| | Brain Echoes for 2AMIt's 2AM again and I'm not asleep because I'm studying for class tomorrow.
Today I went to a lecture it was boring it was on Flannery O'Connor which sounds interesting but it wasn't but the man said something in passing that made me think he said
maybe the mind has little to do with persuasion
So I thought what does that even mean I'm not sure it means anything
Today I saw a book called Live With Lightning
I don't know what it was about but it had a cool title so I wrote the title down so I could remember it because I will one day probably use a version of that for something great
I am good at song writing but I don't know if that's what I want to spend my time doing in music I want to change music I want to change what a song means and what a song is but to do that I need to stop writing songs so that I can return and write a song back to what I need it to be I know this now because we had a discussion in class today about how just because we're good at something doesn't mean that we shouldn't pursue it because it comes too easily many things come too easily for me I don't know what to pursue I want to do everything I want to be everything and nothing I want to be me but I find myself thinking myself into you and others and finding out I exist after all as a separate being with a separate mind and a face
I have a face and don't think I ever really knew that until a few days ago when I looked in the mirror and saw that I had a face and I realized that I only thought I knew what I looked like but I was wrong or maybe I had just forgotten but I have one now but I'm still not sure what that means other than the fact that I am not invisible and exist outwardly
Before I existed as something shapeless, a pulsating blob of burning consciousness completely internal and I thought I was invisible and could never understand how anybody could see me or find me but I have a face now maybe I did all along but now I know it but I still don't know what that means.
There are too many echoes and throbbing ideas that I can't seem to find in my head right now
In my head there are too many echoes and throbbing ideas that I can't find or catch
I need silence and an end to motion
To put myself in the motion I need
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| | Posted 4/23/2008 2:24 AM - 2 comments
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