hi.
so yeah i've been busy but i think im back for a while once again. well right now im just at home and tomarrow is the last day of school. say goodbye to junior year and hello to being a senior! wow, timae flys but when you look back so much has happend. like moving, new crushes, fights, smiles, tears, all that jazz. but yeah i have so much to say but i think for now im just going to write some quotes. so enjoy! :)

001.
so when it gets to the end what are you going to do
fight for what you want or forget about all you needed to get out

002.
sometimes i wonder if im better off with out you
or if i really need you by my side and holding my hand through this ride

003.
i dont like lieing and im not going to do it
not for you and not for anyone else
i love you and i really dont think you can see it
i've never lied to you and i dont plan to
so i guess you can take it or leave it because until then im a little fed up

004.
if i left just got up and left and never came back
would you notice or sit there and talk to her and think i took a cab home
because from what i see your more curious what her plans are for tomarrow
then making sure i get home safe

005.
this suumer i want excitment and surprises
not crys and frowns

the end.
lovecharlie.

hi.
so life is. life. there is pluses and minuses. but yeah things are good and i have friends how love me. family is also well there. i think really thats all i have to say, and not to mention i have to pack for nicole.s. house. =) oh yeah and im so  on spring break. :] woot woot. so here are some quotes. enjoy.

001.
so right now im in the cross between broke and new and it kinda fits you know like i want everyone to know how i feel and sometimes i think its easier if the people you love or are in love with or your madly in love with or like or crush on or that you hate or dislike should all know

edit later.

hi.
so yeahh its monday and i didnt have school today. so woot woot. well my weekend was pretty fun. i went to nicoles house on friday and there me and her and martin hungout and ate pizza and talked alot and about everything like always. saturday me and nicole hungout, i went with her to her band thing, we hungout some more, then we went over to cece's house and i helped them study for their chemistry, then we watched the movie "closer". i liked it, we also talked and it was pretty fun. i had a good time. and me and nicole ended up staying the night at cece's house. then sunday me and nicole and cece hungout for a little bit. then me and nicole went back to nicoles house, hungout a little, then her and her mom took me home. i ended up getting sick in their car. i felt so bad. but then when i got home i ended up hangingout and resting, i also watched all four of the "bring it on" movies. ha. so that was good. and then at night i so couldnt sleep so i hungout on the computer and what not, then at like 4:00 something i fell asleep finally. so yeahh that leads me to today and now, and today i hungout around the house, and watch the movie "just friends" and now im watching the show "one tree hill" and wow do i love that show and it inspires me so much you have no idea. wow does it ever. so yeahh thats about it i guess. so here is some random quotes. enjoy.

001.
i try and i try to get over him i even tryed to play the im over him card with my friends but the truth is when i think i am im not when i see him with another girl i wish it was me when i heard him say no shes perfact i wish that was my photo he pointed to when those words came out of his mouth really i dont know how he feels about me because we never really talked about it and i dont know if he sees me face light up when he says a word or two to me because really thats all he needs to do but i do know that i felt this way for way to long and someday i hope im brave enough to let him know and im sure it will be to late but at least he'll know right i dont know but i know its something when my friends open their mouths and the words you two are perfact for eachother comes out then its kinda a big deal

002. 
no matter how many times you say goodbye it never gets easier and to me when i say goodbye to someone im kinda saying goodbye to a little piece of me because the truth is most people really do have me at hello its kinda crazy but sometimes its the truth

003.
i dont want a guy to carry my books i dont want a guy to be perfact i dont want a guy thats always serious i do want a guy that knows how to make me laugh that knows how to get along with my friends and that knows how to be there when i need him because there is more important things then perfection and i rather have all those then someone who wants to be the best

004.
i know i was there and that i left and dont get me wrong it was hard to leave and i would love it if you would let me know that you dont hate me for my decision but i couldnt stay there and not have the one thing i wanted maybe you would understand more if i really explained but i did try and there was times that i really wanted to tell you but the thing is i couldnt and you would have made it so much easier if you would of told me how you felt about things

005.
to say your in love with someone is something that is strong you really have to feel it and im not afraid to say it its just that i dont want you to say it and really not mean it because i have a weak heart thats been bended and sometimes i dont know how long it really can last

006.
sometimes i feel like running and running till there is no where else to run but when i think about it really i dont know where i would end up and how i would get back and that scares me so right now i guess im going to stay where i am and keep my feet still because sometimes my fear takes over and thoughts kick in

007.
as i lied next to you i thought and i let my mind wounder and it didnt take long for me to realize i like you and i like you alot and i guess i kinda didnt know how to explain it so all i did was smile but really i dont think you caught on because me and you never went far

008.
now i look at you and the feeling is still there but your happiness is gone you dont smile as much and your eyes lost their shine it kinda worrys me and i dont know how to put this but she changed you and i dont know how to explain this but i miss you and i miss that shine and i miss what use to make your eyes shine i just miss it all and i was woundering if it could ever go back to normal

