| Its been a while....Been a long time since i've blogged but its only because i felt that the next time i say something on xanga, i want it to be something positive. Its been about 2.5 months since my last entry. In that time, i've: - Turned 25 and didn't feel that hyped up about celebrating a birthday. But i still had fun!
- Turned in my car for a coupe. Still miss my baby...the new one just isn't the same
- Was asked to be a tour guide for Toronto and was successful!
- Went on two lovely trips in the East coast and loves lobster
- Wrote and passed my CMA case exam w/ flying colors
- Feel in love with manicures
- Cut my hair short, is still getting use to its shortness & misses her long hair
- Fallen in love with skirts and dresses all over again!
- Realized that some people are just not worth the energy and that with every crappy situation, something good happens
- Found someone special who makes me feel just as special
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| "If your heart is nowhere in it, i don't want it for a minute. I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to." Its funny how things change when I was wanting you so desperately. Big believer that there is a reason why people always want the things they can't have...its for the thrill of the challenge and this is no longer a challenger. Some other fool can have you now. |
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| just sitting here and realizing how much it burns...how is it possible the one thing that i thought would solve my issue would actually turn around and bite me in the ass?? maybe its time to just force a smile and just pretend its ok. |
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| officially two weeks til my exam and i'm not sure if i'm ready or not but i think it'll be ok. today he's sorry...and realized what he lost. its ok. i realized what i'm loosing too and i'm trying hard to get my heart to be in sync w/ my brain. from this point on, if i ever see him again, it'll be 100% based on fate and possibly because of work. i'm no longer even motivated to work on my project that will bring me closer to him...whats the point? "it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time. i want what's yours and i want what's mine. i want you but i'm not giving in this time. good bye to you...the one thing i tried to hold onto" |
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| Here we go again. People judging me on half information or only what they see at face value. Hate when ppl do that. I am comfortable with how i am and what i choose to do or what i choose not to do is up to me. It shouldn't be a reflection of me if I don't do things the way others expect me to be. What's the point of being so 'see-mun' if that's not who you are. Everyone is allowed to have their own beliefs and values and just cuz mine don't match with yours, doesn't make me less of a person. What is so wrong with how i do things....freakin always having to use xanga as a forem to vent about the crappy things in my life... |
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