watz good my niggaz.. feelin very tired right now and to think i STYLL HAVE TO DO HOMEWORK!! It'z crazy how its 12 and  i still cant go to sleep- juss cuz now i have to do sum hw... well i had a pretty hectic day today. I went to day skool then came home dropped off sum stuff headed bacc out the house tothe train station and to the Blood Lab to draw sum blood for medical reasons... by then i was pretty hungry- considering the fact that i hadnt ate nuttin but a bag of Lays at school! So wen i sawthat small but noticeable Subway sign, i headed straight across the street.. lolz.. i was hung-ry. So afte, i heade straight back to the trainstation so i could get to nightschool. ---oh yea, i went to night school tonight.. Well, it was my second day to economics: that class isnt that badd, considering the fact that i have such a e-z teacher... i mean, its crazy how i styll get what the fuck he teaches in that class but yeah.. Then second period came.. i got added on 2/16 for gym... and i was mad that i already had to stay for first period so wen i go to school and this lady shows me a program wit two classes i was like whoa... i guess tues will be my first day- and so it was lolz. Turns out, gym actually lifted my spirit up a little. i loved it-- i havent worked out like that in such a long time... and then they put out sum basketballs so that we could shoot around n i was the first one to grab a ball.. lolz. when i came outta there i felt good-- i think i even looked better.. well not realli cuz i was madd red and exhausted from running in a hot ass gym for an hr n a half. I like this workout thing going on.. im realli hopin i get my abs bacc lolz :'(.. so yeah i gotta get to my hw right now cuz i do want to get sum sleep tonight.

mwahz, shortE ~oNe!~

wo0ow.. talkin bout long time no write.. lolz. Damn, its been a whilllee!

So wassup! Its been like 3 months since i've updated this nd so much has happened. I went on vacation in dec to D.R. That shyt was crazii! I reallii enjoyed myself for the three weeks i was out there. I mean, i missed NY alot and all the pplz i left behind (specially casper n skitz) but it ant nuttin.. once  i came back i caught up wit everythin nd everyone. I've reallii been focused on skool. I mean, its juss a lil bit before june gets hea nd (HOPEFULLY) i graduate. I'm realli lookin forward to graduation cuz that'll b juss like a reward for all the hard work i been doing for the past 2 years. I juss started nite school on thursday-- it's ok i guess. Hopefully it stays that way.

Shit's been okay between me nd casper i guess. It could b betta but i aint complainin. Nexx month we make a YEAR!! Thats sum crazziii shyt. I neva expected us to last this long but i sure am glad that we've made it this far. Hopefully, we make it even further... cuz thats my babiie right dea- my everythin..

Well, i hope i dont get lost again lolz.. imma try my hardest to update this more often but i aint makin promises-- cuz i do have a lyfe u no.. lolz

wow its been a while. i didnt even no i styll had this page lolz. SO wassup world? everything good?? thats wassup... ME? im iiiiiight. Mad fuckin bored in the crib doing shyt on this friday night. I want to go out sooo bad but the person i want to go out with is always too buzy for me or always catching attitudes with me. (Yeah my man). That nigga is foreva playin games wit me and im tired of it. Now, wheneva he wanna c me he gunna have to wait till I feel like chillin with him.. he think everythin gotta go his way nd im tired of that shyt. I havent gone out sumwhere with him in a good 3 or 4 months... wow right. Yup, i mean its not like i want him to take me out everyday or that i want him to get me all kinds of shyt, but at least try to do once in a while... to make me feel like im at least worth it styll wtf. Itz like everytime he tells me we gunna chill he turns it all around and begins to catch major attitude issues with me.. and me, i dont take shyt from my own mama so there aint no way imma stay shut to what anybody else gotta say. u can be my man, my brother, my cousin, my close friend.. but u styll gunna hear it from me. Im juss tired of ppl takin me for granted... n i think thats about to change......

wow... today is definitly a better day than yesterday. Yesterday was juss crazy from me from the time i woke up till the time i closed my eyes. when i say everything, i mean every single thing was going wrong yesterday. I was feenin to juss come home and smoke cuz shyt had me depressed.. and i was just out of it. everyone at school was like whats wrong.. what happened.. why u look like that... why u aint talking... actin like they care but in reality... no one did. I felt like crying the whole day and i couldnt help myself at points. i would catch myself tearing at sum points and it would get me mad on the low... cuz i hate wen ppl in my business.. just let me b.. let me cry if i feel like it then if i feel like tellin u suttin, thats when u act like u care..

life's crazy and life's short and its all about who survives and who doesnt make it. im realizing that im too yung to be stressin over shyt that i dont need to b stressin. Imma juss do me.. im startin to not  give a fuck about nobody cuz nobody gives a fuck about me... and thats word. im 17 years old and i dont need this right now.. maybe wen im a lil older.. but definitly not now. Imma do me in school for right now and after that... better hope im around cuz i juss feel like runnin away from everything and i think that as soon as i get that chance..(wen i graduate) imma b ghost... aint noone seeing me for a while.. fuk that.

i got my midcycle like 3 days ago and good news... i passed all my classes.. not that i didnt expect it but im very proud of myself. Unlike some people, that arent even satisfied with the hard work and time im puttin into this high school shyt.. but w/e i aint gunna let that bring me down ne more.. like i sed b4 im doin this for me.. and if i do it for sumbody else its to rub it in their face that i got my earned diploma with out the support that i wanted and needed from them.. that i hung on in there when everyone around me was still droppin out and doin non sense... that even tho i coulldve juss gave up nd taken the e-z way out, i didnt.. cuz believe me thats realll e-z, juss giving up and not tryin ne more. I juss wanna sho everyone that i can do w/e i put my mind on doing.. juss cuz im nice like that..juss cuz its shorte im talkin about.

 ne wayz, im about to be out.. gunna go take a shower and stuff... i been cleaning and making up h.w. this whole morning.. i need some fresh air... Lata ya'll

LyFe'z a B!TcH.. it realli is....