Currently Reading Nights in Rodanthe By Nicholas Sparks see related

there is always a moment in my life where i think about the person or persons that mean something in my life. i mean, yea, you have your family or your friends or both ...but there is always that one person that STANDS OUT amongst the family and friends. right now, the person that stands out in my life is my cousin, Lynn Ramirez. she's been my best friend since we knew how to talk to each other. regardless of how far we live from each other, which is about 8 hours away, we seem to get along GREAT! and i don't mean we get along just because we ARE cousins and that when we get together at family parties there is that cousin ONLY bond. its not even like that... its that type of bond you have with a friend, like a schoolmate. that friend that you can only tell certain things to; the one that keeps all your secrets with the trust in them that they won't tell anyone and i mean, ANYONE! no matter how far we are, we'll be there for each other in a split second, even if it's just an email or phone call away. just knowing that she's there for me, to read my email or to listen to what i have to say, it reassures me that i have someone in my life who i know won't stab me in the back or let me down.

i emailed her recently, telling her what's been going on and how i've been feeling, which has been pretty bad and lonely, she emails me back telling me that she looks up to me because of how strong she thinks i am and that she doesn't know anyone that can handle things the way i do. just reading what she wrote reassured me that i had her to make me feel better, especially about myself and that she was there for me. i thank God for having her in my life. i really don't know what i would do without her and i love her to death!!

Lynn, you are an amazing person! Thanks for everything you've done for me, especially your words of wisdom. I'm lucky to have a person like you in my life, and although you're still on that road to finding who you are, you are very wise beyond your years my dear, and I admire you for that! I love you best!

Okay...I really didn't feel this way this morning, but I'm sure everyone feels this way on some Mondays, maybe even most. Keep your head up though and keep smiling . Haha.

I haven't xanga'd for awhile now. Maybe I'd update while I actually have time to. No school for everyone today, including me, finally! Hah! Feels weird not to rush to school at 5pm. But besides school, I had to work today. I'm not used to working in the morning, especially while it's busy. I felt intimidated by those who've worked there as servers for awhile, while I am still trying to get the hang of holding plates, even when they're extremely HOT. :-\
Anywho... made some good tips for working only 4 hours; well, at least I think so. Heh.

My life is finally on track and I always say that, but things are okay for me. Staying out of trouble ... for once, but still... I'm waiting for karma to hit and things will suddenly go downhill again, so I'm watching what I say and do.

School's going great, as usual ... getting those good grades that I rarely get. Hah. Work is better ... finally became a server. I don't deserve the position as one, but I'm on trial here. Co-workers are talking and it's hanging over my head. I haven't been that great of an employee, even when I started... but little things DO come a long way. My boss gave me a second chance to prove that I can do my best and he knows I can, I just have to be reliable. I know I messed up ... regret that because I could've become a server a long time ago. But due to lack of showing up, I was withheld from becoming one. I gave him a reason to, and I don't blame him. Eeks! But on a good note, I'm doing well at work ... get the weekend shifts, so it's not bad. I get to concentrate on school when I'm supposed to and work when I'm supposed to instead of putting two-&-two together and getting stressed over it.

Well any ways... enough yappin'... I'm gonna go and make some good use of my time while I'm off school.

Ta-ta. *winks*

Life is good. :) That's all I have to say about that! ;)