It's been awhile.

life has been bizarre.

random stressful crazy ultimatly just life

I can't sleep tonight

my throat hurts and I think I'm getting sick again...((its been snowing on and off here)) gotta love Colorado and it's RANDOM weather. :)

Also....so much happening-all my roomates are gone for spring break...that leaves me alone with Toss...(my friends dog that makes me feel safer...), Im working two jobs to save $$ for a car and next fall in school- my jeep finally retired on me and thankfully I am working enough to be able to afford a good small reliable cute car soon. Meanwhile..I'm quickly discovering the bus is a good thing . Also,  I just found out one of my best friend's is pregnant today...still taking that in---and pondering the reality of that. Shawn Hopwood gets married in a little over 2 weeks....wishing I could go....Tyler Tritipo gets married in June...Breanna Regimbal sooner (in may)....and than finally...Daniel Holt in September for all of you that don't know...

yikes...so many things. How does one keep up honestly? :(

And well...I turn 22 April 2nd...

that means ANOTHER year of adventure coming up :)

Also, I have recently made an exciting altering life decision....I'm moving to California early August to live life with miss Maria Cervantez. It's been something we've always talked about....it's just always been such bad timing and my #1 goal thus far has been to be close to my family. But...finally..the time has come....to live with one of my favorite people in the entire world!!! It's been entirely exhilirating just because my plans all along have been to stay here in fort collins and start school in the fall--and wow...its amazing to see how quickly plans can  change.? It's such an un-normal thing to be a christian...you find yourself doing things you never imagined...yet somehow-all of it is so good whether you see it at one time or not---in the end...its just good. God is so faithful...even when I feel like i'm failing so much.

Prayerfully....everything works out good.

Meanwhile...I need to sleep because my throat ain't getting any better...and I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow .......I'm glad I got to pour some thoughts out tonight.

life is full of suprises....

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps."
Prov 16:9

Hello World......

I think the purpose of this post is mainly to loosen some thoughts and help me walk with a little less wieght on my shoulders when it comes to the following:

1. I need $$$

dont we all! :)

2. I need friends

isnt that true

3. I need a renewed Heart

Jesus help me!

So if you read this.....you probably though..."hey I wonder what Vanessa is up to these days?"

Well here it is.....

the top things on MY MIND..that YOU can pray for me about.

and really...in a more optimistic palmy way ....of course im fabulous...just trying to live life...and enjoy every minute of it.

" The Lord gives strength to his people and the Lord blesses his people with peace." Psalm 29:11