentment.
I've already found the love of my life, and hell yes, I am going to be positive and say that we'll stay together until death do us part. If I am wrong, then Oh well. I was simply wrong. All the feeling that comes attached to it and mental displacement for the young like I is natural. You are meant to feel. They break us apart because we have that which they do not. And they never will, because we are determined. By them trying to break the bond only makes us stronger than ever before, so they simply help us to grow.
It is not hard to figure this much out.

"You must be the change you wish to see in the world."

Mahatma Gandhi
Indian Political and Spiritual Leader

Currently Playing Silvermandalas By Silverman see related

- My Overflowing Ashtray Heart -

She said no. She fucking said no.

I went into this with happy thoughts in mind, you know, trusting things would work out fine. I got this in return. And I wonder why so many people commit suicide. I fucking wonder.

Don’t leave comments, don’t fucking email me, don’t you fucking dare call me. I just want alone right now. Yeah, this is good.

Fucking peachy.