holy geez.
it's been so long.
hope you all have been well & that things are going half as good as here.
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s i l e n c e

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it occured to me today
that although i am still hearing our love song over and over again,
you are creating new chords with her,
in a somewhere far away
from here.
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you can't forget and leave what your past was.
the only memories that fade are the good ones.

i am afraid
of never truly loving
anyone else
but you.
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funny that i miss you most when we are laughing.
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i don't know who you are now.
and you may have forgotten me.
and i am trying not to care.
or act like it, like you seem to have done.
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please comment. that would be quite splendid.

hey guys.
sorry i haven't been updating it's just been crazy with the musical and such.
buuuut i hope you enjoy. this is a pretty short post though. i pretty much just copied stuff from my personal site & ali's site.
buuut. hope you like it :]

n e e d  y o u

behind the hatred there lies a murderous desire for love

like lipstick traces on pillows,
some things in life are unforgettable.

i've run out of complicated theories,
so now i'm taking back my words;
i'm preparing for the break down.
your t-shirt has lost it's smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess.
remind me why we decided this was for the best.

i can't listen to my favorite songs anymore,
because each drum beat is a massacre,
each keystroke is a regret
and each chord is a memory of you.

good morning, sunshine,
awake when the sun hits the sky.
look up the sounds that surround the day you died.

think how different it would be
if you'd never met the person who changed everything.

i split things in lines because it's safer in the words
i write it on a page so it's louder when it's heard
someday i'll learn to forget all the things we said
but for now they'll spin madly on somewhere inside my head.
>> mine. credit.

your eyes shine bright,
light the headlights of a thousand speeding cars,
and i'm obsessed with crashing into you.

sometimes i wish you'd pay more attention to my favorite songs,
because the lyrics sing the words i'm too scared to say.

i was forever staring at the tender blue veins along the insides of my wrists,
fragile twigs trapped in ice

i get myself confused between the past and present tense
and i can't remember when the words all stopped making sense
me and you were always there but now we're crumbling down
for the first time since i met you i won't be homeward bound.
>> mine. credit.

honestly, i was scared and that was the real reason.
honestly, you are the one thing i have to let go.
honestly, i am in love with you and i always will be.
honestly, it's my fault and there's nothing i can say now, because
honestly, it doesn't matter anymore, it's too late, and
honestly, i want to die.
>> mine. credit.

it was more of a fragment of love,
just another one of our pieces.
>> mine. credit.

you can only live in my words now.
don't worry, i will save you.
>> mine. credit.

you take my hand and then leave me hopeless
i can't explain you and i don't know how to react
when people don't know your name
>> mine.

now the days come slow but
they will speed up someday because
they flew by when you were around,
just let us get a taste and then
soared out and dispersed into the ether.
>>mine. credit.

this is past and present tense
if i can't remember, i just guess
i get the times mixed like back then
how do i clean up your mess?
>>mine. credit.

after him you begin to question
the meanings a word can have.
you must have gotten him confused with the real thing.
it's quite the easy mistake to make.
>>mine. credit.

you were always telling me to be more optimistic but
i'm not too sure what you would do in this situation.
>>mine. credit.

you took a hammer to these walls
dragged the memories down the hall,
packed your bags and walked away,
and there was nothing i could say.

i started this year thinking that i had to say goodbye to you,
but i was wrong.
you're a huge part of my life
past, present, and future
and i have to start getting used to that.
you make my life better, not worse.

we talked all night,
about everything you could imagine,
'cause come the morning, I'll be gone,
and as our eyes start to close,
i turn to you and i let you know,
that i love you

i sold you these words and i gave you my heart.
it's yours.

sometimes, when the wind is blowing just so,
and the sun gives the perfect amount of warmth,
i'll think of you again, and realize how much
i actually do need you.
i can push you away, tell myself i'll be fine,
and i will,
for a while.
but on days like this,
you are everywhere, and we are together.
>>mine. credit.

i hate myself when i don't need you.
i hate myself when i do.
looks like a lose-lose situation to me.
>>mine. credit.

okay, soooo,
you guys are pretty much amazing.
i think that's the most comments i've ever gotten on one post,
and it makes me veryvery happy [:
so thank youu.
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s  h  a  t  t  e  r

to tell me in words what you really feel
i can see it in your eyes
you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago
see, i felt the same way

the picture is far too big to look at, kid.
your eyes won't open wide enough
and you are constantly surrounded
by that swirling stream of what is and what was
well, we have all made our predicitions, but the truth still isn't out.
so if you want to see the future, go stare into a cloud.
keep trying to find your way out of that maze of memories.

