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Saturday, July 19, 2008

I'm happy, but I feel sad. Like crying.

Tonight was definetly an eye opener, but in a good way. It's making me become a better person, and I need to do that.

 

In the last couple of days, I enrolled at in college, worked, and went to a musical. It was fun. OU is amazing. I'm so excited about everything falling into place. It feels like I can finally be okay with moving on. I'm ready to. I need to. I just need to leave so much baggage behind, and upgrade, haha. Of course, I'll take a view overly-sentimentally memories and people with me, but that comes with life. You can't rid yourself completely of everything; it's not human.

I hope my feeling are set in stone. I need to stop doing what I've trained myself to do, and it's for being right. It's not that I'm fake, I just see stuff weird. Everyone's point of view matters to me in some warped way. But I don't have to please everyone, it's impossible. I need to deal with things and gain closure from so much. I feel as though I'm almost ready to do that. But ready or not, it's happening. Bridges are being burned. And I don't feel bad about it. It's a process that needs to be completed.

I'm really just rambling on now. But it's okay. After we left OU and went to my favorite restaurant, Golden Corral, this church group of Puerto Ricans came in. They had nifty yellow shirts on talking about Boricua and Some city in PR that started with a C. My mom talked one of them into giving her a shirt, so my dad gave them the OK wrestling shirt he had. It was a fun day. Started off iffy...cause I'm uber cranky when I wake up now. It's ridic. But it's whatever.

I've been hanging out with Kenzie lately. We're getting close again and I appreciate it. We've always been friends (Dated back in 6th grade, haha. Oh! And 8th grade. Yeah.) and I like being there for her right now. She's going through man issues and she needs me. It feels good to be there for someone. I know it will pay off. :D

Will Roger Follies were sheisty. But it was fun being around Sheridan. That's about it for now.

I hope I remember to blog later. It didn't exactly happen in the last one so I had to bulk this one up.

Later days


Thursday, July 17, 2008

July 17, 2004

I made this xanga.

Beginning of high school, "beginning" of the rest of my life, haha.

Bull.

 

I'll post more later.

I'm kind of tired.


Wednesday, July 16, 2008

My xanga turns 4 tomorrow. This is the oldest blog I have that I can remember the password too. When I first created this I would write and write and write; now it appears that I've really run out of words. All my friends used to write and whatnot too. But not only has xanga faded...so have in depth writings in general. Or just daily blogs. I used to love to keep track of what I did...and now it's like, I'm just too busy hanging out with people. But I can't ever remember half of the stuff I do. Not that I drink or anything. Because I don't except maybe every 6 months or so. I just am too active to remember every detail over long periods of time. So I'll try to start again:

Tonight was great. I went to ihop with Holli, Hayli, and Zack. It was probably the loudest and funniest time I've had in public. Without being totally humiliated, haha. Holli and Hayli kept making Zack laugh and Zack would act a fool and he would flirt with the waitress who was Crystal Nethery, it was a riot. I love having a good time and not getting depressed afterwards.

Granted, I had to have a talk with another friend. But I really wasn't in that bad of a mood. I just didn't feel like his jokes tonight. But I went too far, and we talked alot about stuff, then other stuff got on my mind and whatnot. It's not that I'm in a bad mood now, I'm just reminiscing. I miss the past, as usual. I'm as always, morbidly nostalgic. But I'm not overly sad, so it's okay. I suppose it's because I have stuff to look forward to. I'm going to enroll tomorrow; it should be a blast. I'm a little nervous because it's something I haven't dealt with before and I want everything to go fine. But it never does, haha. Not with my parents being involved. I just hope my mom doesn't drink tomorrow. That will make things better. And if we go to Golden Corral. I really love this place.

I got a new phone today. My samsung recently cracked on the outside screen and I couldn't see who was calling/texting/ whatever. And I found out that it happens to many saumsung phones. So now I have the LG Shine. It's delicious. It's a slide phone and the screen is a mirror tint so I can look at surroundings when it's on idle. And it just looks really nice all around. New things make me happy, haha. I'm such a materialistic person but I'm not. I'm just weird, to summarize.

I might be going to see a musical with Sheridan on Friday. As long as I'm off and he is able to go. I'm excited. I haven't really since him since school was out. I mean, there was that one time at Mr. Perrings and the extenuating circumstances didn't bring us in the best of moods...deaths usually don't, and we didn't talk that much. Granted, we didn't have much to talk about, but it happens.

Cody Norris and I aren't friends. I wish we still were but my dramatic ass won't admit that. And won't let it happen. I have strong convictions and if he can't deal with that, it's better that we're not friends. I sitll have the rest of his family, so it's chill. He has Cade. Yeah....

I cussed out Paige Ward the other day. She disrespected so I showed her the meaning of disrespect. Snaggle tooth bitch! We will never speak again.

I'm about to get my hair cut soon. Hopefully within the next week. I like short hair now. My hippie phase is over, which upsets people. But hey, it's me. Deal.

I have to get up in 5 hours so I'm going to go sleep. Goodnight.


Tuesday, July 15, 2008

 

I so love this song.


Monday, July 14, 2008

Lord have mercy!!!

 

 

Mmmm hmmmm

 

 

Excitement:

New phone.
College.
Leaving work.

Dissapointment:

Not getting a good car for college. Or a car at all.
Paying a shit load for stuff and not having money.
Being constantly stressed.
Mom's still an alcoholic.
Sister's having problems.
Dad has diabetes.

 

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