009.
you know what sometimes it hurts to be around you and when i see you across the drive or walking past me it brings up so many memories and not just of the two of us but my life before and after you even when me you and all of our friends sometimes its like im frozen in time just to be there kinda makes my heart weak and sometimes i cant bare it just because i love it so much and me i really adored every minute of it as long as i can remember i hope to remember you because everything always comes back to mind when i see you all the smiles the laughs the tears the rushing the akward conversations all of it and no matter what was happing between us the pure thought of you gave and to this day gives me comfort but truthfully i cant move back there i think i would hurt to much but me and you i would gladley go back to the norm 

the end.
-lovecharlie.

hi.
well currently im really good. and dont get me wrong i love it. but i know i still want more and i know im a little confused with things. like if he has her and her and her why would he come back and say what he did to me. and why cant i just like one guy. like i know i like this one guy and i have for a while now and i dont know whats really going on there but then i like him and this other guy and oh yeah that other one too, i so wish thats not what happens but it does. then there is always the issue about how guys are crazy flirts and sometimes i dont think they notice it. goshh so confused and so curious. there is so much on my mind. also why the fuck is there even gangs. ha. i know that was random compared to what i was just saying but hello i really dont think there is a point for gangs. thats my view on it though. anyways. i guess thats all my rambling for now. so here are some quotes. enjoy.

001.
you know what i realized there is a boundry line that people love to cross and the more they cross it the more they enjoy the run but someday they will get caught and sometime there will be a problem with what went on there at that point in time but if people ignore it will it ever stop

002.
i listen to that one song and the only person that comes in my head is you i walk that hall and the only thing i think of is that time me and you were in that one spot i sit with friends at lunch to only see you across the room looking back and i go back to the time when me and you sat together and shared everything with eachother i go to football games and remember the time you lost it because of me but thats the past and to see you now and not say nothing is what usually happens so if you and i ever go back to how things use to be im kinda hoping things dont change from what they were and ajust from what mistakes were made

003.
someday i hope to take those trips and sing out loud someday i hope to have friends by my side and kids on our hands laughing along someday i hope i have him and keep him for life because if i lose though trips and those friends and that family that i always wanted i dont know what i would have my life would be empty and to me not worth much

004.
i been watching that show and the more i watch it seems like the more i think and the more i think the more i over think everything and the more things that get over thought it seems like the more gets different or changes to what should of never changed but if what they say is true then things happen for a reason and if thats true then i wounder how come i lost some things that kept me strong

005.
people change every day for better and or for worse either way you notice someone notices it all and to those who notice they probally know you or the person best but if you began to leave them the more you lose the best you may have had wether you know it or not you could be hurting yourself in the long run more and more each step

006.
when we first met i knew i liked you i thought you were cute and you teased i liked it you made me laugh and smile more then anyone did at that moment in time there was and still is something about you and to this day i dont know what it is but i thought you should know your always in my head and when i think of someone and smile most the time its you because for some weird reason you amaze me the one thing i want to know is how come you cant just let it all out

007.
i hope without me your happier i hope without me you laugh more and i hope without me you have the time of your laugh and maybe you can find someone else who talked to your parents like i did and someone else to have movie nights with and i just hope your happier because me im not to happy without seeing your smile day to day and im not to happy without hearing that laugh of yours and im not happy with hearing from your parents how your doing

the end.
-lovecharlie.

hi.
well i know i didnt finish my last update and all but i have been busy and i guess im just not feeling like finishing it and what not. lol. anyways. i have been good. life is actually treating me really good. and actually there is a few guys here and there i have been thinking about. and to tell you the truth they make me smile. and i like that in a guy. haha. but yeahh. anywhom. currently i should be sleeping. but im not and its saturday so oh well. and to top it off im bored and yeahh. lol. but yeah i really felt like writing so i guess thats what im going to do. so here is some quotes.

001.
maybe we werent ment to be together and maybe we were but really who are we to say i mean look at us two teens who tend to be clumsy and make mistakes and to top it off we're stage fright so what can you do it just seems like there is more disadvantages then advantages but dont get me wrong i did fall for him and sometimes i do wounder why is ex girlfriends didnt hold on to him untill i look at me and say why didnt i hang on to him

002.
i talk to you all the time only to see your photos and never your face in person which isnt really whats currently possible but things happen and you've done things that in the future you may regret but for now i think things are going good and you become more real every time

003.
i go to concerts and scream out loud i take sips of alcohal and worry about taking another i see smokers and wounder what if i were to do that i take walks and wish i wasnt alone only to wounder if i wasnt would i still be walking alone i dont pass every class and come to find out when i did the effect isnt different i make people laugh only to wounder what are they really thinking i watch movies only to pick a character and wish i was in their shoes and i dont know what it is maybe im just a wounderer or maybe im still looking for myself well whatever it is i know its out there and im here woundering waiting and still looking

004.
yeah i stay up way to late and write probally more then i should i mean i know there isnt any boundaries against writing but come on when every quote sounds the same to everyone but you then you know there something that need sto get done i dont know i can feel it in me im different and i think i want the real me to show and the whole world to know

the end.
-lovecharlie.