immature love
is wanting the other person to be happy
only when they're with you.
mature love
is wanting the other person to be happy, period.

can you imagine what it feels like to have someone
sit you down and tell you that you're dying?
the gravity of that?
then the clock's ticking for you.
in a split second your awe is cracked open.
you look at things differently - smell things differently.
you savor everything
be it a glass of water
or a walk in the park.
but most people have the luxury
of not knowing when that clock's going to go off.
and the irony of it is
that it keeps them from reallyvliving their life.
it keeps them from drinking that glass of water but never really tasting it.

i've run out complicated theories,
so now I'm taking back my words
i'm preparing for the breakdown
your t-shirt lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
remind me why we decided this was for the best

so just kiss me,
and let my hair messy itself in your fingers
let me steady myself in the arms of a man
who won't ask me to be what he needs,
but lets me exist as i am.

this room is part of rehearsal
i'm sick of the boundaries
i miss you so much
>> blink 182

and it was one of those days
where you break all the rules;
you don't listen to your mother
or put on a helmet,
you get on a quad with your best friends,
and let your hair fly behind you
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and i don't wanna see your bedroom sugar
i'm not looking for love
but when you call me a pretender
you know you shatter my heart

this weather has me wanting love more tangible.
something i can hold because it's getting cold.
so let's hold up our fists to the flame in the sky
to block out the light that is reaching for our eyes
because it would blind us.
it will blind us.

letters meant to be sent have been torn.
the phone lies off the hook, on the floor.
all these "i'm sorry's" and "i miss you's"
are useless, i fucked this one up long ago

i guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
and i understand why you wouldn't want to
i guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you.

last night you gave me a kiss.
you didn't know it..
but i was awake when you did.
you were quiet, you were gonna let me sleep.
so i just laid there pretending to be.
you said some things,
you didn't know i could hear.
and the words "i love you"
never sounded so sincere.

i know everything reminds you of me
even the songs you thought i'd never sing
i know you'll mess up your hair
i know you'll do things you would never dare
but it all coincides in some way

someplace far away,
at some sad table littered with chipped plates,
with bad light and 48 frames from a movie
on the cutting room floor, you said,
true meaning would be dying with you.
and though i wanted to, i did not smile.

i'm awake, you're still sleeping
the sun will rise like yesterday
everything that we are now
is everything we can't let go
or its gone forever, far away
i hope tomorrow is like today
don't you go away tomorrow
i don't think i could handle that

so tonight i hope you hear this plea
it's the last letter for you from me
wasted words and a broken heart
what was it that tore us apart?
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it hurts to see what your heart desires right in front of you.
weither its love, or perfection.
and you know, you'd do anything to get it.
thats all life is, trying to fill the empty holes in side of us.

i like people with a sense of individuality.
i love expression and anything awkward and imperfect
because that's natural and that's real

it makes me itch
to know that you're only a couple of hours away from where i'm missing you
and i can't get there
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how can i make you believe
how happy i am when you're with me
i cross my heart, i'm telling the truth
a promise is a promise, so i promise you
i'll never let go of your hand

wouldn't it be nice to know right now
that we'll be someday holding hands in the end

it will always be me and you
cause to me youre everything ive always needed
and that kinda love you just can't let go of
forever im yours
youll always be able to have me 
and thats something that i can promise you

the path to our destination is not always a
straight one. we go down the wrong road, we
get lost, we turn back. maybe it doesn't
matter which road we embark on. maybe what
matters it that we embark.

when someone sees you as you really are
and still wants to be with you
now that's powerful.

the minute you think you're going to lose something,
it suddenly becomes the most important thing in your life.

every single person has at least one secret
that would break your heart.
if we could just remember this,
i  think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world.

these conversations are robotic
where did you run off to?
i guess this means best friends for never
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i believe that when you find love,
you hold onto it and cherish it because there is
nothing finer and it may never come again.

he saved me in every way a person can be saved...
i don't even have a picture of him;
he exists now only in my memory
>> titanic

it was like perfection, you know?
i never knew life could be like that.
he was the only thing i followed through in my life,
the only thing i didn't give up on.
i was good at loving him.

from day one i dreamed about getting out,
but not forgetting about
how all my worst fears are letting out
he said why put a new adress
on the same old loneliness?
when breathing just passes the time
'til we all just get old and die
and now breathing's just a waste of breath
and living's just a waste of death
and why put a new adress
on the same old loneliness?
and this is me and you,
and you and me,
until we've got nothing left
>> fallout boy

i miss the way you sing low
so i can't hear your voice over
the radio in my car
but you knew every word they sang
you know just the right thing to say
when the distance rips us farther
and farther and farther away
i'll see you soon

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