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Thursday, February 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Feb 2007 20:20:27 GMT

Mmmm...

Well where are ya? ; )

Love you.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 03:01:43 GMT

I lay down
And I close my eyes
But I won't go to sleep tonight
There's too much on my mind
Holy God
You seem to be twice as far away from me
Than you have ever been before

Hold me safely in Your arms
And clear my crowded mind
And whisper words of peace
In the dark
Whisper to me
Oh, whisper

I'm afraid but they don't know it
I feel so weak
But I can't show it
So here I lay
Crying out with hears

Hold me gently in Your arms
And calm my beating heart
And whisper words of hope
In the dark
Whisper to me
Oh, whisper

Whisper
Make the day sleep
Make the noise cease
And give me peace
Whisper to me
How I need to hear You whisper
Whisper to me
Oh, Whisper

Whisper to Me, Warren Barfield

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 00:10:10 GMT

If you don't have anything to say...

don't say anything at all.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 04:19:11 GMT

So I was runnin yesterday and had a random flash-forward of me and my "soul-mate" (as Kip would say) and we were thumbing through a shoe box of pictures--just reminiscing and laughing and such. And...I realized there were hardly any pictures of us in the bunch. Rather, the box was filled with pictures of places we'd been, things we loved, or other people.

The short day dream ended but it got me thinking--that's how I want my courtship to be (like the pictures). You know, filled with memories and stories that can be revisited later. An alternate scene would be us flipping through a box filled with just couples shots and each others faces...in silence--what can you share about that?

I think it's about the focus, really. Focus on each other only, or focus on Jesus and others (together). I dunno, just some thoughts. (Midnight thoughts, mind you, so forgive me if they don't make sense.) : )

...What would our day to day lives look like if we surrendered ourselves fully and allowed Jesus to live through us exactly and as completely as He chose? I wanna live a life of love.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 22:42:45 GMT

So I'm home now. Woot. It's been soooo good. I've gone skiing already (which was amazing), visited with old friends, spent time with family, gone boating...yep--definitely a needed break from all that schoolwork (though I do miss my grover friends).

I think one of the main things I've loved about being home is the silence. Well, I don't mean that my family is quiet (far from it) but rather I'm able to go find silence when I need it. It sure is easier to hear without so many distractions (like at school). God is so good. He's especially good at restoration--in a lot of different areas--and new beginnings. I love those. : )

Mmmm...heck yes for Passion. We're heading down on the 1st to Atlanta and will be there till Thursday. I bet I'll have a lot to write about once I get back. Wow--I'm so excited! (Slash psyched slash exuberant slash expectantly expectant). Merry New Year every one!

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 01:41:24 GMT

...Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Change isn't always bad. Actually, it's necessary at times. Often it's not familiar or comfortable, but if God calls you out into a new place, it's for a reason. And anyways, His plans are better. : )

Oh wow only 5 more days till I'll be home! yippee yi yay.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 03:23:18 GMT

Sometimes...

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

Often...

(And oftener still) if we step out in obedience He will bless us with the grace we need to continue in His will.

Always...

He is the same. Always and forever. And He is love. Always. Oh joy. Peace. I'm learning.

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 03:10:33 GMT

I'm in a fix, need somethin quick

My mind is numb, my stomach sick

Broken hearts, hopeless things

I've seen what defiance brings

Cause the light of day, I've always known

Is in my heart, I'm not alone.

Speak to me and tell me all

The things I need to know

I want to hear You now.

Can You speak to me

I've opened up Your words so freely

I want to hear You now.

It's amazing how I forget

Can't live my life for the lack of it

But the light of day

I've always known is in my heart

I'm not alone,

Speak to me...

--AA, Speak to Me

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 02:27:36 GMT

"I slept not all night, because Thy love, O my God, flowed in me like delicious oil, and burned as a fire...I love God far more than the most affectionate lover among men loves his eartly attachment."--M. Guyon

A pull, a tug, a strain.

There is something more.

No kiss, no embrace, no earthly love

Can fully quench my desire.

But here, now, today

We can taste.

There is a story unfolding...of love.

Desire. Yearn. Strive.

Be vulnerable, accept His invitation, come.

He wants you. He cares.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 09:23:00 GMT

Wow. It's 5:15am, and I haven't yet gone to sleep. I've had sooooo much going on in my life these past couple of weeks--especially this week. School work, other things....Tonight (and now this morning) I've been working on a big term paper for my BusComm class as well as other homework.

The thing is, I'm learning to plow--to keep going when the going gets tough; to not allow myself to break down, but to rely on His strength to uphold me. I'm learning so much, and I'm falling more in love with Him every day. I want to tell everyone about Him; or rather show everyone about Him. He's changed my life. I can never go back. I never want to go back. I am a new creation. I'm learning to live like one.

I desire...wisdom.

p.s. Love. what is it? A feeling? A red-hot passion? Washing someone's feet? I've discovered some things lately 'bout love that I think I might start writing about. I'd like to hear your thoughts. Hmm...we'll see.