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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

  • Summer plans

    I leave in two weeks to begin my whirlwind summer...first to KC/OK for two weeks and then out to Arizona for the summer...I probably won't be home until mid-august.

    I'm extremely excited about it. I can't wait. I think it will be a good learning experience for me as well as a very good amount of "de-stressing" time for me. I love being gone and traveling during the summer because it gives me a chance to get away from everything here and refocus myself.

    I've officially started my packing...made up the lists of things I'll need and things I still need to get and all that good stuff. I've also started getting the things I won't need (or can get away with not using) between now and then together and in stacks ready to go in my room.

    I am starting to realize just how much I've been neglecting my friends here...mostly because we've all been busy and we always say "when summer gets here we'll hang out more" and now I"m going to be gone all summer so that won't be happening...but its OK. Most of us are making plans to hang out before I leave

    I've been thinking about setting up a new Gmail account just for the summer...the one I have now and my yahoo account both get a lot of junk mail, facebook notifications, and group messages and I know that I won't have near as much time as I have now to be online so I'm thinkin' it would be better to have a fresh account that I can use to keep in touch this summer. Any thoughts about that??

    Also...I will have my phone with me but I don't think it will work unless I'm in town. Which should be at least once a week. I've been meaning to stop by a Verizon store and look on one of their maps of their coverage but I haven't had a chance yet...hopefully before I leave.

    Anyway...that's it for now I think...I'll update again before I leave...a couple of times hopefully...and I promise not to drop off the face of the earth.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

  • Rain

    JKR

    5/8/2008

    She sits and listens to the sound

    Of the rain coming down

    As she fingers the chain around her neck

    Knowing that everything around her is a wreck

     


    She thinks back to the time when life was good.

    And everything was going the way it should.

    But everything has changed now and she is filled with guilt

    And the rain feels like the first of thousands of tears that have been spilt

     


    So many people that said they cared...

    So many thoughts that should have never been shared.

    So many lies believed and wounds created.

    So many times she felt completely hated.

     


    Living in a world void of hope and color and sound

    Until that moment when the rain started coming down

    Looking around with tired eyes

    She wonders how she started believing the lies

     


    She knows shes messed up but so have they, this isn't a game.

    She is done taking all of the blame.

    And the guilt for things she can't change...

    Is finally being washed away by the rain

     


    And with the healing that has begun

    She can start over and reach for the sun

    Tears no longer caused by pain but by relief

    Because she knows the time left for the hurt will be brief

     


    Now she is standing in the rain that is pouring down

    Letting it fill her world with colors and sound

    And its a good change

    That comes from the healing of the rain.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

  • So Alone

    5/4/2008
    JKR

    My empty walls echo back the sounds
    Like my mind echos back the empty words
    I hide in my empty room from people that shove me down
    But I don't want to be here anymore...

    Rejection is all I feel
    Loneliness is constant
    Pain is the only thing that is real
    Alone...is what I am

    Where am I really needed?
    Where will I actually fit in?
    In this place I'll never succeed...
    And I'm starting to drown again...

    Rejection is all I feel
    Loneliness is constant
    Pain is the only thing that is real
    Alone...is what I am..

    Don't wanna be alone anymore...

    So alone...

    Don't wanna be alone anymore...

    Rejection is all I feel
    Loneliness is constant
    Pain is the only thing that is real
    Alone...is what I am

Monday, April 28, 2008

  • So I actually have two blogs (well three really) this one and two on blogspot. I update the blogspot one more often and sometimes what I post will be transferred to here as well...other times it will be late or I'll just be feeling lazy and will just post the link here...y'all can head over and check it out and then leave comments there or here about it. so with out any farther explanation...

     

    http://lingeringinthedoorway.blogspot.com/

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